FOrever Having Painful Sight In My Heart

031008

2008-10-03T15:59:00.000+08:00

here to share some photos taken last few weeks..
(:

weiling's 21st celebration photos;

annieee and yunnie

zhuo; annie; yunnie; choo

jessie; annie

weiling and danny

Missy Birthday Celebration

e environment. (:

cutie charlotte,
she can post LORH!~

lalala,
starting fire..

e card shanny design,
;D

shanny siggy.
hahahaha...

missy :)

US ;)hey i look so ROUND here,
shit, i think i gain weight.
darn..

UGLY hor,
look like her nanny or something.
eeeekkk..
ahahhha.. shitty missy

what is missy doing,
what is shanny doing and me?
and i can't even see my own eye..
-.-"

My S.H.E 11th Album
FM S.H.E

bought 2 version of e album,
this is e front,

this is e back. (:

future version eh inside.

retro? version eh inside (:

both album comes with free gift. :)

hebe! pretty awww.
;x

031008

2008-10-03T15:49:00.000+08:00

2005-01-21T17:56:00.000+08:00

Saturday & Sunday

Saturday evening after bathing whent o 283 there find wo de mummy as she say she wanna go to the 'You Geng' (read in hokkian) and so call 'forget what le' (i tot of a english way of saying but now already forget le), yah so after bathing i went.. b4 i reach i went to buy teenage as i tot i wont be going with them... den yah reach le mine mum was gambler-ing. i stand behind her, den when the thing start i went over to see.. was so packed and was block, have to tip-toe.. hur hur hur.. saw jeffery and his gf, they were there to work.. he is the crew of the video recording.. can see he's busy.. lol.. den yah, after everything was done, mine mum asked mi if i want to follow her anot, first tot is ok lo... den sec tot is eh, i think i better go back home.. third tot after i went off near them is, eh i feel like going lei.. hur hur hur.. so i walk back.. but can't wait for any bus.. just nice wo de dad call.. ask if got bus anot.. coz he like aso wanna go.. den we all cant wait but he came.. he walked here.. -.- tot he wanna drive us there u know... sob... so we at there waited n waited.. in the end we still g0t go, took papa car with them... heex.. so excited.. coz i never go b4.. =D.. ok ok lah, heard that they kenna catch by police as theres ppl complain. i think the ppl who complain is an idoit lo.. =x hur hur hur.. bad hoh.. but yah, u know hoh, aiyoyo we follow them le hoh very giddy lei. turn here and there.. lol but was very great lo.. this is mine first time following this so call occassion.. and yah, they walked from Behind west mall MRT station there back to 283. quite a long distance but was not tiring at all.. =D and yah, wanna say something.. ALOT OF HANDSOME guy.. =X haha.. really alot loh... OMG... i'm there like just to see handsome sia.. =X no la... hee... but really alot of handsome.. hmm after finish le, went to buy dinner den go back home le.. online awhile den go sleep.. zZzzZzzZz

Today, woke up at 11+ as i tot mum wil go grandma house at 12+ like that.. so i quickly went to bathe all this.. den suay suay she say wan sleep le den go.. fiak lo.. so angry lo.. but i ren, she say 2 den go.. ok i wait.. den 2 le.. i tell her, she ask mi to call mine ah ma and ask.. first i dun wanna call coz i know i sure get comments from mine ah yee they all.. but have no choice i called.. indeed i get all those words that i dun wanna hear.. upon hearing what they say, i hang the phone walk to mine room and cry. haiz... what to do.. i AP mine mum also.. hack care.. den 2.15+ she woke up.. so we went.. took a cab over.. most of mine relative reach le.. but wo de biao jie, her brother, da biao ge and biao shao not back yet.. so i straight away go to the room and read magazine.. haha.. hack care them.. hee.. den they came back.. talk, play.. den zhuzhu cut cake.. took pic.. will update soon.. =D once i get pic i wil update.. den eat, eat le go room rot again.. baby drinking milk at there.. haha.. i just know i really enjoy the time with them.. joke and fool around.. hur hur.. so fun.. den yah.. it has been very very very long since we lasted stayed till 6+ -7+.. den yah took cab home, bathe, watched tv and play game.. hee.. by the time now is zhuzhu b`dae already lo.. zhu zhu happie b`dae wor..

Happie 1st b`dae to zhuzhu

Monday

today is zhuzhu birthday wor... hee.. a kiss for him, Muackie..

hmm, woke up at 12+ in the afternoon if i not wrong wor.. heex.. very tiring... and i think i have a habit of sleeping LATE, like 3am? gosh. i'm dead man.. lol.. den yah, today did 6 round of PQ and all the pq we pass.. OMG, so happy and excited.. coz can do 6 time in a roll.. hee.. tiring man.. coz must keep clicking also.. sad.. humpf.. .den yah, today yanbin ask mi if wan to go out tmr.. hmm, i say ok.. coz also very lnog no go out with her le.. so must go lah.. dun care about MS first lah.. hee... and we meeting 1.30 tmr.. wee.. and i level 26 le, very near 30 and can change job le.. CLERIC wait for me.. lol.. =) and i end wo de post here le.. =D

Happie Birthday Little Zhuzhu, Muackie

Wednesday

Enjoyable but LAME

Yawns, so tiring. it's 4am in the monring of 19 jan.. hoho.. just finishing doing pq =D
today, woke up at 11 set alarm some more.. scare cannot wake up, den wake up le, go play ms.. PQ again.. LOL.. play till 12.30 i go pom pom, pom pom out find yanbin ask her what she wear den change clothing le jiu go out.. hmm, i find that what i wear is not very nice manz.. =X coz fat lahs.. LOL, =X yah, so took bus over to bukit panjang.. reach le awhile later Bin reached.. waited for 700, den at the meantime, chatting about cindy and kalai.. lol.. lame hoh.. hee.. den yah, reached far east, go walk walk... walk walk walk.. walk and i bought 1 skirt and 1 jeans.. cost mi $85. it's so expensive lo.. find le, den wanted to find yanbin de, but she like dun like wor.. den we go hereen.. saw derek, den distrub him by calling him and tell him we at jurong point saw him.. hee.. den yah, went hereen.. walk abit den go take photo.. take le, walk alittle whil both of us feel hungry, decided to go Cineleisure eat.. den we walk, when we walk out, we saw some camera thing.. and go take a look, saw Irene Ang and Bryan Wong.. they firming Ming Xing Dang An thing.. LOL.. den cross road, walk to B1 to see.. but in the end we went Burger King and eat.. so full by then.. den after eating we wanted to go walk walk de.. dunno y walk til movie there.. den saw a show call Omen. or what de forget le, tot is ghost movie.. but we still watch.. it's not ghost stories but it's kind of touching... nearly cry.. ='( BUT in the theather hoh, b4 the show start that Lin Yanbin mad sia... keep doing stupid acts.. make mi luff til piang.. den after watching go toilet den go find derek.. wait for him knock off from workz.. den after that we go Far East. when we waiting for derek knock off we at there keep talking to him, crapping.. lol.. den go far east.. saw a group of ex-fajarian.. lol.. den ya yanbin bought skirt, shirt.. hee.. den after she buy finish le, wanted to see watch.. so we went.. den she accidently drop 1 watch.. den crack lo.. WT! so suay meh.. in the end she needa buy man.. she so angry.. keep scolding bad words.. LOL. den after that we walk to Lucky Plaza de food court, but nothing.. den go macdonald.. but water and fries.. after eating headed home.. took 700 and yanbin took 171 whereas derek took MRT.. and OMG, saw a indian couple like sh!t.. say le also wan vomit.. lol.. okok end here.. bye bye..

2005-01-13T23:38:00.000+08:00

oh my goodness, i gonna kill mine teacher.. why i say that? COZ she call mi early in the morning at 8+. When i'm sleeping so soundly! piaks her.. lol.. well i did not answer as i was so tired. Reasons is I sleep at 4.30am. haha... den went back to sleep again. sleep till 10+ receive another phone call, again from wo de teacher.. aiyoyo.. have no ch0ice so to answer lorh.. haha, den she hoh, feel like killing her againz... coz now she say she cannot make it to our ceremony.. and i have to sms all people again telling them she is not going.. and now all not going le.. aiyoyo... lol.. she say wan go is actually want to give her face go now she not going.. when go school must say her liao.. she so bad.. da her pi gu ah.. haha.. den yah, played game.. play until 3+ went to bathe.. bathe le play awhile more den go out.. took cab over to yanbin place as i'm getting lazy to take bus with a big puzzle.. den went off from there.. actually wanted to take cab to west mall.. but cousin say slowly.. den i walk from her house to interchange. took 176 over. reach le, saw her and her friend.. name forget liao.. lol.. den yah, went to find baby present and her thing.. hur hur, she like haven get her bottle yet.. and we her baby a bear.. cute... cost us about $30. and each 15$. hee... coz we dunno what to buy liao le.. heex... den yah, buy le headed off to take bus, but i went back to west mall. wah, bought alot of food back.. got bread talk, bread, milk, cheese, ham, tibits.. OMG.. cost mi a BOMB man.. ah... no money le lah.. but nvm... it's better den starving at home... can save back the money.. and i will do it.. =D reached home, played game, had mine dinner and watching tv.. well, now i know how important friends are.. i'm really stupid for not treasuring them.. Sorry.. It's all mine fault and make mine friends around me off.. haiz.. and the channel u show is damn nice.. almost every time i cry while watching it.. haiz..

2005-01-12T17:49:00.000+08:00

arlow.. hmm did nothing else other den playing games.. haha.. yah yesterday dorothy called me and we talked.. talked alot.. den today she called again.. and yah, she asked me to gather all classmate to go for the graduation ceremy.. and i dun understand y they dun even know the details? and say what comfirm with mi other day.. i was very pissed off lorh.. hai..

i will get myself to forget u ASAP.! and i will do it.!

2005-01-09T14:00:00.000+08:00

woo... yesterday was kind of happy plus sad ba..

Happy because yesterday is wo de kor kor 21st b`dae.. many of his friend turn up.. kind of happy ba.. it's so noisy too... hmm i still remembered mine mum brother family is the first to turn up.. LOL.. den follow by mum's friend, mine mum de sister all... slowly all came.. hee... hmm, did not really eat the bufffet as i'm shy lahs.. =X kidding lahs.. coz alot ppl.. den shy ma.. =X haha... den yah at around 2+ we all sing b`dae song for mine kor kor.. his friend so supporting sia.. all sing.. so loud.. haha... den mine mama more worst.. say ask him find a girlfriend lah.. lol.. den his lion dance friend all orhhhhhhhhhhhh.... hahahaha.. so funnie.. den hoh, wow lau most are handsome de manz.. buay ta han.. mine biao jie also say that.. oppsss.. haha.. but really handsome lorh alot... hee.. den yah, slowly more n more ppl go and more n more ppl come.. can say it's separated into different groups. hee.. and yesh! i finally get to carry mine baby cousin le.. hee... wo de kor kor friend very funnie wan carry him but tio rejected.. haa.. den got one girl very pretty sia.. she's friendly too.. =D hmm can say most are very friendly ba.. only never get to know them.. oppss.. thick skin seh.. haha.. den yah, around 6+ to 7 mine aunt all come.. and wah, mine cousin all so clever.. know mine room.. hehe.. den yah, after that kor kor de temple friend all came.. and it's like PARTY time.. so noisy. mainly is children and uncles.. haha.. first they did not enter mine room.. den dunno how come all come and cramp around mine com.. 0mg..! but b4 they came mine kor kor de godsister and the 2 kid is in mine room.. so cute sia both of them.. talk alot with her lorh.. hahaz.. den when those kid come in.. i ji tao -.-''' haha.. all cramp around mine computer sia.. aiyoyo.. den awhile later they go back mine kor kor room and play liao.. -.- yah, they went off at around 10+ or 11+.. haha.. den after they went off, helped up with cleaning lorh.. kor kor de godsister also got help.. so good of her.. and i know another of her godsister.. 2 of them.. =D and after that play awhile com, go watch Xue Tian Shi, watch till 6 in the mornin den go sleep.. sleep till 12+ wake up.. haha...

2005-01-08T02:19:00.000+08:00

3 days no blog liao hoh.. heex.. hmm wanna say i wont blog if i never do anything special.. hee.. coz past few days i'm mainly at home playing game.. only on wednesday i went out.. went to jessie plcae. well, met them 1.30 at bukit panjang plaza.. den went to ntuc for buy something.. as jessie is buying things for dinner.. hmm, bought ice-cream up to her place and shuyi bought bun.. haha... yah, after that we headed to her place.. reach her place her little brother was at home.. he was watching vcd, MVP Qing Ren, den jessie go prepare night de thing... and for us de thing... den while eating shuyi mention that she bought vampire show.. but i dunno what show.. den jessie went to the study room and get a bag of vcd.. haha.. shuyi was overjoyed.. lol, den yah, after finish eating, she watched while me and jessie was at the kitchen listening to her problem.. hai... den she told me lots of things ba.. well, even if u tell me, i can do nothing.. but just to share a burden? hmm, since past is past... let all the unhappiness be gone forever.. we are now in 2005, so lets welcome the future and forget about the past.. =D the past give me alot of sadness that i dunno how to say.. when i'm free one day i write it out in point form.. really upsad me almost a year.. but well, it's past.. hmm den yah, after jessie finish preparing her dinner, we went to the room and watched Windstruck.. coz i have the urge to watch, hee.. den watch until half way her sister come back.. OMG.. just come back already kp her brother liao... haha.. but after that okok lah.. nothing happen. watch until going to finish we off it as i wanted to watch Hai You Ming Tian but in the end i never watch lorh.. haha... den jessie had her dinner where as i am waiting to play game.. haha.. after she finish, we watch tv den go out le.. went to Bukit Panjang de night market den go clementi, took cab over to clementi... den went to giodano as i wan to get t-shirt for mine brother.. den headed back to wait for weiqi, she reach.. omg she become so pretty.. haha... wear skirt and her hair become straight.. 0mg.. haha.. yah walked and buy frame, i bought a s.h.e puzzle and jessie bought JAy de.. hee... den after that they went to buy shark fin den go macdonald sit and talk.. talk rubbish lorh.. den 9++ we go off.. buy some food and we walked from central to Clementi ite bus-stop... den reach home.. play game got problem, but manage to fix it... den play.. until mig night.. and i realise that mine mum i getting more n more crazy... early in the morning wake mi up just to ask mi to change place to sleep.. really very LAME sia she... hee.. hmm today? i played game from 11 till 1+.. haha.. crazy right? 13 hours.. hoho... died 3 times... =X if not i should have level by den.. sob... yah... Jan 8 is mine brother birthday which is today..

Happie 21th Birthday to mine Kor Kor

2005-01-04T16:39:00.000+08:00

aiyoyoyoyoy... u know hoh.. already 2005 de third day le ehs.. hee.. still the same everyday stay at home.. chiong game.. hahaz.. saturday went to jessie place, meet shuyi 11.30 at Plaza, den went to buy something.. den headed to her place, her small brother open door for us.. whereas jessie was doing houseworkz.. den she on computer for me.. to play.. hahaz.. very hard to train... hur hur.. did not level that day.. hmm was at her place playing, and eating.. hur hur.. help her little brother abit about homeworkz.. den watch tv abit nia.. only when jay and S.H.E part.. LOL... den went to buy MacDonald.. still buy Or Wa Mi Shua.. haha.. mad hoh.. den headed home.. den start to eat l0rh.. while eating was talking.. haha.. ery lame.. hear jessie and her br0ther talking about their school teacher.. luff till siao.. den hoh.. that shuyi hoh.. diao sia.. eat so fast.. she finish 2 burger le.. i stil stuck with mine turnover.. -.- to be frank it's quite full lorh.. b4 that i eat nothing lei.. sob. sooo full!!! haha... den yah, after that her brither train his account.. whereas we was playing MonoPoly.. play until watch tv.. haha... den at 9 we went off, took cab home lorh.. den play game again.. hai.. sunday at home lorh.. doing nothing.. monday also.. tuesday also.. feel like crying after watching tv.. sobby..

2005-01-01T01:54:00.000+08:00

today is the last day of 2004 le.. and also it's ruiyun b`dae..

the last 2 days, same thing stay at home, watch tv, play game, eat sleep.. hahaz.. CRy also.. think of lots of things.. haiz...

today? hMm woke up at 11. today is the most earilest time i woke up.. normally is 11+ or 12. as i slept at 3 yesterday.. -.- wake up le den go play game le.. den catherine sms mi, asked if i am awake.. den she came after MVP Qing Ren. i watched it too.. realise that it's very nice.. hee.. it's a very long time since i last watch in channel u.. hur hur.. den ya she reach at 12+, actually i wanted to level de but she come liao cannot.. so log off den go help her with it.. omg.. took so long time.. grrr.. den in the end like got problem.. scary.. den they both reach and we both was previewing.. hahaz.. den yah, clear table all this.. same time jessie help mi train. den hoh, i die.. wt.. LOl.. den ya i did level lorh.. 38 wee..,. den jessie train hers.. level too.. den train back mine.. yah, they went back at 8.30.. as for catherine she went back at 6.30.. den after jessie they all go, i help catherine wit her PPT.. den done le... hee.. go back train.. about 10+ meet catherine to give her back her cd.. den we go 283 there see see. OMG it's so BORING man.. LOL.. den we headed home.. den play game.. sms kIan kw0ng all the way.. LOL.. den yah.. had a very sad last day of 2004.. cried.. hai...

Happie Birthday Rui Yun ;)

Happy Year 2005 =)

2004-12-28T13:38:00.000+08:00

wowowowowowow.. hahaz.. very long never update le.. nvm..

22 December 2004

i did nothing as i stay at home whole day lorhz.. therefore is play compter whole day.. ;)

23 December 2004

today i went out. meet Jessie 2pm at Bukit Panjang, hmm i took a cab over as i miss the bus and i scare i late. den reach there b4 2. den jess and zhuo haven reach... aiyoyo.. den waited for at NTUC there.. den soon Jessie reach.. den we go walk walk.. sms zhuo, he still at home.. must beat him ah.. bish.. LOL.. u know he reach at what time? 3+ OMG... meet 2 he come at 3.. pro lorh.. LOL.. den yah we order Mac.. hmm not bad lei.. the TurnOver.. hee.. after eating we went to Sembawang to get cds.. i bought Super J-Pop Ballade and zhuo buy Ayumi and one mnore guy de cd.. den we walk off.. den go back againz coz cd crack.. hahaz.. change le we go NTUC buy drinks.. 2 bottle of Ice Lemon Tea.. den we headed to take 963. in the bus we mad around coz no ppl.. hahaz.. den yah reach Harbour Front we went to the shopping mall to buy ice.. den buy le go back interchange take sentosa bus in.. den reach le waiting for blue line bus, saw jian wen and guohao. den we pretent to hide.. in the end he saw us. den they both talk, we three talk.. hahaz.. den bus come, in the bus lame againz.. den after that reach Siloso beach, walk very far... haha... leg pain.. reach le hug ping.. den never help out much lorh.. sit there eat can le.. play around all this.. den take a video of bin, ling and ping.. hahaz.. so funny.. i never delete.. wee.. den was there until 10+.. reach home 11+ goin 12. den go bathe le play computer.. hahaz.. over all was okay lorh..

24 December 2004

Happie Birthday WanYew ;)

25 December 2004

wah, tday is christmas lei but i never go out.. humpf. whole day stay at home rot againz... very sad.. but nvm.. go out also full of ppl.. hee.. den like that lorh.. i clear mine table abit le.. and mine poster are re-arranged.. look ok to me.. hee.. den play computer whole day long.. wee.. hahaz..

26 December 2004

today gonna celebrate mine grandfather birthday, but is 5 den start.. so in the monring i was playing game till 3+ i went to bathe.. den 4+ i go out.. but none reached.. i and mine mum reach first.. u know what? today i morning until 6+ also never eat a single things ok..

26 & 27 December 2004

eh eh. did nothing.. same thing lorh.. hahaz... okok stop here.. bb

2004-12-21T23:35:00.000+08:00

halow.. i'm back.. heez.. i'm very happy today.. humpf... i wrong mine dad... sorry papa.. coz today he buy me phonez liao.. hMm even is E600C i am very happy.. coz it cost him $480.. Sorry for the misunderstanding.. hMm very contented.. coz morning i manage not to sleep and as a promise to mine mum, and i did it.. i helped her.. hee.. happie.. den 4.30am den sleep.. and today.. i level to 30 le.. wee.. happy.. changing job later.. hee.. den ya.. went to buy phone lorh.. thanks papa..

Happie Birthday to Jenny ;)

2004-12-20T21:38:00.000+08:00

i'm very sad.. haiz.. i dunno what's happening to me againz.. yesterday cried. againz.. haix.. who can help me? anyone hu can help me? i doubt no. no one will help me.. haix.. i'm very lonely... anyone know? haiz.. i just hope that one day i can really be alone at home from morning cry till nite.. i really hope i can.. i'm very sad nowadays... or lemme shout out as loud as i can.. haix... whatz going on with me? ARGH... hai, y can't i get the things i want? everytime have to make empty promise.. since young i have been getting empty promises from them.. and now againz.. u promise when u win 4d u will get me one.. and now u win and u dun wanna pay more? how can i get a hp with the price of 100++ - 200++ without line? HOW... if u wanna get me a LOUSY phone, i tell u.. NO WAY.. dun buy is the best.. scare waste money.. den what for buy? Na Bei.. i'm really very disappointed lorh.. i keep thinking i can get a good phone.. but now mine wish is gone... i dun think i can get what i wan againz.. haiz.. i really dunno what to say lah... full of tears and sadnes.. HAIZ... how i hope i can just once get the things i wan lorh.. since young... ARGH.... FUCK ah.. haiz...

as for today? woke up at 11+ in da morning and saw aijuan message.. asking mi to wake up.. bish.. know what time she sms me? 9+... by the time i reply.. she already level le.. bish... den ya, her sister help mi do quest.. jumping quest.. both mine quest done le.. wee.. happy.. den i go play norh.. den ya, level to 28 le.. yea.. happie.. hee.. but broke le.. sob.. haha.. den ya.. play till half way need to download patch.. hai.. dunno lah.. just feeling sad and down lorh.. coz mine dad ask mi if got sell 100+ -200+ den hp.. grrr.. without line where can get this price? grrrrrrrrr... pek lorh.. haiz... but i cannot do much lah.. cry also cry le.. sad also sad le.. den wan me do what? diez? HAIZ...

2004-12-19T13:02:00.000+08:00

wah.. 5 days never update.. -.-

aiya, actually hoh, everyday also same thing.. wake up play com till late night.. that's what i do the whole day and everyday.. hMm wanna wish mine friend happy birthday.

15 December 2004

Happie Birthday Penny ;)

17 December 2004

Happie Birthday Papa ;)

18 December 2004

Happie Birthday Jiapeng ;)

thats all.. hee.. wait wait.. hmm yesterday i went out lei.. i went to mine aunt place.. heng ah, wo de cousin never forget me wor.. so happy.. hee.. den mine aunt bring us out even it's just to pray but i'm very contented.. coz her whole family and I wor.. hee.. den went to night market see got frame mah.. but dun have.. den go fajar coffee shop. den after that went home lorh.. that's all.. den around 6 mine dad came.. den went off.. den u know when i go off, 4 of mine cousin keep shouting Jie jie bye bye.. haha.. so cute.. -.- hee.. ya den went to Bangkit there eat with daddy mah.. saw one Wen Long helping out at the coffee shop.. den saw another girl.. his classmate i think lah.. and 3 girls keep talking about him.. lame sia.. LOL.. den ask dad bring me to bangkit night market to se.. and nothing also.. grrr... den go home lorh.. play com lorh.. like that lorh.. haha

sunday

today? sure is stay at home whole day coz dad go sentosa with RC ppl.. haha.. den again is play game lioa lorh.. okok.. i stop here.. play game le.. ;)

2004-12-14T18:54:00.000+08:00

woot.. i'm here to type mine post.. if not later never update againx.. hee.. hai, yesterday i cry lei.. but this time round is got reasons de.. is coz i attitude with mine dad.. coz mine tv spoil mah.. and yesterday got S.H.E mah.. den i say faster go and repair lah.. hai.. felt so guilty lorh.. dunno what to say.. straight after he walk off mie tears drop.. and i know it's mine fault.. now typin mine eye also abit red and watery.. hai.. and u guys know? it has been 2 weeks since i last go out le.. how? i think after shuyi b`dae i hasn't been out liao.. zhe mo ban? and about 2 weeks le.. hai.. slacking at home playing computer game is the only things i do lorh.. watch tv also lah.. haha.. yah today i woke up at 11+.. wake up le brush teeth den go mine room on computer and play lorh of coz.. den actually wanted to go mine second aunt place de.. but end up at home.. haha... i about 1 month never go down le.. okok.. i promise if today i can levl till 20 or 21 i tmr go kk.. if not later mine cousin dunno me again.. i will cry i tell u.. haha.. ya know y i so good come back post mah? coz hoh, Maple down mah... haha.. =X okok lah.. i stop here.. today not bad.. mine tv is back to normal le.. thanks papa and sorry papa... den hoh 3more days mine papa b`dae lei.. but mine kor kor not in singapore... he still at thailand.. until 23 i think.. sob sob.. okok lah.. bye bye.. ;)

Happy Birthday Deon ;) kaka

2004-12-13T18:31:00.000+08:00

oh my goodness. time really fly so fast lorh.. coz again it has been 2days since i last update man..

saturday
today? i stay at home the whole day loh. wanting to go aunt place but end up staying at home, i also dunno what i did, eat play and tv ba.. haha..

sunday
was being asked to wake up by 9.30 and it's so early k.. the night b4 i slept at 2+. grrr. stupid.. but never mind lorh.. coz wake up early is to go mine grandparents place mah.. ya get ready by 10 like that.. after that went to coffee to find mine mum.. den we went to Pandan Garden there eat lorh, eat le jiu go ah ma house... ah yee they all haven reach.. but after an hour or so, they reach.. MINE cousin was there.. haha... Omg.. hee.. soooo cute.. can't stop looking at him.. oppss.. hee.. dun get wrong idea ok.. ya but hai, abit disappointed lorh.. coz he dun allow anyone to carry him... not even me.. hai.. only his mum and mine big ah yee.. hai.. yyyy??? grr.. den yah, around 1 we went off coz mum going back to help at her bao dian.. but b4 that they drive me to Jurong Point to get glue and frame.. but the frame cost me 40+ and i did not buy.. and this time really die le. coz no frame cannot give yanbin le.. oh my goodness.. den ya went to the taxi stand there wait lorh.. while waiting went to buy Chendol ice-cream... hmm not bad lah.. den after they reach headed home.. reach home once again play with computer game.. hahah.. den ya lorh.. den watch Star Award lorh.. ;) den play game again den go sleep..

Monday

today? stay at home whole day lorh.. doing nothin.. play computer game lorh... that's my life ba.. haha.. den again got the feeling of crying, i do not know y.. it has been days that i have been crying... no one knows... i myself also dunno y.. it;s like mine tears just row down.. hai.. think maybe i think of sad things again ba.. know what? i realise that albert dun really like me ba.. coz i give him a testimonal he did not approve instead he approve his friends de.. fiak lorh.. kns. well, if that's the case den i think i wont treat him as a friend too.. regret liking him all this years.. 6 YEARS.. and get reject 3 times... hai.. and mine b`dae no greeting and not even a message.. I WONT GIVE HIM ANYTHING AGAIN ON HIS BIRTHDAY OR VALENTINE DAY..!!! grrr... I HATE HIM.. i realise that from the day i get his number till now he did not even send me a cute message or so.. wtf.. think what.. fuck off lah.. i will hate u from now on.. hai.. i wont regret saying.. i really dun.. coz since u dun treat me as a friend y do i need to treat u? haha.. someppl too, ever since got gf liao.. treat me as what? well, it's ok lah.. i get used to it lah... i wil forget all those u said to me b4.. like me b4.. but now coz of mine attitude? haha.. thanks ah... thanks for not being mine bf.. i'm greatful u know.. hahahahahahah... LOL... lalalla.. haha... and again i think i going to change webby again.. make it no one know.. wahahahahah... not even a single person and i promise myself.. ;) anyway today hoh is yanbin de b`dae.. Yanbin ah.. i know u wont be able to see here but i wanna wish u a Happy Birthday ;)

Happy Birthday to Yanbin ;) kaka

2004-12-10T22:10:00.000+08:00

let me recap what i did yesterday.. hmm i went to sleep at nealy 5pm.. and wake up at 6+ coz mine dad is doing something in the room and the sound wake mi up.. grr.. after i wake up mine head is damn pain... pain until i cry norh.. haI.. den actually doesn't want to see doctor one.. but have no choice... pain until i may see starz anytime norh.. den yah after dad went over to grandma house help her inject he called me and ask if i wanna go so i went... went to the nearby doctor and see.. took me 5mins to see but waited for 1hours den is mine turn.. haha.. OMG.. but ok loh.. after see liao came back home.. after eating had the medicine.. hmm.. after eating i get alright.. BUT somehow will pain norh.. hai.. but nvm lah.. slowly will be ok loh.. o.O den never go jessie b`dae.. grrr... yah den played maplestory until 2.30 as i promise zhuo i gonna offline after he level.. den yah.. i manage to wait till he level... hee.. den after that i went to sleep norh..

today i wake up at 11+ ba... den went online again lorh.. train abit of warrior den train mine mage. level 14 le.. yahoo.. y dun wan train warrior? coz i wanna wait for zhuo mah.. after he level to 29 liao den we train to 30 lorh.. den change job together.. hee.. what we promise lorh.. den yah, mine head is like ok and not ok lorh.. sometime not pain sometime pain lorh... dunno why lah.. aiyox.. but i still got eat the medicine lorh.. den yah, play play play play until 6+ or 7+ say wanna do patch thing lorh.. den offline and wait lorh.. grr.. haha.. okok lah... that's all for today.. ;)

2004-12-09T13:38:00.000+08:00

hmm, again i hasn't been update for many days... hMm monday? i stayed at home the whole day played computer and watch tv norh... haha.. den tuesday? Jessie and Aijuan came up mine place to fix puzzle. OmG, we took about 4hours to finish fixing. to me it's very amazing lorh.. coz if me alone i dunno need to take how many days manx.. hee.. and yes we finished... after going for 2hours we order MacDonald.. den eat.. eat le do again lorh.. hee.. den after we finish start to play com liao... first aijuan play den jessie play, while jessie is playing we aijuan and me down there fighting.. haa.. we both hoh.. always de... got chance will fight de.. LOL... den around 7+ they went off... after they went off i played computer lorh.. den watch tv.. den ate durian... den hoh, omg.. i'm down with sore throat pain.. grr.. tot it will be alright the next day, but never will i know that the next day it's more worst.. hai.. ya wednesday at about 9+ mine dad came to mine room and ask if he can damage the puzzle anot.. den i straight away shouted at him... hai.. from there i know mine voice change le... sob.. den have no choice to wake up and think how to deal with the puzzle.. argh...! den yah, settled... den after that i nevr go back sleep le.. go back play game.. play until 4+ i think i go sleep.. sleep till 7+ den from the moment i wake up i realise mine whole body very cold.. and the bed very hot.. den i go and check mine temperature it's 37.5 or something.. and i know i'm down with fever... still never mind i keep checking mine temperature. and got 38.5 all this de.. den around 12+ i went to sleep as mine head is very painful.. den mine mum wake up and check mine forehead.. and she say i fever very high.. and asked mine dad to go 7-11 to buy panodol for me.. ask mi eat le den sleep.. den mine dad go lorh.. after 5 mins he's back so i drink le den go sleep le.. until now norh.. hai, never go jessie de b`dae coz mine head very giddy... guess later need to sleep le.. coz mine head like spinning le...

2004-12-05T23:30:00.000+08:00

wow, best lorh, i 3 days never update neh.. haha.. hMm thursday i whole day stay at home norh, playing game norh.. coz nothing to do mah... hee... den friday went to Jessie place to watch tape and play abit of computer lorh.. hee.. nothing much ba last 2 days.. den saturday went to jessie place again... what we do? hmm, when we reach we were eating, den after eating we were playing game well jessie was the one playing as she's helping me to level lorh.. hee and yesh, level 25 le wor.. wee u wee.. so happy.. den yah i was very pissed with Sweet talk de those aunties.. Evil Mouth.. Freaking Attitude.. Pui.. kns.. den yah, at 5 we start to bake the muffin... hMm, very fun loh.. hee.. it's very enjoyable.. hope to learn more from them..hee.. i roughly know how to do le.. yea.. next time i try do, but i dun have those machine to do lei.. nvm, find..hee.. den yah jessie and me even do Happy Birthday give shuyi wor.. hee.. den yah, bake finish le den we go off norh. pei jessie go plaza buy dinner den we went off.. reach home, on com, play den go bathe, cook maggie mee den play ghame again.. hee.. so fun.. 40+ % to level 26 le.. must Chiong le.. okok lah.. stop here.. this are the updates okae.. dun say i never TYPE.. LOL... hee..

Today? hMm wake up at 11+. den play computer game lorh.. hee... den play till 1+ i go pom pom.. coz going out mah help shuyi celebrate b`dae norh.. hee.. meet them 3 at bukit panjang bus-stop.. den we headed to town, lucky plaza coz i wanna get mine s.h.e cd norh.. omg.. i finally get it man.. hee.. den i order calander, and poster.. well, it's kind of ex loh, but never mind lah... hee.. =X den i saw one girl hoh, but s.h.e stuff can buy till 100+++.. omg.. LOL.. faint.. if me sure kenna scolding till siao one sia.. ya was there for very long coz many ppl loh.. den after that we wanted to buy chandol ice-cream at 7-11 but den no more.. den nvm lorh.. den later walk to far-east de 7-11 also dun have.. was like wth.. haha.. den ya went to shop as we finding present loh.. and hai. i dun wanna mention what happen lorh.. seems to be mine fauLt lah.. nvm.. but still zhuo, jess and me buy a $20 de shirt loh.. to me i find it nice lah.. anyway is shuyi choose de.. after we buy, we took bus to Jurong Point we first took 190 den after that take 180.. hMm we reach at 5+ lorh.. tat's early manx.. haha.. den yah, reach JP got a show.. stand there and watch lorh.. den wait for them to come.. den last min they say they not eating.. was like wtf... forget it lorh.. but at lease zhuo very good.. he join us... 4 of us eat.. haha.. nvm we still enjoy.. we ate Wishing Star Festa Meal.. cost us 51.92. and each of us paid $13.. and i'm full... jessie too.. hee.. sooo fuLL.. grrr... den after eating we went to take neo-print..hee.. fun wor.. after we took we accompanied zhuo to popular.. den after that headed home norh.. coz already 9+ going to 10 liao... took 180 wib jessie den when going to reach BP one of mine friend ex called me.. aiyoyo.. haha.. den after tat reach interchange my cousin call me.. ask mi pei her go swimming.. haha... o.O but i never. coz me already have been out 4 days le.. so cannot go.. hee.. den come back online and play norh.. hee.. den ya like that loh.. tmr den update.. buai buai..

Happie Birthday Shuyi

2004-12-01T22:33:00.000+08:00

did not update for 2 days wor.. hehe.. very tired this few days..

Monday 29 November

had mine last paper today, OMG it's so difficuLt lorh, i dunno how to do lorh.. haix.. i hope i dun fail and i hope i dun need to repeat my this subject lorh.. coz i really anyh0w do.. HAI.. shit liao lorh.. very sad lei.. later if result bad how? cannot go higher nitec i will cry ah.. just hope i can lorh.. Pray Hard for me ppl.. sob sob..

After exam went to town with Jessie and Shuyi, went to take Jessie HP den we headed to Hereen, bought Hotdog Bun. den walk to somset(dunno how to spell) mrt there de bus-stop den took 106 back. in da bus we talk alot, planning for Shuyi b`dae. den reach BB we walk from Keming Primary schOol to mine house here.. hee.. they went to buy Spring Chicken and i headed home norh. played computer while waiting norh.. they reach liao, but by the time i was helping kian kwong to trade things. haha.. den went to the living room to eat.. wow, all was kinda full norh.. left with quite alot lorh.. haha.. den after we are full, came to mine room and watch tv.. and i was playin game. hehe.. ya, they headed home at 7+.. after that i played game norh.. watch tv norh.. hehe.. den waiting for ppl de sms lorh.. haha.. coz the next day ish mine b`dae mah. LOL.. so excited wor.. but i receive very less sms.. quite sad lorh.. sigh. hMm tmr will be going to sentosa wor.. hee.. okok lah, i stop here.. hee...

30November 2004 Tuesday

Today, wake up at 8.15 lorh, can't really wake up coz i slept at 2+ man.. can't sleep.. dunno y nehx. haha,, as a result, i can't really wake up nor.. but still have to wake up lahs.. LOL.. den after wash up i went to mine room and pack mine things before bathe.. hee.. yup pack half way, went to bathe, bathe come out faster pack my things and i went off.. hMm took 9.20+ de bus wor.. den yup reach Habour Front at 9.50. I'm da first wor.. LOL.. den yup follow by yun den derek den yanbin they all den Shuyi.. hee.. yup went to eat first coz all are hungry norhs.. hee.. den jessie they all give me present lorh.. Jessie and group buy vcd give me, yanbin group buy S.H.E poster and necklace give me.. thanks alot.. den after we finish eating Shuyi came, waited for her.. den after that headed to take bus lorh.. den go siloso beach, rent vball played awhile den play Zhong Ji Mi Ma.. LOL.. ping lost.. hee.. heng i never tio.. she tio four feet. know whats? dun wanna say 8 of us know can liao.. haha.. bleah. den yah after that i sms him and i ask him. he rejected again, hMm actually i know the answer i just wanna try again.. and i dun feel sad.. coz i know i have no feeling for him liao.. dunno y i go and ask him.. maybe coz i know that i already have no chance liao mah.. haha. den yah 1+ all of us went to bathe.. as theres no sun lorh, after we bathe we went to return vball. den headed off noehx. lol.. went to Town by train... and decided to play pool lorh.. after we accompany shuyi go take pay we walk to Far East to have our Dinner. ate Chicken Culet rice.. very fun dunno y.. haha.. den after eating went to toilet den some of us take bus down to paradiz there, den some walk.. walk de ppl are yun, jess and shuyi. den take bus got me, derek, siewfong and yanbin... haha.. reach lioa den we start to play, i did not play much i only see nia.. haha.. very good hoh.. hee.. coz i very long time no play very qi guai.. den ping came, her niece cannot come in so we went out to pei her norhs.. some play some pei her.. play play play until going to 7 we went off.. cost us $9.30. very cheap sia.. LOL.. den after that headed to Plaza Singapura as ping say her niece wanna go walk walk.. den we go, reach le yun say wanna play arcade.. den we go, haha.. reach liao den i was like eh, y dun wan change? den yun say she got.. den i was like put mine hand up and ask her give lorh.. den she never give.. and i alos dunno y i never saw zhuo zhuo lorh.. he was just behind yun they al lorh, den i was very qi guai den i look behind yun i saw him, i was so shock lorh, tot he tell me he go genting? den i was like diao, tot he go genting? den i pinch him.. haha.. den i kay siao act angry walk off, but yun and jess pull me.. hee.. i was so shock and surpirse lorh.. thanks alot zhuo and all wor.. give me such surprise.. hee.. den after that play game lorh, aijuan call, she very what lorh.. make me very disappointed.. say dun wann go out, den end up in Harbour Front with her BF.. very disappoint lorh.. hai. i was abit angry with her lorh.. kao.. aiya, forget it lah.. yah den after playing went to Bugis, coz ping and fong wanna give something to her friend.. took 7 over, den at the bus-stop i dunno y suddenLy so blur, yun and fong tok to me i also blur sia.. den bus come, in bus shuyi hoh,, aiyoz.. LOL. make us all luff.. den reach bugis went to buy drinks, den went to find ping friend... stand there so long haven pass so some of us went to walk walk, pei zhuo go sembawang lorh, after that go pei yanbin go see movie de thing, den go kinokuniya, bought 2 comic.. hee.. den went back to find them, just nice they all ok liao, so we went to take neo-print aiyoz.. know what? 10 person squeeze in sia.. very fun lorh.. den after take liao all went home, took bus lorh, know what anot? jessie need to pay $1.50.. kns.. the driver also kns sia.. LOL, den in bus we all also very lame, duno y talk until linking of house all this.. den our action all very big lorh.. haha.. den yah, they sing happie birthday song to me in the bus, but is very soft lorh. haha... so happy.. den yah, goo drop off den miine bus come den went ghome lorh, unpack mine things den bathe den play com, mine hand dunno what happen very suan.. haha.. den i log off and switch off mine computer, at around 1159 like that juan call me, talk to me. say happy birthday to me and we chat for about 15 mins. haha.. den i log in to maplestory and we both scold eachother den after that i log off, never sleep but i went to the living room to watch tv, watch liao cannot sleep reach comics.. den watch abit de vcd.. den went to bed lorh.. hee.. kok lah.. stop here end of mine post.. I'm very happy lorh.. thanks alot everybody who celebrated for me and the present.. ^^

Happy Birthday to Haojun(mine cousin)

Happy Birthday to KwaiFong

Happy Birthday to Myself

as for today? hMm stay at home the whole day norh, playing games and watch vcd lorh.. haha.. nothing lioa lorh.. LOL.. actually plan to go jessie placce but Shuyi last min got work den never go, den i also and very suan so bo bian norhs.. hee.. okok lah, stop here.. buai buai.

2004-11-28T23:00:00.000+08:00

did not update yesterday coz i also dunno y.. LOL.. hMm yesterday whole day stay at home doing nothing.. mostly is play MapleStory and chat lorh.. nothing le.. ha.. that's all for yesterday..

today? wake up at 10+ den go bathe.. bathe le wait for father come bck den go down eat. eat liao went to mine grandparents place. Mine little cousin was there.. we reach he just wake up.. well i did not carry him today, as i'm sick dun wish to pass mine sickness to him lorh.. sob.. he's so cute, ya, stay at grandma house until 12.50 and went off, as mine mum need to be back to look after the bao stall. so me and dad came home, i played computer since 1+-10+.. 9long hours.. and i open a account train as Bowman(Archer).. going to train mine mage in a few days. but i not sure if i am free, tmr after paper, wil be going to town with jessie and shuyi, den come mine house.. den maybe at night train.. den tuesday going sentosa to celebrate mine b`dae lorh.. den after that think rot at home first, den go out find work le.. i wanna dye hair, paul never say i also dunno lei.. LOl.. okok lah, i wanna read thru mine book liao, den wait for mine kor kor to call and i have to take money go down. hai so late le wor.. hope father faster come back den i can dun need go down liao.. Wish me good luck for tme paper.. =) Good Luck everybody and not only me.. ^^

2004-11-26T13:12:00.000+08:00

hallow, yesterday wanted to update but hoh abit lag the internet connection. so i make it today loh.. hee

Yesterday went to Jessie place with Shuyi to study, Yes we did study. 3 of us do the paper that the teacher give us. ya we did, haha. in between we keep turn the paper and check lei.. LOL but we manage to finish lorh.. den after that went to eat which Jessie sister Cindy cook. Yummy Yummy, very nice. haha.. This is not the first time we eat at her place already sIa.. LOL.. den after that see Jessie play com. Then 5.30 we watch Fei Yi Ban Ma Ma.. Cindy is so lame, keep talking rubbish saying kiss, all this.. LOL.. sooo funnie lorh.. den after that watch le awhile they help mi cut the S.H.E thing out, Thanks alot Jessie and Shuyi and Jessie family for drinking finish lei and Cindy for reminding Jessie to pass to me.. wow, so happie lorh.. hee. den after that went to Plaza to get Bread and some tibits. After that headed home, online and played game. Jiapeng help mi level even though i'm already going to level up le.. but thanks to him, he even buy weapon for me leix.. 2 one is level 15 de another one is level 20 de.. hee.. so good lorh, den play until very sian offline off computer, went to Living Room to copy RTO notes copy until 12+ the show finish i went to sleep.

Today

hMm yea, wake up at 11 lorh, den play computer lorh, just came out of the bathroom lorh, typing my blog now. Becasue i'm going to schOoL very soon to have my Next paper which is EFW 2hours long de paper, Hope i can do it.. later must study when i walking nehx.. LOL. after this paper really much study for RTO i have not been studying BUT always play game, RTO i very scare so i think this few days i will on mine com and put away mood lorh.. MUST REALLY STUDY LE.. ^^ okok shall end here 1hour and 10mins time to my next paper liao.. buai bua.. ^^

i'm back from my paper.. LOL. OMG, mine paper is quite difficuLt lorh. Don't really know how to do, i just anyhow do nia.. haix.. don't know i can get at lease an B mah? i only got confident for Minutes Of Meeting nia leix. others i really anyhow de.. ya den after exam went home lorh.. LOL.. reach home and i felt so HUNGRY sia. have no choice but to bare with it coz just a few hours will be dinner time liao mah.. but i eat alot of tibits lorh. die liao.. sure more n more worst de.. LOL. keep coughing sia now. i must faster recover den hoh, later monday can enjoy mah.. tuesday i dunno how lah, dunno if wan celebrate at sentosa mah.. hai, if go after that go where? HAIZ... SIAN AH.. okok lah, i really dunno what to do now very boring lah.. mayb watch vcdlorh.. s.h.e concert de.. 0mg~ must really thanks Jesie.. she call mi from jay de concert lei.. let mi hear he sing de song... Ge Qian and An Jing.~~~ OMG.. thanks a million Jessie... ^^ An Jing Rocks lorh.. but mine s.h.e more rox.. like that make mi more n more feel like going to watch S.H.E de nehx.. zhe mo ban? must really post liao.. AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE..~!~!~!!~~!

ONE THING TO MENTION..~!~!!~!! I LEFT WITH ONE PAPER ONLY...!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAHOO..~!~! Happy..

AND mine mum give me $60 for mine b`dae nehx.. hee... hope my dad and brother get mi something wor.. hee.. thanks mummy..

2004-11-24T22:40:00.000+08:00

aiyo, today hoh very boring neh.. whole day at home doing nothing, cannot play MapleStory. coz they doing something.. from morning 10+ wait till nighht 10. den zhuo say he from yesterday 1+ wait till 10+.. wow. haha.. den play until level 18 i go orh orh liao,c zo mi keep sneezing.. from morning sneeze until night.. some more that day take BSA exam i cough cough cough.. hai.. but never mind lah.. long long time once.. =X hMm nothing much to blog for today le.. bye bye.

2004-11-23T23:59:00.000+08:00

Yipee!! One Paper over.. hur hur..

hMm yesterday hor, know what time i sleep mah? around 2+. can't sleep.. i even sms to 93.3fm to dedicate songs lorh... after that listen afew songs more faster force myself sleep.. den today nehx? can't really wake up.. to tired le.. sob.. wake up at 8.30 and went to on com den bathe. den go out lorh.. had our paper.. felt very angry lorh.. keep asking mi how to do.. grrr.. den after exam went to West Mall with Junzhuo, catherine and Aijuan.. went to Sembawang den went to Food Court and had our Lunch cum Breakfst lorh.. den after that came back home.. played MapleStory. haha.. as if no more paper le sia.. BUT we got 2 MORE.. hOpe faster finish wor.. grr.. LOL

One paper Finish le.. Yipeee...

2004-11-22T23:09:00.000+08:00

Wow, today ah? nothing much to post lorh.. all the while at home.. change my email for maplestory, created a new charater. Warrior. Level 15 le.. yea. so happy. from 2+ play till 11+. LOL.. took 8 hours to become 15. Lousy hoh? coz i watch tv, go do this and that.. of coz lah.. haha.. but i'm happy.. hee.. wanna create mage or Theif next le.. hur hur..

S.H.E Rocks..

2004-11-21T22:04:00.000+08:00

Haix.

Today wake up at 9+ in the morning, den went to my room play computer lorh.. around 10+ mum came back. she asked me to fold clothes, first i did not as i am playing game mah. some more i will do mah, this few days she ask mi do i also got do, only when i going to sleep den i do mah. den at 11+ she wake up from her nap and SHOUTED at me lorh.. i damn pissed off loh, as if i NEVER help her before lorh. KNS.. so i also dulan i bang here and there lorh. she keep on kao-pei-ing lorh.. I buay ta han liao i ji tao say her and cry infront of her lorh, i really cannot take it liao lorh, i just say lorh, i never offend u hoh, dun scold like i'm dead person hoh.. den i say brother never do u dun scold i never u scold. think what? i for u to scold izzit? i ever say may as well ask mi go die, suffering so much for WHAT? she call my dad scold my dad, very fuck lorh she, WHY DON'T CALL UR SON AND SCOLD HIM? ALWAYS TAKE MONEY FROM U? CB.. den she come to the kitchen and refill water for the hot water thing lah. she throw the metal cup and drop, i can say if hit me u see i will do what loh. den she push the chair and the chair also drop lorh.. fuck lorh.. think what? den yah she went off, i bang the bamboo on the table, she walk in and say not happy is it? YA I AM NOT HAPPY.. she stand there for one min, den she walk off.. after she walk off, i drop damn loud and long.. i can say i cry for whoLe day. my eye was swallon. i even use mine head and bang on the wall. now my head is very pain loh. haix.. even think of cutting myself lei. hai. i dunno why this time i think of that. wanna take knife and poke myself.. allow myself to DIE.. hai.. i am really very upsad lorh.. i keep crying and crying lorh.. haix.. den around 2+ going 3 my dad come back, he do his thing den we go my grandma house, reach le, my cousin sleeping.. but after awhile he wake uP.. carry him but he dun wan.. sob.. think coz i wear pink ba.. LOL.. he become more n more CUTE le. buay ta han.. know how to crawl le.. hee.. ^^ den yah, my da yee, notice my eye very swallon. ask mi is it just wake uP? i say no, den she say cry ah? den at first i say huh? den i tell her coz mummy scoLd me, den she say y i say never help her fold clothes lorh.. den she say aiya, never mind lah.. haix.. around 4+ we came home. my brother was helping me to make my tv, now got channel U liao.. hee so happy.. den yah, watch TrueHeart, not bad very nice.. powerfuL.. watch till 10 loh. okok lah.. stop here.. buai buai.

very sad day for me haix..

2004-11-20T13:00:00.000+08:00

hoho, did not update yesterday sia.. hee.. just as tired as dunno how to say lorh.. hee..

___x[oO19 November 2004Oo]x___

slept at 11 like that yesterday night. and today have to wake up at 5. BUT haha, i woke up at 5.45. lucky i still can wake up lorh. faster go bathe liao den prepare.. as my dad was in the car waiting. so i faster go out lorh.. den go catherine there.. den we headed to Jurong East MRT. After we reach and was walking to the station, saw Ivis, waited for her. den we go buy sweets. after that go up to the control station as they wanna top up ez-link card. den we go up the platform. waited at the MRT for Shuyi to come from Lake Side. wanted to trick her but haha.. cannot leix.. she too clever liao.. LOL.. den yah, we were crapping from Jurong to Lavendar. den reach le. Jessie called and ask if we eat le mah, so that we can go grab something and eat mah. at the same time buy 2 for her and her sister. den waited for them outside MRT there.. den they reach, took 14 lorh.. den we all like siao like that keep talking.. LOL.. den yah, reach the place, TMD, the security damn ATTITUDE lorh.. kns.. haha.. den yah, stand down there for about 5mins? haha.. dunno lah. den was being briefed(dunno how to spell).. and was appointed in groups of 2. LOL. hMM, me and a malay guy call Redzwan. he count i write lorh.. hehe.. very fast lorh. den had break... drink water den go back work.. keep walking up and down.. haha.. tiring lei.. den 12 we had out lunch at Jessie's Yi Ma shop.. all of us ate Wan Ton Noodle. not bad, after eating her yi ma gave us some bao and siew mai. was very full loh.. haha.. den we wanted to go back, but it's lock. so we go to the near by HDB to rest.. was at the small little shultter.. 6 of us was there.. and know what? saw a guy keep standing down there.. looking at us.. kns.. like pervert. den after that when the time going to 1 we walk back. and after we go toilet. we start our WORK.. haha.. work work work work and work.. haha.. but i still think the time very fast pass.. hee.. work until 3 we had our second tea-break. drink the water and ate the bao. LOL.. den after that start work again.. BUT this time is check other ppl de thing.. hee.. den around 4, we all got nothing to do already.. haha.. sit down there talking all the way.. until 4.30, was told to go into the room and get our PAY.. hoho.. so happy sia.. after we take we went off, went to the coffee shop to look for jessie mum coz she wanna go find her mah.. den go her yi ma house to find her brother.. and we wash uP.. den we went off.. hmm shuyi did nt accompany us to town lei.. so bad.. nvm next time kk.. so cat, juan, ivis, jessie and me + shuyi took 14, shuyi alight at lavendar whereas we take to Town. alight at orchard MRT? i not sure ba.. den walk to taka.. saw derek, call and distrub him.. den he come find us.. saw my cousin so i go find her awhile lorh.. den walk off.. went to buy something to eeat, as we are hungry.. haha... den went to buy drink.. den go Giordano. haha.. was there for very long.. hee.. hMm, 3 of us buy t-shirt.. 2 per person.. and cost us 17.30. quite cheap lorh.. save $3.. hee.. i buy pink and blue.. yea.. got shirt liao.. no worries.. only left jeans and skirt.. yea.. gonna SAVE money and get it.. i will do it de.. yesh.. yah, after that we headed home.. know what? 4 of us hoh, the leg is like going to break le lorh.. very suan... haha... stand from morning till night leix.. aiyox.. haha.. in bus the jessie hoh,, buay ta han her.. keep laughing like siao gao.. lol.. den yah, by the time reach bukit panjang got space we chiong liao.. sit like mad.. haha.. den yah, went to plaza as catherine wanna go toilet.. went to vcd shop.. hee.. den headed home by cab with catherine.. OMG.. we both like many years never sit liao.. it's just very tired lorh.. reach home, faster go bathe.. but after that help kian kwong play MapleStory.. den around 10++ i went to sleep.. too tired le..

__/20 November 2004 \___

today? whole day stay at home lorh. playing computer games. nothing much lorh. nothing much to blog for today ba. hai

2004-11-18T19:08:00.000+08:00

As for today, i wake up quite late. Actually i can sleep for longer time but my mum wanted to watch tape, at first i told her that she want to watch then watch lorh, but after that when she's in the toilet i faster chiong out. LoL.. can't sleep already. so went to my room to play computer lorh, that's my daily routine mah. LOL. sian lorh, whole day doing the quest thing.. jump here and there.. den i very pek so ask Paul to help mi lorh.. yah den he help. he very lame, go and make my charater naked.. LOL bian tai.. hahaa.. den yah around 4+ i felt headache sia.. wanted to find a chance to rest BUT Shuyi called me.. haha. so we chatted lorh.. lame sia we both.. den yah around 6+ she hang. den i come back to play game. only for awhile as i felt very boring.. went to watch tv. that's all.. think i gonna sleep early because tomorrow have to wake up at 5. meeting catherine at 6.30, shuyi and ivis at 6.30.. Jessie and her sister 7.15 at Lavendar. Time to watch Singapore IdoL le.. buai buai..

Time now is 8.08.

2004-11-17T22:15:00.000+08:00

hello.. heee.. to be frank i just finish editing the previous post.. hur hur..

Yesterday sleep at 12+ and today have to wake up at 7+. actually tot of sms-ing them tell them that i dun wanna go.. but since i already say i goin le.. so i set alarm at 7. but i did not wake up after the alarm clock ring..i went back to sleep.. den hor? hee. know what time i wake up 8.45.. haha.. den got 2 sms, one from jessie and one from shuyi.. faster reply them le den go bathe liaox.. haha. so lame.. den faster chiong out lorh.. reach school saw Shuyi and Catherine at canteen waiting for us. so good of them lorh. den i went to buy food..when i going to finish jessie came.. den she buy mian bao and eat.. den sit at canteen for awhile b4 go back class.. but teacher already go thru le.. so we took derek de and copy.. den around 11+ we went off.. decided to come over my place.. again sia.. -.-''' den hoh, went to check handphone stuff, den walk to my here de coffee shop, once again we buy Spring Chicken.. haha.. so cute.. den jessie buy fishball noodle whereas derek buy za cai fan. mix rice ba.. den come my house.. den watch vcd, crap, lame and play lorh.. hee.. den around 6+ all went off.. den i went to bathe.. den play game lorh.. play until 7+ i stop coz wanna watch tv.. den after that watch the ending for Kaiwei and hu de.. know hu n hu? at first the show is like Yixuan and kaiwei lorh.. BUT hehe.. is Kaiwei and JingWen.. omG.. so happie lorh.. den watch 9pm de show.. wow lau, can say it's damn funnie lorh.. that zoe tay.. hha.. den now getting ready to play MapleStory to chiong to level 22.. hehe.. off i go.. tmr no schOol.. fri go work.. ^^ bye bye..

2004-11-16T21:21:00.000+08:00

oOMonday 15 November 2004Oo

haix, i make a lie to cindy, why? i told her that i quarreled with my mum and she dun allow me to go out. actually i did not even quarrel, i'm just finding an excuse not to go out. haix. I'm very sorry, Kalai sorry that i did not pei her out and can't help u take care of her.. sorry.. know y i dun wanna go? there are some reasons.. 1. coz i tot my mum wont put money for me as i also have no money. 2. coz i find that actually is she wanna call siewfong to go with her and coz she not free and i was there at the same time. 3. to stay at home, finding ways to talk to dad, but he make me more disappointed day by day. i really regret never go out. becoz my dad treat home like hotel, keep coming in out going out out the house.. haix.. i was very sad and sad lorh. the first time he come back after 5 mins he say he wanna get milk or dunno what thing, so yes he went.. about 1hour or less he came back.. so ok fine.. den second time, he came back after a phone call he went out again.. he did not say, but i heard the door sound and he's already outside.. so i quickly walk to the and open. he look inside. den i look at home for 5 sec and i shake my head and bang the door.. after that i was damn freaking sad and very lonely, i went back to the room shout and scream and i cry.. this is the first time i collapse. i've never been so worked up lorh.. this is the very first time i cry until like somebody pass away lorh. haix.. but no one knows how i feel lo.. i cried from the moment he go out till 1+am.. about 10hours.. i cried... haix... even my brother come back my tears still there.. haix... my dad really a guy whom can't set a good example to his/her daughter or son.. even my brother also like that.. my mum also.. i agree i everytime say i will scream or shout at them but in my heart is like broken lorh.. haix.. maybe i'm just trying to act if i'm everything correct ba.. i'll try to not talk back to them ok. i must listen to miss ang.. she always arge me not go talk back to my parents.. okok i'll try okae.. den yah, i was very angry and sad lorh.. den play game loth.. he come back i never talk to him(my dad i mean) lorh.. den like that lorh.. den at 12+ i go and fold clothing and den go sleep lorh.. haix.. that's all..

oOoTuesday 16 November 2004oOo

Today? wake up damn late.. haha.. den play MapleStory lorh.. den go schOol.. den ok lah. come back home with shuyi, cat and jessie coz we bought Spring Chicken lorh. 4 of us share 1 chicken.. it's very nice lorh.. den after that play com and with shuyi handphone lorh.. hee.. around 6.45 they went off. den i do my thingss.. den 7 watch tv.. watch till 10 lorh.. omg.. very nice lorh the show.. i very ke lian jingwen.. but she's strong.. and omg. Fei Yu team won all the match lorh.. FIRST FIRST FIRST.. haha.. so nice.. Zheng Kang and Annie is back to family liao.. den Xiao Jie so cute, say I love you too.. ^^ same as joe joe.. hee.. wanna go net search for his photo liaox.. but hoh unfortunely dun have leix.. only found one. hee.. but he's sleeping sia.. hee.. but hao guo mei you right? i gonna take time to load some pic fom the show le.. hee.. den yah, was playing MapleStory the whole day lorh.. -.- hee..

=> this is taken i think when xiao jie is taking a nap while toro is trying to kiss him.. ^^

=> this is the actor and actress who act in the show. chio bu and yandao ohs..!

=> this is the pic where yilin and kaixin look so blur.. o.O

=> romatic mah? omg.. hehe..

=> this pic i think is fiona and toro edit de. coz wesite got say.. haha.. nice hoh?

=> just look like a couple man..

=> this pic as if they kenna follow by gou zai dui den very scare so ask them not to take. haha. CUTE!!!

=> played as brother and sister in the show. kai Wei and Kai Xin. nice name. ^^

=> they both are from Fei Yu Dui, Wang Tong and Kai Xin. both are chio bu lorh.. hee ^^

=> Toro sia, CooL right? OMG.. drOoL sIa..

=> advertising for something??? haha.. diao -.-'''

=> he like that very cute and handsome. think i fall for him.. hahahaha...

=> looking at me? haha.. think too much. is looking at camera.. hoho.. i'm mad over toro.

=> Toro feeding Yan Xing Su eating something.. very good friend? hee..

=> spot this in website. Wang Tong is sleeping.. and her jacket ROCKS lorh.. OMG.. Adidas RoCks...

=> can i eat now? haha =D

=> thumbs up. meaning The Champion is a very nice show.. haha.. =]

=> i'm drooling lorh. the steamboat like very nice lorh.. hee..

=> this is the team Fei Yu Dui.. they rocks..!!

=> Yi Xuan and Kaiwei.

2004-11-14T14:14:00.000+08:00

.::.Saturday.::.

Happie Birthday to Derek

hehe, today is derek birthday wor. sent him a message yesterday night.. xD

Today wake up very early. about 7+ i wake up le.. dunno y so early sia.. maybe coz used to it already ba.. haha.. once i wake up i go brush teeth den go on my computer lorh.. play game, chat with shuyi lorh.. finally reach level 19 ler.. hee.. happie happie.. den yah go bathe den go out lorh.. was late by abit.. shuyi also late.. jessie was late too.. lolx.. den i reach le i go take my Sun Yanzi de thing.. lol.. den Jessie came, less den 5min Shuyi came. den we go NTUC buy things.. buy liao straight away go jessie house lorh.. hMm, at first we are talking. den after that we all was listenin to song and see the brother play MapleStory.. den after that Jessie ask him to go out of study room den he go play PS with his small brother.. den after that shuyi and me write down those important notes down.. as jessie was bathing.. den we all was talking alot also... Shuyi talk non-stop sia.. muahahah... =X den around 2.30 like that start to get very lazy liaox den stop awhile.. den play abit MapleStory.. den after that Jessie de Big Brother come and help mi play while we looking at Jessie cooking.. haha.. den go back again... den yah ate the congee she cook.. nice sia.. YuMMy^^ den watch vcd but awhile i come out shuyi alone watch... den i was beside jessie watchin her place MS.. den yah 6.30 we went off.. went to plaza to get Sweettalk. den go home.. online and haix.. no one was at home lorh.. so fuck.. i have a home like dun have.. fark!!!.

.::.SunDay.::.

Yesterday night sleep at 10+ becoz i'm very sleepy.. den today wake up at 8+ or 9+ i forget liaox.. den straight away send Happy Birthday message to Junzhuo.. hehe.. den yah, played MS all the whiLe, know what? once again i'm alone at home. my dad just throw me a packet of rice and he left home.. wtf.. think what? i'm a begger? after he left i cried.. i really felt that i am no different from other children who dun have parents.. i know i have BUT they treat home like HOTEL lorh.. fark.. or maybe i should learn from them? go out early den come home till late night or dun come back? how i wish i could.. fark.. den after eating came back to plaay game.. den around 2+ go bathe.. den 2.30 go out.. coz meeting jessie 3 at clementi to get comics.. lolx.. both of us LATE.. =X den nvm lorh.. i reach first, so i went to the comic shop to check if it's open or not.. yea, it's open.. so happy lorh.. but i was there waiting coz there's a supplier there. so i was told to wait.. den ya i get 10 first because Auntie say 11 haven come.. dunno lah.. den take 10. den Jessie came, went to big bookshop to get the cover for him. coz he always buy cover mah.. den like that lorh.. den went to NTUC to get Teenage and saw a auntie like shit lorh.. her son is playing mah den he was at the counter there den of coz the person hu work will ask him not to go in right? den he go and complain his mum, and his mum also abit kns de lah.. down there say who scoLd my son? i was thinking lorh, if u think ur son is damn fucking precious edn lock him at home lah.. or stay at GOLDEN house lah.. KNS.. act big.. pui.. den we walk to the bus-stop. haha.. just b4 we reach the traffic light saw Green Light, den we faster chiong den saw 105 chiong more even faster.. lolx.. den board the bus den was reading comics lorh.. den reach liao we all went to look for plastic lorh.. but cannot find so we walk back to bus-stop loh.. saw Shuming.. den after that Junzhuo came.. lolx. Shuming only come to pass JunZhuo present den she go off le.. saw her at TAka, Cene.. lolx.. den yah we went to shop after go taka.. Met Yun and bIn there.. den go HMV walk walk.. junzhuo actually wanted to buy Britney de cd, but i ask him not to, coz Weiqi buying.. den after that he say wanna buy S.H.E de den i say buy lah buy lah.. lolx.. deb he say dun buy at HMV.. den we went to Cene to look for it.. he bought it at 20.90 with a blur colour de fiLe.. hee ^^.. den after that met Aijuan there, den we walk off to Taka den we all sw Shuming again.. lolx.. 0mg 0mg.. saw her twice manx.. den yah b4 we go and eat yanbin was calling Huiping and Siewfong to ask if they wan go eat with us mah.. as it cost 25 per person lorh. den they all at first say no money all this crap lah.. dunno lah.. aiyoz.. den make yanbin very angry lorh.. but after that they say coming.. BUT when we go in right, and settle down den they say not coming lorh.. was like wtf, even if we say go MS also must bring extra money mah.. kns sia.. buay ta han lorh.. den we all 7 of us eat first.. den awhile later Paul come.. den yah, today i eat very less sia.. normally i eat alot de.. maybe coz no wei kou ba. den yah was chatting and lameing arounf again lorh.. take photo, video all this lorh.. haha.. so fun.. den we all was clapping when yanbin was doing magic mah.. den the another table copy we all, so we also clap back lorh.. den they also.. den we decided to Sing Happie Birthday song as loud as we could.. lolx.. den we went off.. went to the toilet.. after that when i receive message my mood change.. i dunno what happen but all i know is that i like very sad lorh.. maybe is coz that GERALDINE cannot meet us b4 my b`dae with briget lorh.. was damn sad.. must after.. WTF... angry sia.. grrr.. if dun wan meet can say de.. haix.. den after that was busy sms-ing jiu correct le.. den Huiping and Siewfong reach, as we meet them outside taka.. den meet le walk to Hereen lorh.. took pic den go back.. go back with jessie.. and haha,, know what? both of us are crazy.. coz hoh, we 2 was standing mah.. den a guy was sitting just infront of Jessie, den jessie talk and her hand move here and there mah.. den got a few times nearly hit his head lorh.. so i tell jessie lah.. den after that both of us stay to crap among ourself saying wow lau this 2 girl so kaopei all this lah.. is we 2 say de lah.. den say wow heng they all alight liao.. but he same bus-stop as us.. haha.. so funnie.. den come back home.. online den bathe.. den play MapleStory.. HIT level 20 already.. yea.. happie.. tat's all for sat and sun..

Happie Birthday to you Junzhuo

2004-11-12T23:29:00.000+08:00

haix.. my heart is still kind of sour sour de.. tears want to row down but i control.. what's going on with mi again and again? this week i can say i cry almost the whole week.. i dunno y am i so week.. simply cry and cry.. haix.. but u think i want? argh..!!!!!

yesterday i slept at 12+. as because i'm very tired so i went to sleep that early.. while sleeping i dream of something.. i dream that i told my dad that my b`dae coming and ask him to buy me a phone. at first he dun allow BUt i keep onm saying things that make him buay ta han den he agreed.. and after he agreed i say really hoh, u dun bluff hoh.. just after the dream finish my house telephone rang.. its my stupid brother who called and ask mi to help him on the AIR-CON.. isn't it too much? haix.. so i have no choice to wake up to help him. and after that when i wanted to go back and sleep, i realise that i can't.. so i went to my own room and on my computer, played MapleStory again... i cre8 another charater lorh.. wanna be a thief.. i did not go for my first 2 lesson.. den at 9.30 like that Ayu called me asking where am I? i told her i'm at home and only 4 of them in cLass only, just after she hang less den 5 mins Mrs Tay called me.. she ask Aijuna, Jessie and me go find her she wanna give us something.. at first tot she gonna give us Testimonal but how we know she give us a present.. we are sooo surprise lorh.. really thanks alot MRs Tay, MuackiEeeeeEee... Love ya.. den yah, ad my EFW test today. it's still alright for me lorh.. still can do ba.. den after that went to canteen to have our Lunch. eat finish liao go office find Mrs Tay, we were there for quite sometime lorh.. teaching her how to use her Handphone and send ringtone. den when it's time for us to go off, it rain.. den hjave no choice to stay in schOoL.. 4 of us rot at the canteen.. until we tot of helping Mrs Tay by going Retail Studio. but she dun wan she wan us go help her.. bleah.. den we go.. but Jessie went off coz she going to find her friend nor.. so left Shuyi, Aijuan and me.. we help her to arrange the Retail Studio de things lorh.. den do untl going to 3 liao she drive us home. first she drive Aijuan to Jurong East MRT station den she drive Shuyi and me to Bukit Batok.. But at first she tot i stay at Bukit panjang. i find that the ways she drive very strange.. den i tell her, i stay at Bukit Batok leix.. den she huh.. i tot u BP? haha.. den i say no lah.. is BB. den she say wow i bluff her... diaox.. lolx.. den yah, she very toot sia.. after we alight ask her to turn right she go straight so i know she dunno how to go liao.. haha.. den went to but something den come back home.. watched tv... den 6+ shuyi went off.. i was playing computer lorh..

den around 6.50 my dad came back and haix.. knwo what after he bathe he go out. i dun understand y he's so BUSY.. dun even care about me.. i was so sad lorh.. i dunno whenever i say this will anyone really believe me.. but i can say is TRUE lorh.. i cry almost everyday just because i'm very loneLy.. i wonder will i be blind one day anot.. haix.. den just now watch tv i cry.. and haix... i was very sad sad sad.. i really dunno will my dream come true mah.. chatted with paul but we had a small quarrel.. i really dun understand ba. suan liaox.. maybe it's me maybe it's him.. forget it.. think i dun bother much.. i dun wanna care much already.. i just hope i can die faster and leave this world without so much suffering. and i hope if i die this blog will be able to let my parents and read.. they really duno how lonely am i.. all they know about me is the bad side of me.. they dunno the real me.. and no one wil know.. not even my best friend, my close friend.. NOPE... my cousin.? somtetimes she knows.. BUT whats the use if she knows and not mine parents? will they care about me even if i die? i think no ba.. think they will care for my brother more ba.. haix.. I wonder if my dad wont get me a phone, i think this war between me and him will begin.. and i gonna SAY things OUT.. i really cannot keep already.. i wanna tell them WHAT I FEEL ABOUT THEM.. it's Unfair for them to treat me this way.. i need some decipline FROM THEm.. i nEED STRESS FROM THEM.. I NEED SCOLDING from them to wash mine brain.. i wonder why whenever i need them by my side they are not around.. i wonder if they know i cry at night to force myself to sleep when i quarrel with them? will they know? maybe they think that i like to quarrel with them ba.. haix.. My life is damn sucks..

think i should go off already..

PS: i'm crying and typing this blog.. and i'm not lying.. haix.. i'm really very stress lorh.. WHO KNOW HOW I FEEL???????????????????????????????

2004-11-12T01:16:00.000+08:00

haix. it had been a unhappy week.. sigh~ i did not update yesterday as i am too tired to type.

.::.Wednesday.::.
Yesterday went to schOol to have BPF, because we need to present our presentation lorh.. yap, we had ours presented but not me the one who present, i only click the thing and it's Jessie who presented coz Junzhuo never come schOol tthanks to Jessie for helping us to present. =D ok den receive sms from aijuan saying she will be very late.. ok, so after 1 hour of BPF we had our Lunch. and we had Co-op duty so after eating we went to co-op at first tot we can just sign and go off, BUT never will we know that we need to do.. but alright lorh.. not bad.. we played alot instead of do the work.. haha.. den after that went to thre canteen to look for them as they were there. I saw Ivis taking my magazine and it's like she turn abit and i saw it so i quickly take away, den heng she take got hand on the phone lorh, if not drop i die. den i notice that she took aijuan de hp. ok den go back class tot she dunno but ivis told me that she say dun think i blur blur de. i already know already.. den i orh ok.. tryin to be good to return her, BUT know what she say me? take lah take somemore.. my reaction was puzzled lorh. she take ppl HP and keep untiL dun wan return she can lah, we keep and play canot lah.. kns.. was very angry lorh.. ok nvm.. den i wanted to put my bag in the tabLe, den how i know her hand coming to put the key on the tabLe to give mi, i was soo fast and i hit her hand.. and her reaction was wow lau very pian lei.. ok nvm i apologise i know it's mi who bu xiao xing make her.. so i say sorry.. didn't mean it.. DEN SHE CRIED.. i was, wtf cry fir what? my fault? keep phone de person is not ME is derek.. ok den hit u is me.. well i already say sorry.. and it's like veryone looking at me lorh.. i was damn pissed man.. and i tell them i'm very stress lorh.. she keep ppl handphone can we take hers cannot lah.. wtbf.. (i know if her BF saw this blog he sure dulan me de.. but well if u wanna protect yr gf and hate me so be it. i dun care anymore it's not my fault also. i dun care wat will u do to me i also dun care. i did nothing wrong. if u wanna say i buwee yr gf so be it too). IT's NONE OF MY BUSINESS..!!! dang chu who ask u both to treat me like that make mi heartbroke? i'm trying to be good BUT my andurance is got limit de lorh.. and u also make ur bf angry b4 lorh. i wont go and delibratly break u both up coz no point mah. no matter how deep the hurt is in my heart i also wont go and do anything.. i can't be just because of one person die ba. even if i die, will he care? no right.. so i'm not so stupid... the most only zhao bu dao bf nia mah.. but i think i wont have it de lah.. so ugly. loL... ok back to my point.. den ok had EFW, i just wanted to remind ivis if she asked teacher the question that she asked me. she said me back, actually i know her pattern is like that, but i dunno y i so work out and say wow lau suay, think i better keep quiet.. i was so hurt and sad.. becoz of aijuan problem. but end up i sms ivis saying sorry coz i didn't mean to vent my anger on her.. den both of us ok ler.. after EFW, aijuan talk to me.. and i think nothing happen so i also act nothing lorh.. but my heart is like abit guilty and angry lah.. guilty is i scare later she misunderstand mi lorh.. say i gu yi den i DIE lorh.. angry is what for she cry loth.. haix.. den yah we are back to normal lorh..

den we went to office to find MRs Tay, pass her key all this... den go back class.. help her with ClassFund and locker key thing.. den talk until Concert all this.. wow i damn envy her.. can go watch S.H.E and Jay concert.. and is family all go together.. S.H.E LEI.. i was so ... lorh... haix.. i canont go lei.. sob. but never mind lah.. haha.. den we talk talk in class as the cLass only left les than 10 ppl.. lolx.. den go retail studio.. so long never go liao.. miss RS so much lorh.. den after that go office with her den go classroom.. haha.. we went to 303 to test computer.. den we buy tibits, Poky.. haha.. eat inside cLass.. mrs tay never scold.. coz she also hungry.. hee.. den we do our work lorh.. until 4 she dismiss us.. but she ask aijuan to go RS to take something so i also go lorh.. but actually i dun wan de lah.. den take le never accompanied Mrs Tay back to office some more her hand got alot of things.. coz i am in a rush.. so we went to toilet and went off.. waited for 963 and it comes.. den reach home liao on computer play never bathe coz i think that b4 goin out den bathe.. so i play MapleStory lorh. play until 6.30 den go bathe.. but b4 i bathe i very hungry so i warm the food up and eat.. eat until 6.50+ liao den go bathe. bathe out already 7+ liao.. den faster chagne and go out.. den bus very long den come.. den yah.. reach orchard at 8.08 like that.. den go find cousin.. b4 i reach i still saw ppl de lei.. den yah she was attending to customer lorh.. so i was waiting for her.. den after that we go lorh.. reach le.. know we saw wat? NOTHING... argh. i only saw Selina BACK LORH.. i was kind of sad lah.. but okok lorh.. den after that saw Paul and jinny yi they all lorh.. only jinny yi and another saw me.. and i think paul say and dunno walk away ba? not sure.. den mi and cousin i think if not wrong is go Scott de food court eat.. we eat PastaMania de Beef Lasagne and Beef Noodle from dunno which stall.. whiLe eating we chatte alot.. i realise that i alwasy tell my cousin about what happen to me and my friends all this de.. she will advice mi coz she saw my friend b4 and go out b4.. hee.. and she very caring towards me de.. so good of her.. den we go far eat.. den nothing to walk decided to walk all the way from Far East to Plaza Singapura there de bus stop.. and reach liao we both very tired liao.. wanted to take long bus but all come are short de. so we wait lorh.. for long de.. also no seats but end up we got.. hee.. in the bus also talk alot.. den ask my dad come and fetch us home.. drive her home den we go home.. reach home den contiune my MapleStory until nearly 2am.. den go sleep.. haha.. end of the day. =D

.:::.Thursday.:::.

Happie Deepavali to all

Today nothing much happen, was at home all the while.. lied to them saying i went out but i was not, i was at home.. i wake up at 12+.. den play com till 1+ den do EFW homework.. den 3+ go my mum room watch yesterday de show until 6. den come back my room chat awhile den irc awhile den download MapleStory de patch.. den go in play from 7+ till 12. that's all.. nothing much for today ba.. bye bye.. =D i was abit sad when thinking of something.. haix..

2004-11-09T21:11:00.000+08:00

Hai, this blog is the only blog that i can say my personal thinGs out.. dun even dare to share it to anyone, even my five years or 7years friends.. i dun dare.. hai.. from time to time i realise that i hate telling people my problem and i dun wish to let them know, what i can say to them is nothing lorh. i'm fine but actually i'm not.. hai..

.::.Monday.::.

i dun really remember what was happening, but i remember how angry and sad i was during BSA. why i say so? coz, i do my Excel den i dunno how to do sorting as i do wrong also, so i tell teacher, ok nvm let her check, and i dunno y she so worked up and like not happy and reply mi in a way that i felt very sad, it's like very angry lorh.. den ok nvm. maybe coz i wrong coz she got go thru eariler on, its mine fault. DEN something make my heart damn sour is that she keep saying Ang WeiZhen this Ang Weizhen that, i hate it lorh, dun like ppl to call me by CHINESE NAME lorh, she already know i damn HATE it already den she jolly well keep calling, make my heart very sour and almost broke into tears.. haix, this is the very first time i become like that, maybe because i already dulan the way she talk to me. i know i'm very bad to show her attitude but what do u wan me to do? smile at her? no i can't.. at that moment i already feel like packing my things and ask jessie to mark mi absent and i go off.. but i still stay, i dun wan to regret whati do and i dun wan mrs tay to be sda too.. really it's not just say and wanna bluff.. my mind really think that way.. as u all know i'm very soft hearted, once i realise i do wrong i will cry and feel sad. den after that when she explain again i did not listen den she say whole class never listen and Annie also, know my heart like very what lorh, i know i'm wrong. den she know i very angry liao she come to me and like stand behind me, put her hand on my shoulder den i try to move away, i think i've broke mrs tay heart. haix.. did not reply her when she talk... hai.. Mrs Tay i'm damn sorry, i didn't mean it, but i'm very angry.. hai.. during CDP she talk i sleep.. hai.. den after that went for SW and was cancel.. den went home.. sorry jessie.. i never go over yr place when u ask.. because i'm very troubled. if u realise i am very quiet when we come out.. sorry..

.::.Today.::.

have been playing MapleStory this few days. and today i nearly can't wake uP. i woke up at 6.30. hee.. den yah, went to schOol to attend assembLy, know what? i drop my phone on the floor in the bus. and NOW the phone is BLANK.. hai.. wtf.. i'm damn suay.. so i borrowed a phone form huiping, thanks to her to lend me. if not i duno how.. den yah went for assembLy den today very lame got the clean and green week de, as dunno who plant a tree or what shit. den we all keep on talk cock, den Mrs Teo and Mrs Wu keep asking us to quiet.. haha.. notti hoh.. den yah attented BPF, i'm vey happie because i get 24¹/² marks over 25.. i'm so happy and my overall for BPF which is not very comfirm is 90+.. hee.. happie lorh.. den went to help Mrs Tay do something den go back class talk to Miss Ho lorh, den after that went to canteen to grab something light to eat.. eat liao go LT and have our RTO revision. not bad, it's just very cold lorh.. den after that was CDP but Mrs Tay give us early break meaning we got 2 hours of lunch time, so we decided to go out of school and eat lorh. ate KFC den go NTUC den go see comics.. den go back schOol, haven start lesson and yanbin they all inside liao den they very bad, say what S.H.E ticket what thing de.. hai.. den yah had EFW den BSA.. very angry with Genista Tay. hate her man.. den after school come back.. and cleared 7788 of the things from my locker already.. wee u wee.. but raining so keep yun de comics in my bag den walk home.. den bathe liao play game.. haix.. played awhile de MS kenna kick out den com hang 2-3 times.. den night time yun wanna play mah.. den talking to her lah of coz in MS that Aijuan say why i always talk.. i cannot talk izzit.. knn.. i was damn angry lorh.. u tihnk u what? i dun need u to tell me i always talk.. i'm TEACHING not TALKING.. pls shut ur mouth before i do anything.. i'm very angry with her.. i hate the way she tell mi about she and paul, i hate it.. sometimes to be frank i think she gu yi snatch him from me.. but aiya, ppl choose her WHAT CAN I DO? right? both of them so loving, all this.. aiyox.. tot ppl dunno.. kns.. HATE IT.. I HATE IT SO MUCHhhhh.... den make mi no mood to play so i log off.. den go irc, den after awhile i quit.. watch tv.. off MSN, IRC and never play game.. i hate it..

When to read Pauls blog and i cry.. haix.. i dunno y i break into tears when i see them so loving.. i'm not trying to break them up. whenever i see his blog say i love u, treasure u, miss u all this to her.. i felt jealous and cry.. maybe he stil remain in my heart but no one knows lorh.. haix.. what can i do? i feel like after albert exam ask him again.. haix.. i hope i can.. i hope albert remember my b`dae. last year he say he send mi a card but i never receive make mi cry till like shit.. hope everyone know my b`dae.. hope.. and hope i can get what i wan for my b`dae if not i wont be going anywhere to celebrate.. sorry if i turn u guys down if the day comes i means.. haix..

Wish for b`dae: Albert send me a message, present or cards. either one

al my friends will send mi message wishing me happy birthday

go sentosa with friends den go out eat

receive b`dae presents as many as i can get(but i think very less)

get a handphone from my dad or mum

hope by that time i can save 150 or some money to go S.H.E concert

get waht i wan

that's all... haix..

i cry alot of times today lorh.. ah...!!!!11

2004-11-07T23:30:00.000+08:00

I'm here to blog. Why am i back? hai. i'm facing problem.

.::Friday::.

Went to schOoL in da morning and was asked to go to the office and look for Mrs Tay, she want to interview Aijuan and me about the Retail Studio, and make us cannot study. But it's abit lukee to ask we both up lorh, because we never talk all Mrs Tay talk haha.. so funnie den after that she still ask we all help her do something.. den do until 10.08 like that, den faster chiong to the classroom to prepare for exam and i tell u ppl one thing lorh, i never really go and study everything lorh.. haha.. den yap start of paper, everyone of us tot it will be difficult because the paper was kind to thick which only consist of 9 pages.. lolx.. den yah start test, at first i do MCQ first den i saw one of mine friend do the Short Answer den i quickly turn and do coz i scare i forget. lol. den do. OMG.. that one i got lots of confident. BUT scare got mistake. =/ but i think can ba. den do MCQ if no wrong i think i also got confident also except for 1or2 ba.. if really wrong 1 and behind got 1 mistake i think i get 23and a half lorh.. hoPe so.. i wanna get an A.. Hope i can.. =D den after paper everyone was so happy OQ is so confident lorh i can see that.. haha.. den yap everyone was damn damn happy.. keep saying.. hee^^ den went to the next class which is EFW haha.. today lesson was also not bad lah... haha... den after school went to Clementi Central because to meet Wenjun and to pei Junzhuo go see comics.. hee^^ but first we headed to Hawker to had our Lunch cum Breakfast. I ate Ma You Ji Fan, JunZhuo ate Curry Chicken Rice and Aijuan ate Chicken Rice, after that i went to comics there to pay auntie 25 first for the comics that wanted to buy for Junzhuo. den go back again. after that pei Junzhuo over again.. He bought 2 comics and den i bought a comics name Magister NegiMagi, Mo Fa Lao Shi! it's quite nice but abit bian tai.. lol.. den took bus to meet Paul, he's coming over my house to help mi with my com stuff, MapleStory den after that Shuyi and Jessie came.. know wat? we played Uno, dai Dee and Aijuan even fight with me.. lolx.. it's quite fun lorh.. after they go off have been training my MapleStory with Junzhuo.. hee..

happie birthday to Wenjun

happie birthday to Peikhim

.::.Saturday.::.

Whole day stay at home doing nothing lorh.. sian.. play MapleStory for the whole day. Only went out for awhile to buy food only den whole day play game. so nothing much to say lor..

Happie birthday to Kailing

..:::..Sunday..:::..

Slept at 1 yesterday night and wake uP at 10 in the morning today, first thing i do was online and play abit of game. den went to bathe den go down eat.. den those uncle and my parents start to talk about the little girl Huang Nan, really hate the way they talk lorh.. but waht to do got plp there i dare not Kaopei.. den i come home.. play MapleStory also.. den my dad came back sweep floor and mop floor.. den wait for mum to call.. den she call we go down. reach my grandparents house, saw my Ah yee they all and my cute little cousins.. hee.. he's so cute, sitting down there playing with paper.. den i go play with him.. den SAW a HP model is Samsung S800+ de.. OMG.. my Third Aunt buy that phone lorh.. Grr.. Best lorh.. den was there playing with cousin lorh.. den around 3+ went back home. same thing played MapleStory lorh.. i finally in level 14 liao.. going fifteen.. happie.. yap i damn pissed with my dad and mum.. i simply hate the way they both talk.. SUCKS kayyy.. like shit.. sometimes felt that i'm very paiseh to be with them when they talk to others.. damn pai seh.. hai.. but after all they are my parents.. i have to BEAR.. den yah den my mum come back at 9+ going 10 but less den 15mins she say going out.. go the Huang nan de funeral there.. she saw lots of ppl were there. den she say she never pay money coz she say ppl put $50 lah, $100 lah, $20 lah.. den she say she never put coz later if her mum go back China she become Millionaire.. i was u wan go den u never pay, wtf.. at lease a $20 also dun wanna put.. and can say this little girl really move every singaporean lorh.. .. but what can we say lei.. just hope that nothing will happen anymore, coz it's like singapore not save loth.. so let's make Singapore Peace.. =D

shall stop here.. bye bye.. i really love my little cousin lots lorh.. muackie..

2004-11-04T18:35:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry yesterday I did not post. Because i'm very tired and lazy. hai

The day before i cried. why i cry? because i tell my mum that my birthday coming ask her to but something give me at first she say what thing? i say mp3 den she ask mi how much.. i say 200++ den she ji tao say NO to me.. den say treat me go eat she still can.. after she left i straight away cry.. i dunno y i cry but i'm just very disappointed.. Why can't i get the things i want just for my birthday. It's one year once. Why??? hai.. and that link me to many things.. like they can spent money on my brother and y not me? how much have they spent on him already.. hai.. very disappointed lorh. and i'm not every year requesting for things it's ONLY this year loh.. why why why? hai

Wednesday

As usual went to school to attend lesson. First lesson was BPF, i was late for the first lesson and in da bus receive sms from Ivis saying teacher wanted to find me and it's urgent. So i quickly call her and ask, so i ask her what thing she say teacher ask mi go office take something very urgent. den i say what she say teacher say i know.. i was -.-''' what sia.. den i ask her what the thing. she say no lah bluff u wan.. wtf loh.. earLy morning she like that to me, ok never mind reached class she also like keep suaning me lorh. i gave her back attitude.. sorry. i'm just very tired. hai. Miss Ho do a final revision with us, and after that is our self study already.. sigh.. really bery fast lorh.. half a year also gonna pass soon.. hai.. then went for lunch after that go back classroom to crap lorh.. den go for RTO.. actually got 2 hour leson but teacher only teach 1hr.. the other hour is breaktime.. but Jessie, Juan and me was at the office with Mrs Dorothy Tay. And some more raining and nothing to do so we go find her lorh.. lolx.. since we are so free, we heLp her to format the diskette for class OQ and OT. den finished already went to find her.. and when we are going off, saw the lower part of office was fill with water. OMG.. and know what? every teacher was running over to see.. lolx.. den 3 of us at that time have no choice so to help because there's lots of boxes to push away. so we helped.. lolx.. was so FUN lorh.. can say so lah.. and after that went for lesson. did not do the work but play AtomicIsland. hee ^^ den after school Aijuan, Jessie, Rui Yun came over mie place. play around lorh.. the aijuan so bad keep buweeing me sia.. i keep shouting help mei ren li wo.. they all was here until 8. after they go off i watch tv and bathe at 10.30 den go play game.. sleep at 12+..

Thursday

Today went to school for a talk. so have to wake up at 7.30 lorh. and i have to wake Junzhuo up.. sob.. yah den go bathe.. den pack my things den hor, i wear Polo t lei.. lolx.. den reach school liao go LT lorh.. haven start so go canteen pei Junzhuo go eat loh. den after that go back.. the talk last for 4 hours.. it's about life, sex and abortion.. omg.. the video was kind of er xin and sad lorh.. den i almost cry.. den before he end his talk he gave us a speech.. it was MORe sad lorh.. becasue he open those sad music and say in a very low tone.. hai.. den after that come home and play Maple Story.. i think i will seldom blog here.. unless is unhappy things.. if not wil be in Atomicisland.. Bye Bye.. =D

2004-11-02T22:42:00.000+08:00

Happie Birthday to Mummy

Angry + Tired + Fun

Yawns~ Know what time i wake up today? haha, it's 6.44am. wake up liao, faster go bathe and get ready to go off.. Today at first did not walk to another side but then after one bus go off and it was so pack, i quickly walk to another side de bus-stop. and lucky that when i reach bus come.. kee^^ never late.. hoho.. happie yeas.. coz i manage to get up and reach on time just for assembLy.. xD yah reach schOoL only got a few of us attented assembLy. Then some more them who are late Ez-Link card kenna confiscated. Sigh~ Than had BPF, i'm happy but worried because even though i get 24/25 for BPF but it's not 100% from what i learn is i open book and check answer de.. That's why i'm happy but worried..Because this paper can score well doesn't mean exam paper can do until very good.. so i must jia you.. CAnnot let Miss Grace Ho sad wor.. -.- Yah after her lesson went to RTO but Mrs Tay not free so she asked us to help her with the photocopy of Revision Paper. wow, this few days i very got the fate with money sia. haha. yah den went to Library and copy den 10.30 go back take.. den in between the time we were at Sars room.. playing computer and lame-ing around. hur hur.. den when it's goin to 10.30 we went to check. And it's ready. so pay up and went to the lab and staple for them. sigh, i'm just too stupid becasue I accidently staple on my hand while i bang my staple on the table as i am jealous that got ppl help juan arrange me dun have.. Sob Sob.. Pain Pain.. hai. Ok never mind den was told to go and find her.. den find loh.. she invigating a group of idian girl. den after that go back class, den suay suay got teacher book the room den go back classroom.. as Mrs Tay say 11.45 dismiss them, so we went. and than decided to go out and eat. so at the time was 11.25 den hor we go and dismiss the class.. haha.. den we went to locker to put bag den off we go.. guess what? was about to rain and Ivis ez-link card was with Dot Tay. yah but we stil went lah.. went to eat Japanese Food.. hur hur.. Yummy. so long no eat liao.. 0mg~ after eating we went to shop abit lah.. den after that come back schoOl today very strange i dunno y kip answer teacher de answer.. hee ^^ den after that went for BSA.. kns sia MRs Tay, ask Shuyi, Ai Juan, Ivis, Suhilia, Jennifer, Kwai Fong, ShuMing and me go Sars room do exam paper.. kns right? i was very angry + act angry at the time but i really very angry when she kip asking me to do this and that den say wanna come uP but very long den come.. kns.. den damn angry, den after that she come up liao den we go in the class, know what i heard? Annie, OQ very big hor.. If you will u angry.. so i ji tao AP xinthia loh.. i know very bad lah but who cares at the moment.. but after that i got apologies lah.. =D den do our work.. to be frank we got compare answer lah.. but print out liao mah.. so never really care loh. den after that go back down to give back paper all this.. den go office again.. after that tot of going home den my mum say never go eat together liao.. den never loh.. stay in sch see them play v.ball.. den after that join in for a while.. den after that they play Doughtball.. i judge.. haha.. so fun... den after that play captain.. i JOINED in.. 7 ppl compete with 8. was so fun loh.. i did play.. den we won.. 7 of us.. yea.. so happy man.. OMG.. kee.. damn happy.. actually say dun wan play den now keep playing.. hur hur.. den yah around 6.30 we all go off.. went canteen to cooL down den take bus, whiLe walking, say alot of things loh.. coz i'm vry angry with someone mah.. den just say loh.. den now abit ok liao.. =D den watch tv, eat and now going to sleep liao.. too tired.. i realise every Tuesday sure tired de.. haha.. okok gtg now.. =D

2004-11-01T20:39:00.000+08:00

Fun + Boring

Nothing much to say for today, all I know is that it's quite fun in schooL. We keep crapping man.. Hope I will enjoyed every moment with OQ. Sigh~ Yah, after schOoL Catherine, Jessie, Shuyi and Derek came over my place. Watch tape and use computer.. hur hur.. very funnie loh.. Then yah around 5+ Derek, Jessie accompanied me to Bukit Panjang Plaza. Gosh, first I'm not sure what shouLd i buy? Stefanie Sun or the Instrumental de. walk from Popular to Sembawang still can't make up my mind so went to buy Curry Puff from Old Chang Kee. Then went to TS laser. I wonder how long I never step into cd shop already.. About 1-2 months liao wor.. Yar, saw lots of vcd that i wanted to buy.. gosh. sigh~ Yah saw Say Yes Enterprise de soundtrack. I must get it. yea.. Den yah, after that i decided to get Sun Yanzi album as i promise myself i gonna get it.. xD yah so i get it. after that actually wanted to head off back but i asked Jessie to accompanied me to TS laser as i need to count how many cd i gonna get.. yesh i know liao.. kee den buy XXL crispy Chicken to eat coz support Bridget Mum loh, she work there mah.. not bad quite nice lah.. but i dun really like.. den reach home online and watch tv.. Gonna start copying RTO notes liao.. xD..

SuddenLy feel like going to watch S.H.E concert leix.. HOW? sigh..!!

2004-10-31T21:16:00.000+08:00

It a Boring Day

It so boring today, did nothing much. Morning at around 11 my Dad brought me out to have breakfast with him. Rarely will see that. kee.. Ya, he brought me to block 158 coffee shop and eat. After eating, my dad said he wants to go to Yan Jin Qian. so we walk, half way saw his friend talking about temple things. So his friend asked him to go and sit and talk at coffee shop.. omg. i know that it will be very long but i did not show attitude. So i followed behind loh. Yah, they were talking and i was so boring. So i actually wanted to buy a cd. Sun Yanzi album, i told my daa i want to buy he agree but the cd was not out yet. So he did not give me money. Never Mind..

At the coffee shop while they were talking, a group of people catch my attention. From the first sight, I knew that they are from the church. Which means they are a Christian. Omg, they really catch my attention. They are a bunch of idoits.. And a group of childish people. Why i say that? Because there's this auntie who work at the coffee shop as a kopi soh. She is helpful enough to help this bunch of idoit to find a place to seat as there's about 10 ppl like that. Ok found and it's beside our tabLe, ok fine. Then she ask them what drinks they want, they did not really answer her BUT keep laughing.. And know how they order? not all say together is one by one say, den when the auntie ask those who did not order they say dun wan, but when the auntie walk off there's this one moron den want to order. what the fuck sia.. Make me hate christian ppl veri much.. that group of people really damn childish and IDOIT.. And when they are going off, there's one guy who move very much to the back and hit one of my dad friends, her reaction was wow lau, don't know how to see is it? den he apologies. and i found out that not only me who know they are idoit. my dad too.. and the auntie.. muahahaha.. :P

Yah we was there from 11+ to nearly 1 and after we wanted to go off, my dad still ask me if i want to get the cd mah, but did not sell so we went off. Was thinking of asking my dad to bring me over to his friends Handphone shop, but i think better not. Because if i see a handphone i will keep walking here and there and ask my dad to buy.. So i keep quiet and come back home. reach home, watch tv programme, copy notes and listen to songs.. Than at 7 watch tv till 10. Because Huan Zhu Ge Ge and Karen de one show. quite nice wor.. yah. it's time for me to contiune to copy notes le. take carie.. ^^

Gonna get Sun Yanzi album tomorrow if my dad got put money.. Then next 2 weeks will be getting my S.H.E album.. but no matter what i still need to save money wor.. ^^

2004-10-30T23:14:00.000+08:00

I don't understand why everytime my mum have to nag at my dad and me.. Imagine early in the morning 3+am hearing mum scolding people? can't even sleep.. But not really my mum fault also, it's my dad who can't wake up. Sigh. Hope my dad will wake up one day on time in order not to let my mum have a chance to nag.. Woke up at 10+ today. Log into IRC and see no one was in the channel, was so boring man.. So i decided to switch on the television to watch the programme, but there's no show which is nice. then i switch it off and listen to songs, and write out the main point for my BPF exam next week. and time past till 12 and i switched on my televsion again to catch a show called Meteor Garden BUT i remembered that last week one of my friend Junzhuo introduce me a show from Channel U the actress was Vivian Xu. It's a Japanese show, it was so touching and nice. Thanks ehs.. So today, i watched, i nearly cried because it was quite touching. After the programme i went over to my Aunt place, it had been week since i last went there. haha. My cousin all are so cute, Why? because if 1 of them tell me how her brother fall the other one also follow what she says and make me blur.. haha.. was there playing with them. And went home at 6+ as i asked my dad over to fetch me home. In the car, I quarrel with him. Due to some reasons. Quarrel until very bad. Did not talk to him or answer him. Even when we reached my grandma place i still give him a attitude. I even give my grandma a kind of attitude. That's so bad of me. =X.. and yah after that went back home and online again.. watched tv and do nothing now. Ok gonna stop here.. Take Care ppL.. xD .

I've update my wishlist already. I really wish to get those things that i wanted to get. sigh..

2004-10-29T23:09:00.000+08:00

Sad and tired day..

Wake up at 7.40++ in da morning.. I was so sleepy man.. I wonder why nowdays I have been so tired. I don't really sleep late at night nowdays also. Wondering why. haix. Worst is that I'm late for class everyday. Can you imagine lesson starts at 10.15 i leave my house at 9.50+ goin to 10 and the bus comes at 10.08 or something? Well, I know I can't blame the driver because it's me who need to motivate myself and not the driver. And why am I getting lazier and lazier? Why can't I just be earLy at this type of time when exam are coming? Why I change so much ever since i joined ITE or ever since he has a girlfriend? Why do I need to act happy when I am not at all? Why? Can anyone tell me? Why do I leave the group from my 5 years friend? The answer is that I don't like the way they behave. It's like getting attention from others.. I don't wish.. It's very Mei Mian Zi.. Laughing like nut, Shouting like mad, Acting like a kids.. It's not what I want to see on them.. All i want to see them is what we are last year.. Not the presence of themself NOW.. And sometime I find that I don't really know what they are doing for example what they say, they want.. To them maybe i'm just a stupid girl who loves to act ke lian infront of others.. Always push fault to others and all stuff.. But please think carefuLLy, do you people really treat me as a friend before? regard me as a sister? Nowdays, i really feel that if i go back i will sure feel left out and now Pearly is going to work with them, think i will have a chance to talk? NO WAY and recentLy I realise that my best pal Cindy is asking them out, contacting them. If that's the case let it be. If you don't treat me as a friend den let it be.. No matter what, you are always my best friend cum sister.. Maybe for the chalet I won't pay or I won't go I find that no point going. Without asking me they count me in.. haix.. If I say no they will say, huh I thought that you will go, i counted you in already. How to reject? hai. How How How? But I can say I'm very lucky to have a group of friend in class. They are Ivis, Catherine, Shuyi, Aijuan, Junzhuo, Jessie. Thanks alot man.. Really must treasure this friendship very well. Don't wish to part from them. Sigh~.~ Regarding my family? Still the same, always leaving me alone at home. I wonder if I die will they bother or not. Wonder why they don't stress me, wonder why they don't talk to me, ask mi about school or personal things.. Wondering why my friends can get a happy family yet i can't. They can get good things from parents on their birthday whereas i can't. Wonder how long we had not been going out as a family to eat dinner already. Wondering why.. Wondering where did my father go when he go out, wonder how's my mum mood everyday, wonder how my brother gonna treat me or how he's doing. Wondering this and that.. Wondering why I am always left at home. Wondering why my cousin dad no matter how busy he will bring them out for supper or bring them out for fun and why my dad can't? wonder why other people can get good things from parents and I can't? They don't even know nowdays i hasn't been asking for money to buy stuff even clothing.. Last time I will ask every now and then but NOW i don't even dare to utter a word of money. Know why? They will say me off by saying me. hai. KNow what? I cried today, maybe because I find that I'm not living good in my life now! Full of stress yet no one understand. Not even the person I like, wonder why things change? Wonder why he choose her yet not me, wonder why I have to suffer so much. Wonder why i still cannot forget him, wonder why my life so sucky.. Why??? Why?? Why? ARGH..!!!!!!! I'm turing mad.. Real mad. haix..

By the way, today i was very busy copying answer for them. And I don't understand why they keep on complaining saying so many. Please think of me, i have to copy twice. One for myself one for you all, did i complain? And why you all keep complaining? Now i know why teachers are so stress. Sigh~ I've copy from Unit 21-28 for them. Know how tired is it? And some of them can play and talk without helping? what the fuck. Lucky Junzhuo helped me abit with it, if not I think I don't have the strenght to type anything now. Yeaps after lesson went to classroom to have EFW but we are told to go Sars room to do survey, after that Mrs Wo wants to go through answers. Yup, after her lesson when to canteen to eat and went home. Reach home switch on the computer and listen to songs. At 2+ like that I went to have a nap as i was too tired. Sleep till 5 I wake up. Then went to copy some BPF notes. And start watching tv from 5.30-6.30 and 7.00-10.00. Watched Happy Fish, Zhou 5 Yu Le Wang, Singapore Idol, Ren Wo Au You. Yeaps, nice. Singapore Idol know who are in? Daphne, Taufik, Sylvester, Olinda and Leandra. Christopher is out.. grr.. that's sad. Hmm, i remembered something in school today, people keep give comments on Singapore Idol, know what? I find it sucky for you people to give such bad comments. To be frank if you think you are clever you go and sing lah. What for comments so much.. kns.. hai. I think I have to stop here. Good Night peopLe..

2004-10-28T22:31:00.000+08:00

Happie Birthday To KelvIn

Late!!!

Sleep early yesterday night, yet i wake uP late today.. know what time i woke up? 9.25.. haha.. i still tot is 8.25... luckiLy i never go back sleep.. if not i think i 10+ den wake up.. well, actually i can say i won't be late, but u know why i late? because my stomach suddenLy pain.. at first 9.45 come out of the bathroom liao.. den i go and pack my things loh.. den receive sms.. den suay suay my stomach pain again.. den bo bian go toilet.. by the time i come out already 10.08 liaox.. den change liao faster chiong out... reach bus-stom 10.16.. tot bus will be here shortLy, BUT know how long i waited for bus? 15-20mins.. i was like shit, late already.. and i reach class at 10.48.. haha.. that's LATE.. and heng Mrs Tay never scold me or say me.. heex lucky.. den yah, she was going thru paper 7 i think. den listen loh.. after finish liao tot i can rest.. how i know just after she say do yr work, all start to shout again.. grr.. From one table to another.. aiyox.. den Dot Tay also call me to help her calcualate things.. diao diao diao.. den she ask me, juan and jess to help her on 1 and 2 of December.. and 3 of us must come for BOTH days.. lolx.. but nvm lah.. can earn mah.. heex.. and also got ask Pearly, Joan, Joey, Shuyi.. but dunno approve anot.. haha.. she so suay, coz 30 mine birthday she cannot ask us to start, 5, 11 and 13 also.. lolx.. so must be 1 and 2 dec.. haha.. so funnie.. den yah, she need to settle first den can confirm.. but 3 of us are comfirm liaox lah.. haha.. =X kidding.. den yah, lesson end and went for EFW just that ke lian de 30mins.. coz Mrs Wo not here.. we dismiss ourself earLy. so we went to canteen to eat.. den headed to Orchard.. took 106 before that ate ice-cream.. ha.. den yah, the bus journey was kinda fast man.. and after we reach we straight away go Lucky Plaza, the Idol shop already.. haha.. and know what shock me? I saw 3 guys taking S.H.E concert ticket.. $150 per ticket and is FIRST ROW.. wow lau.. so envy loh.. grr...!!!!! den yah, pre-order liao went off to taka.. actually wanted to find jie bin but i can't find the shop.. so we went to B1 coz jessie said that her friend working there and saw no one.. haha... den after that headed to HMV.. went to take neo-print. actually shuyi, dun wanna, but in the end she still take with us.. happie wor.. kee..^^ den take liao keep thinking of where to go, den decided to go back school.. before that went to buy Hot Dog bun.. nice nice.. yummy.. den after that me and juan go but consession stamp.. den meet both of them at bus-stop.. but den in the end juan no go.. she go home.. den 3 of us take bus loh.. reach schoOl den walk to the v.ball court.. den start to train.. until 5.15 we went off.. took 106 instead of 963.. den walk home from keming there loh.. reach home online, copy answer for RTO and watch tv.. Singapore Idol, Daphne, Sylvester rocks.. lolx.. i really like Daphne this name manx.. hee.. yah.. den do my EFW loh.. den now chatting and listening to songs+typing blog log.. haha.. intented to ask them out on my b`dae to sentosa but i have not ask.. nvm.. i will ask them tmr.. =D.. take care.. miss ya.. muackie.. I Love Ya..!

2004-10-27T22:30:00.000+08:00

Happie Birthday To Geraldine

Happie Birthday to ShuLian

Tired

Woke up at 8 in da morning.. becoz i am very tired to wake up at 7.. haha.. everyday also tired de lah.. muahahah.. den yah, wake uP liao den on computer loh.. den go pom pom.. pom come out.. change liao den go out laixo.. was late lah.. haha.. by the time i reach alot reach liaox.. haha.. den when we go, teacher say OQ is more den OS. haha.. den yah attented BPF with miss hO.. thanks to her manx.. coz her class was there doing EFW den we al do BPF.. den those girls.. what Mei Nu shit de lah.. keep diao us.. fuck lah.. u think u chio izzit? if u chio, singapore de real chio nu are all fairy tail manx.. angel man.. kns. please look at the mirror lah.. KNS KNS KNS.. pui.. den yah keep making fun of it.. espically weiqi manx.. she keep looking behind and stare at Michelle.. den after that when we know they got class photo, lucky more worst.. weiqi say their photo sure be doubLe of the original price coz too pretty liaox.. hahahhaa.. buay ta han.. haha.. yah den after lesson went to BPF class.. wanted to go eat but never.. so in cLass waiting for teacher to come loh.. den sms-ed junzhuO telling him not to be late loh.. den yah.. den miss hO go thru answers and let us copy answer loh.. den yah, second period got test.. argh.. kinda hard u know.. anyway, it's actuaLLy a progress test.. cannot refer.. but we all refer.. so if get high marks i think also no use.. not happy at all. coz is from book not ownself de.. haix.. nvm study hard.. =D~ cannot make mis ho sad.. and yah.. he forgiven me liao.. we got talk liaox.. happie.. weee u weee... den yah, went for Lunch.. eat liao den sit awhIle at the canteen den go class.. talk cock there.. haha.. so fun.. den go co-op buy magaizine den buy sweet.. den go back class and talk crap again.. den go RTO.. wow.. know what? before teacher come i was playing with them mah.. wow can die playing with them.. nosiy lah.. den very tired manx.. den yah, hve leson.. actually nothing de.. but suddenLy felt very tired so laid down on table loh.. den like that loh. damn tired.. den after that went for BSA.. but b4 that went canteen.. den go class.. wow kaox.. damn busy again.. i really dunno lah.. keep calling annie and ask for help.. den ask aijuan she say she yesterday already help so much.. kaox.. forget it den.. treat u as a friend ask u heLp also u like that say.. den fine loh.. i dun care if pauL is reading or not or telling her or not.. it's true.. she say until i like yesterday never help at all.. is my com also got problem with mine OWN WORK k.. so i never really helP them but i still did.. NOT I NEVER... kaox.. forget it.. dun wan to lose anger.. dun wan other ppl to mistaken me say i buwee HER.. haix.. den last 15 min went to heLp dot tay.. but cannot help too long den go off.. until 4.15.. sorry mrs tay.. hope u dun mind.. den yah, as usual, go toilet, but things loh.. den yah took bus to my bus.. in the bus 4 of us was like nuts.. espically jessie.. liew. den yah, reach my house no one at home.. save.. lolx.. den on air-con on my room den ask jessie help mi on air-con on my mum room. den we start our tv programme.. half way thru hungry.. den shuyi, me and jessie came out and cook coz only catherine want to watch mah.. but b4 that.. ask all out coz want to share my S.H.E mooncake with them.. hMm, Selina and Ella de nice.. as for Hebe de.. haha.. Green Tea so no one ate.. throw.. kee.. finally got ppl help mi settle liaox.. happie.. kee.. den yah.. cook.. den by the time she finish watching already cook ok liaox.. den go my room eat loh.. den listen to songs den lame around.. buwee shuyi.. as jessie is using the computer loh.. den 7 watch tv.. den they watch until 7.50 they went off.. i mean shuyi and catherine.. den for jessie, she went off at 8.30.. haha.. den after that i sweep the floor, mop the floor watch tv.. 8.50 den bathe.. den come out just nice watch 9 de show... haha.. mi and yun was so siao.. keep on scoldin Yilin.. kee.. so bad.. hee.. den yah.. going to sleep liaox.. too tired le.. Yawns.. it's raining at the moment.. and sure had a good sleep.. xD

tomorrow is kelvin b`dae.. a gan kor kor.. haha.. but hack care.. =X bye..

2004-10-26T22:32:00.000+08:00

WHAT THE HELL..!!!!!

I was almost late for schOoL know y.. coz this gu gu girl never set alarm.. lucky i will auto wake uP.. haha.. den yah, faster go and bathe.. and it was like so coLd loh.. grr.. den bathe le.. faster change and shoo off.. haha.. reach bus stop at what time i also dunn0.. forget liaox.. den yah, took 963 and never wall to other side de bus-stop wor.. lolx.. reach schOol bus-stop at around 7.10 like that.. grr.. that''s earLy manx.. den sit there wait.. wait who come den go in schOol with hu.. haha.. saw Jessie at 7.45 like that.. .. den walk in schoOl.. den my mood was like so AP until i nearLy hai jessie kanna car bang.. coz red man den i never tell her den got car come.. haix.. sorry.. i still give her fucking face.. gosh.. sorry.. den reach scHoOl like no one.. so went to refill water den go stand and wait for assembLy start.. only 11 ppl attented i think.. and yah.. after that go cLass loh.. wait for teacher to come.. den my face was so AP that aiyox.. very what sia.. den after that Miss Grace Ho lesson also lan lan.. give AP also.. she look at me i AP her.. act cooL.. sorry cher.. coz i'm very stress.. haix.. den yah zhuo share with me his MP3 to listen.. nice manx.. Ayumi.. rocks.. den after Miss Ho lesson for some time i abit ok ler.. den go next lesson.. after that lesson went to have RTO.. for 2 hours... den go CDP.. went to SAR room to do survey.. have to check on them.. grr..!!! den after that was talking to Mrs Tay loh.. haha.. envy is the only thing i can say.. haha.. yah den after that went for Lunch.. therefore after lunch went to classroom again.. for EFW lesson.. well, at first i got no space to sit.. den i move to beside Ah Ping.. den hor, when lesson going to end right. she tell mi something that make mi misunderstand something u know.. coz i dunno that girl send that message to him and i tot that, she send that when she toLd us that she send another message.. i was like huh.. den i say die den i mistaken him liaox.. den he more angry.. i was like omg.. die.. offended him already.. coz before lunch he was playing with us by saying dun wan talk to us mah.. haix.. den now he's like very angry.. when in BSA room he keep shouting i am evil.. haix.. i was so sad that i get very stress at the moment.. keep thinking of what i said. and everyone in the class was Annie come leix.. how to do this one? how ah? den next moment when i want to go over that side, another person shouted at my name saying come.. i was so busy mans.. grr.. and my WORK not done yet.. fucked..!!!! den ask teacher help she never answer... den ask her check she say she dunno i calling her.. fuck sia.. was so pissed off and stress and i nearLy cry out loh.. haix.. sorry friend if i AP u.. haix.. den at first dun wan go training de.. den saw him at there mah.. coz couLdn't be he and the rest was there and we all no go, so we go.. and also i am trying to make him nt angry with me.. grrr...!!! but i did not do it successfuLly.. as i got no chance to talk to him.. den nvm.. we all was playing ourself.. den after that when they wanna sprike ball, i saw him i say sorry to him, he did sercretly smile but i dunno if he will accept mah.. in bus i look abit quiet.. and jessie saw that.. she sms mi after i alight.. asking not to be sad over it.. he will understand de.. i scare that got ppl add oil add saLt in i die liao.. dun angry with me.. den in irc i private message him saying sorry all this loh.. he did not reply.. but never mind.. at lease if not wrong he accepted the song i send him.. den he also replied to one of my question even though he never help he give mi a website to find the meaning.. thanks anyway.. haix.. den reach home... online loh.. bathe loh.. eat loh.. watch tv loh.. now ttype blog finish liao it's time for mi to study liaox.. tmr got test.. gtg bye bye...

*hope he forgive mi.. i dun wan lost him as a friend.. can say i treat him as a very close friend already.. forgive me k*

*tmr is geraldine and shulian b`dae manx..*

haix.. hope he will yuan liang me in a couPle of days..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

2004-10-25T20:43:00.000+08:00

Tired manx.. slept at 12 going to 1 yesterday night sia..

Yesh, can't really wake uP this morning.. once again drag myself uP again liaox.. grr.. haha.. wake uP at 8.15 like that.. den go iron my uniform. den go batthe.. in the toilet for very long seh. lolx.. den yah nearLy late again sia.. muahahaha. kee. yea, reach schOoL liao den very hungry.. den teacher kip on talking to derek asking him to wear uniform.. for about 15mins sia.. den yah start lesson.. den keep asking for break.. lol.. den after that go eat.. yummy.. hungry.. den after eating go back lesson.. den after that went for next lesson at Computer lab which i BSA.. wee u wee.. i going to finish my work liaox.. yea.. hehe.. den after that went to classroom to wait.. after that went to canteen.. but on the way to the canteen saw charlene they all.. aiyox.. got some quarrel between her classmate and them.. very fierce sia gek choo.. yah at there for very long to see what happen den go and change.. den chagne liao go back classroom. den we start to tok cock.. talk about tv programme, work, and joke around.. very fun.. woo.. hee.. den after that 1.15 we actually wanted to go library but end uP some of us go and play v.ball and badminton.. play till half way, RAIN.. gosh.. den nvm still play but not under rain lah.. den play until pe start.. we keep ask teacher gib us go hall play badminton.. yea den go.. very fun wor.. but kinda warm lah.. but okok lah.. very fun.. play with ivis.. den hor.. haix.. i fall down.. kns.. sprain my ankle.. den hor, i ji tao laid down.. den keep laughing.. but is very pain.. wanted to cry out de.. haix.. den yah, after a while den i play back.. cannot move much.. but after awhile okok abit.. den after SW we all go canteen to settle down.. sit sit sit until 3.30 like that.. wanted to play badmintoon but end uP jessie and shuyi go back home, den mi juan and derek at canteen rot.. haha.. until her dear come.. haix.. den go back home.. in the bus keep thinking of want to report lost of IC mah. den keep thinking to what to say.. hahaha.. den yah.. put my courage to go.. den go liao.. the police tell mi no need to report.. just go the place wher make IC de can liaox.. i was like diao.. and very happie.. lolx.. den go 7-11 buy tibits.. hee.. den come back.. talk to mummy about the exam days.. and she tell me she going to sell bao.. kee.. i tell her i going to help her after exam.. wee u we.. lolx.. and haix.. suay enough.. coz hor, download ringtone dunno save till where die liaox.. kns.. argh.. btw found this song from my friend call One.. dunno the real title.. lolx.. nice.. thanks zhuo also help mi load the sounds.. muackie.. lolx.. okok..

*s.h.e seventh album can be pre-order but i dunno when den can go town. hai..

end here.. bye bye.. take care guys..

2004-10-24T21:16:00.000+08:00

a boring day..

such a boring day u know? haix.. a day of watching tv and chatting is making me mad.. grr.. nothing to post for today.. end my post here..

Boring bOring boRing borIng boriNg borinG

count down to exam: 28 days...

count down to moi birthday: 36 days..

will countdown everyday i think.. haha.. too boring liaox.. bo bian.. muhahahaha... K700i.. grr.. how i hope i dare to open my mouth to ask my parents buy for me fer my birthday.. sob..

2004-10-23T22:01:00.000+08:00

Happie Birthday to you, Karen

Karen, my childhood friend.. today is her 16 birthday.. oh.. keke.. it had been a long time ever since i last saw her.. well, she seems to have a very good life manx.. =) that's great..

yah, wake uP at 9+ in da morning.. hai.. was doing nothing when i wake up, just normal on computer loh.. chat with whoever who is online.. forgotten who already.. and yah went to bathe.. den dad came back with Roti Prata.. at first i never eat first as i also don't know why .. haix.. den yah. went to the kitchen and eat loh.. haix.. eat liao den start to tidy room.. know what? my room is damn full of dust.. grr.. yah, was almost done but now abit untidy also.. and know what? i still can't find my IC.. i think i really lost it for no reasons... why am i so suay manx? haix..yea, while tidying was watching tv all this loh.. den around 2+ like that i finish tidying.. so father help mi mop floor.. and it's kind to clean now? i dunno lah.. den watch tv loh... so boring u know at home? can't go out.. blah blah.. was doing nothing also lah.. nothing to blog liao also.. only know that i change a blogskin.. dunno nice anot.. but no one will know.. except one person i guess.. haix.. it's damn unfair.. just now dunno y i start to think of him.. dunno y loh.. i cry manx.. after sometime tot i have already forgotten but now, i weep again.. whats wrong with me manx? hMm, people see my wishlist... get me something from there lah.. i will love u manx.. my birthday coming in 37days.. woow... hMm, now i wan de is a handphone.. model k700i.. patricia that one.. freaking nice loh.. but problem is no money.. haix.. must SAVE.. cannot anyhow USE money.. BORING manx.. okok stop here.. i am damn fucking boring.. i miss you.. haix.. *crys*

2004-10-22T22:48:00.000+08:00

Happie Birthday to Eileen

Happie Birthday tO Benjamin

Both are moi cousins wor.. sister and brother.. kee.. happie brithday.. =D wo qin ai de biao jie and biao di.

Hmm, i'm so tired.. y? yesterday sleep at nearly 1 and today need to wake uP by 7+ - 8 .. so sleepy man.. grrr.. i manage to pull myself uP loh.. haix.. den when online and then bathe, den pack my bag and i go schOol.. reach sChOoL at 9.20.. yawns... teacher not there yet mah.. so nvm loh.. haha.. den yah attent lesson.. know what? was so boring and tired till i keep turning here and there. cannot sit stiLl.. haix.. manage to have break but i never go down.. coz too lazy liaox.. den after that got normal lesson for another 15mins.. den off we go.. to EFW lesson.. before that, went to locker.. take books and battery for Sijun.. haix.. yah den had lesson.. okok lah.. was damn tired by the time teacher come... but i manage to stay awake.. but i watned to sleep... argh.. den after lesson go toilet den go off liaox.. never take 963 but i took 106 coz i going to meet Bridget mah.. haha waited for her at the bus stop.. saw huimei so went to chat with her loh.. wait till both her bf and bridget came.. hah.. forgotten how long liaox.. den yah saw her taking a plastic and i notice that i forget to take poster from locker.. grr.. shit.. nvm.. den yah took bus 61 to Queensway.. in the bus both of us was talking loh.. until we reach.. hehe.. and IT WAS RAINING k.. but by the time we reach already stop le and it's 2Pm.. haha.. so we walk to the Alexandra hospital.. went to explore. hMm den go sit at the place we that time wait for her de. den felt hungry suddenLy, so went to the cheers to get something to eat while waiting.. yah, today she was EARLY.. by the way the she is Geraldine.. xD.. she was early.. so we went to take bus outside to MRT station and we took MRT to Jurong Point.. was fast.. by the time we reach Boon Lay MRt is 3.45 liaox.. den we walk very fast to SeouL Garden as 2 of us are sooo hungry.. yes, today was slightly cheap.. coz 3 of us only cost 45.. under my budget.. =X coz everytime also 20+ de... yah den we start to eat and chat.. chat not many lah.. lesser than last time.. =D.. yah from 4 eat till 6+.. den we go take photo photo.. yea.. =D .. first time we 3 take wor.. lolx.. so happy.. after taking went back.. took 180 and was talking in the bus too.. den yah after that take 176 back.. reach home watch tv from 8.15 - 10 de bathe.. lolx.. den wanted to do but tired... fell like sleeping..

Tomorrow is Karen my childhood frwen b`dae.. =D

2004-10-21T22:01:00.000+08:00

Happie Birthday to Jia Hong
my cousin b`dae. grr.. 6year old liaox.. lol..

today? hmm, was almost late to schoOl ba. haha.. hMm, wake uP at 8.30+ wor.. coz too sleepy liaox.. hee.. den prepare all this loh.. actually if i come out earlier i wont be late.. coz when i reach bus go liaox.. grr.. tmd.. den nvm loh.. wait.. tot bus wil come at 10 but come at 10.05 instead.. grrr... stupid.. nvm lah.. den saw bridget in the bus.. she was LATE too.. lolx.. 10 lesson she 10.10 den alight from bus.. best loh she.. lolx.. den yah jessie called me. saying she will wait for mi at the canteen som that can go locker together.. yea while crossing the road saw aijuan den we walk to schOol together and 3 of us go locker together.. lolx.. 3 of us LATE.. lolx.. but nvm lah.. dorothy tay no scold us.. den yah take project and paste.. yesh done with it.. woo.. den yah had lesson.. okok lah.. den after that walk told to help her do something loh.. den do loh.. sob.. den go office with dot tay loh.. den yah in class crap around again.. lolx.. having a role play.. so funnie.. make us all laugh.. i mean yanbin, siewffong, patricia, jessie and weiling.. lolx.. yah den after lesson went to eat at the canteen.. after eating went to have some rest.. den go play v.ball. . quite fun yea.. lolx.. BTW, that zhuo today dunno what happen to him.. abit siao siao.. haha.. but today we 4 of us train very fun.. got Zhuo, Juan, Yi Wan and mie, myself annie.. lolx.. but play until my hand got the the mosqitoe bite like that.. haix.. alot of yi li yi li.. so i stop.. and wait for juan de bf PauL .. he came and find her at court.. den we went off together.. hmm, went to buy yoghurt.. den yah.. follow her back home.. coz we went to play badminton.. hMm know how long we played? 3hours... omg.. my whoLe bbodyy aching.. sob.. but after all was very fun loh.. even though it was at Telok Blangah so far.. but hm still can ba.. lolx.. reached home at 8.10 like that.. den faster go bathe den watch tv.. den eat dinner.. now leix? wanna do BSA liaox.. hee.. i wil be listening to songs and do..!!!!

tmr meeting bridget and geradline liao.. happie.. wee..

must study hard.. and go in accounting..

tmr eileen and benjaming both sister and brother b`dae.. wee.. my cousin seh..

2004-10-20T23:07:00.000+08:00

so boring.. haha.. everyday is also a boring day for mie.. haix.

today wake up at 8 and prepare to go schOol all this.. reach school had my bpf for 45mins or less and we went to take class photo.. the person who help us take photo is the person who was also taking in my ex schOoL fajar.. haha.. yah weiling and gals think of lots of post to put but end uP all gone.. tmd.. so wasted. y? ok first 2 shots are Formal shots.. den another 2 more is informal shots.. and for the informal at first weiling was like say we first imfomal smile.. den another one dun smile but never.. ok nvm.. den we all think is that we look behind facing the canteen for those who stand on the chair and point our finger to the right, but the man say, hey girls dun look behind lah. if look behind no see face what for take photo.. den we turn back.. ok.. den we all took the informal shots not nice i can say.. coz hor NOT NICE loh.. haix.. den after taking we whole class was shouting.. aiyaaaa.. so lousy.. and haha... i think so far only OQ done that.. and well done OQ.. we are the best.. complanit also together.. Best.. love u guys.!! hee ^^.. ya.. den went to had our Lunch... yea yea, back to the first period for bpf.. u know.. i think OQ now are trying to work as hard as we couLd.. today no one was talking in the class while miss ho was teaching.. and it's very nice to see that.. surprisingly loh.. i hope we can go on like that till exam comes.. really.. it's like we all very united asking questions doing questions.. we MUST study hard k.. i know my gpa to me is very hard to go.. but i must try.. . haix.. den after eating right, we all nothing to do den go to class but got ppl so we use other class, only got Juan, Jessie and Me.. haha.. three of us in the cLass trying to do BPF paper which teacher give in da morning.. trying hard i guess.. haha.. kind of difficuLt loh.. haix. den yah do until half way go back the the original class.. den talk there loh.. crap around.. den teacher come.. den yah had our normal lesson like in the monrin.. hehe.. den after that went to find Mrs Tay to ask something but she dun wan reply. nvm ask Mrs Wo.. den yesh comfirm.. kee happie.. den ya went to class.. den start to crap around again.. den yanbin they all request to take pic together.. den take loh.. when take also crap around.. den yah quite fun. lolx.. den mrs tay had our lesson.. in class at first never talk.. den after that crap around with jessie.. haha.. siao sia we two.. haha.. den yah.. after that went to have our break.. buy what u know? Yohgurt.. nice nice.. yummy.. lol.. den ya after that went to cLass.. i, Juan and Jessie.. haix.. never study coz was told to help with computer lab things.. lolx.. den we 3 help loh.. as work also going finish liaox. den after that help until 4.30 - 4.45 like that.. sob.. yah den take bus with jessie.. talk cock also.. haha.. den reach home, online, bathe watch tv.. and find my IC.. but i cannot find.. haix.. i think really lost liaox.. suay month.. really suay... no wonder my eye keep jumPing.. i think this week or next need to go and pray liao.. haix.. den yah watched Ren Wo Au You.. omg... nice and i hate Hai Ou team.. sucks..

after watching was still trying to find but stil cannot.. den around 10.45 dad come back.. tell me that he nearly hit someone.. haix.. kind of suay this month.. must pray also.. haix.. den my mum came back.. den scold me again.. say y i waste so much money.. she know my bank no money liaox.. haix. but also good lah.. dun wan to hide.. i will promise i will save it back ok.. haix.. Must Jia You in studies, in money.. i will jia you de..

btw will be helping Jessie mom friends to work for 2 days.. if not wrong i 72$ for 2 days.. but nvm.. i willing to work.. =D

Over all today is a fun day.. =)

2004-10-19T21:05:00.000+08:00

erm, can't really wake uP today.. suppose to be 5.55 end uP is 6.30 den wake uP, first thing i call junzhuO. luckily he got answer.. den yah, go pom den faster get ready to go out.. coz dun wan late.. den quite heng ba, 963 not very pack.. den take.. but is at another side de bus-stop.. sob.. yah den reach schoOl bus-stop at 7.10 like that.. woot.. den stay at the bus-stop coz i dun have the feeling to go schoOl yet.. den yah wait. den sms shuyi no reply.. den catherine.. den she say coming den i think shuyi also coming.. den yah.. she came.. and the time is almost uP den we all go in first.. yah de start assembLy, today hor, hehe.. no need sing.. only say pledge.. coz dunno y no schOol songs.. den go class have BPF.. i can die ah.. so hard.. haix.. i must jia you wor.. den went for mrs tay lesson loh.. den yah was okok lah.. joking with her all this.. alright ba.. den yah after that go for lunch.. haha.. know what? we all today crap alot.. keep laughing.. kee.. den go back class.. crap again.. lolx.. den had our EFW.. not bad.. keke.. den go BSA.. alright.. den help dot tay check com.. den go v.ball... that's all. =D~ go pia comics and game liao.. bye.. muackie..

Happie Birthday to Tor Xiong Kor Kor

my cousin.. hehe.. happie birthday wor.. he very bad.. i send him sms say happie birthday no reply thanks.. BAD guy..!!!

2004-10-18T21:51:00.000+08:00

Gua Gua Gua.. I'm late today.. DAmn late.. start lesson at 9.15 i reach at 9.53.. lolx..

yah was alright loh today.. after efw go class coz mr tan relief mah.. den yah go central with zhuo they all.. den after that while going out saw 106 den all run to the bus stop.. den got guys at there shouting.. haha.. i forget what they say but they mean wow guy fight ah? lolx.. den go back class.. den go for talk.. den after taLk go back home with jessie and shuyi.. and we finish our project.. yea.. lazy to type more.. gtg liaox.. buai..

tmr is my big cousin de b`dae.. diaox.. lolx.. got assembLy so i cannot sms him at mid night..

2004-10-17T22:30:00.000+08:00

Boring Day

Wake up at 12.30 in the afternoon.. haha.. first time wake uP so late.. kee ^^ den go play computer den watch tv.. coz got show to watch... at the same time chat abit with weiqi and zhuo, den have my breakfast cum lunch.. den watch tv again.. while watching was doing BSA from page 20-75 like that.. headache loh.. haix.. but yea i finished.. den watch vcd.. Snow Angel... NICE ah... lolx.. Toro, Yu Jie rocks.. lolx.. =X.. den watch Super Sunday.. den watch vcd again.. den go out eat dinner with father.. as mum was sick.. whole day she was sleeping. eat aso never eat.. aiy0x.. haix.. den yah sms-ing Paul.. yaya, listen to him once dun go see S.H.E de concert.. but i wan to save money.. buy vcd, cd, MD, digital camera, clothing.. i wan to buy.. sob.. okok.. gtg liaox.. bye

2004-10-16T23:55:00.000+08:00

Happie Birthday To Jia Wei Moi Cousin

So sia today, i wake up at 9+ in the morning coz i tot it was 11+ liaox.. was so sleepy yea, coz yesterday night watch vcd until 1am den go orh orh... sooo tired.. so i watch abit tv and den start to watch vcd.. Snow Angel.. wee u wee.. damn nice.. watch 5 vcd today.. yea.. superb.. lolx.. watch 3 first den go downstair buy S.H.E de concert vcd den go buy mac.. den come back watch again.. hehe.. sooo nice.. intent to watch all but dun have the time.. hmm, at the same time i also got copy RTO notes.. hehe.. yah den chat with me cousin.. den wait for father come back... chat alot with her.. den yah go pom den prepare go out..

yesh, baby was there.. so happy seeing him.. haha.. Wong family got 10 people go.. excluded my family.. haha. i was seprate from them.. but never mind we still got talk.. hmm, actuaLly hor, we intent to go k-box de leix.. to celebrate Eileen, her brother and Keng Boon kor kor de b`dae.. coz all very near.. but in the end never go as Eileen got exam this coming week.. so we intent o go in nov? or dec ba.. haha... happie manx.. den ZhuZhu(baby) so cute.. he will auto let me carry him.. so good.. keke.. but awhiLe later he go back to his mummy but never mind.. got carry can liaox.. keke.. yah the dinner end at 11. went back home and now typing blog log.. hahahaha... night..

Paul is sick. please take care.. go see doc if possbiLe k.. =) where got no ppl care for u, ur dear? yr parents and yr friend.. which incLude me lahx... so do take care. =D

2004-10-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

Happie Birthday Lihao

i'm so tired.

Yesterday even though i offline at 10 like that, but i 12 den sleep sia.. because i was enjoying myself at my mum room.. was reading comics and listening to songs.. lolx..

haix, actually i have been too much.. really too much.. what i say in the previous post i felt so regret and i don't even know that i've hurt someone.. haix.. why ah? i think in te worLd i'm the most stupid person liaox.. dunno y got such a person like me in this world.. HAIX.. I'm hereby sincereLy apologising to Paul, i didn't mean to say all those things out, it's because i'm very stress towards everything.. i know maybe actually from the start u already hate me or something le.. but why i always make all this mistake and seens like we cannot have a good friendship? haix.. seriousLy, i always regret, but i guess no one knows how i feel.. haix..

wake up at 8 today, but seriuosLy i drag myself up de.. coz i'm just too tired.. dun intent to attent lesson but the RTO book is with me u see, if never go they cannot copy answer... so i went, surprisly today hor, no classroom for us, coz no teacher den the room is need key de.. so lame loh.. i was late ya, on the way to schOoL juan call me, asking me where am i.. lolx.. den i tell her come liao den settle.. yah, reached liao all at canteen eating.. hehe.. den duno what to do slack for 2 hours.. went to library loh.. so boring.. sob.. den after that went to class room for EFW lesson.. was alright loh the lesson.. after that went off after mrs wo had mark our book.. yesh, went to change den go out.. went to Jurong Point with Aijuan, accompany her buy straw den i go check handphone de pricing.. E700A is 600++++ den P400 is 658+ as for E600 is 598.. haix. how? i think my dream will be gonex... sigh.~ yah den after that went back home.. as i was so tired i fell asleep in the bus.. haha.. den went to plaza to buy something.. saw Guohao, becoming more n more handsome sia.. woot.. lolx.. den yah took 176 home.. change liao den i 3.30 sleep liao.. sleep until 7.. coz i'm so tired.. hee.. den wake up liao play com.. awhile later dad bring me to brother de temple at Telok Blangah Crescent there.. stay down there for 2+ hours den come back.. now currentLy i'm watching Snow AngeL.. sooo nice.. feel like finishing all.. but i can't.. after this number 7 disc i gtg liaox.. hee ^.. Xue Tian Shi rocks..

Hmm, i've change my blog song to Shu Guang, but i think there's problem wor.. hope u like it.. =D

thanks to pauL and sorrie to pauL ehs.. haix.

2004-10-14T21:30:00.000+08:00

today wake up at 8.30.. haha.. den go pom den go prepare.. at first i really took my own sweet time.. haix.. without LG i think my life is like more n more lazy liaox.. like no time limit de.. haix..

yah reach school and go to class because both jessie and me got our book with us.. go class never listen to what teacher say.. talking and playing friednster.. lolx.. den got a career talk.. the room was so cold loh.. den okok lah.. maybe will sign up for the job.. den after that go for lesson. after lesson when to Burger King to have our Lunch.. after eating go walk walk abit.. den go back schoOl. i never go.. i go home.. den play computer and watch 1 vcd.. den do puzzle.. den 5+ dad bring me to PS to get my number.. haix.. he still wont get me a phone.. i was so sad u know.. haix.. i got vent abit anger on him.. sorrry.. but now i'm okae.. got a phone is better den without a phone.. lets see how.. if it's time to buy he will buy.. never mind.. i bear with it k.. =).. den go Bukit Timah there eat.. den sms with bridget loh.. den yah watching tv now and going offline soon because i'm very hot.. haha.. gtg liao.. buaix.. xD

2004-10-13T21:52:00.000+08:00

why am i blogging and allowing someone to see my post? shouLd i change address again? oh.. i not sure... because i dun think that there's a need for me to let other ppl see my blog.. maybe whoever see this post will dulan me.. but well, i've been thinking u know.. because of some reasons.. hmm, hai.. why am i always like this? hai.. I don't want to let him see that i'm sad or whatever shit loh.. coz no use.. no matter how much he console, how much he care for me also no use.. it's not the care and concern i want from him.. haha, but u know anot it's gone.. so i dun need it.. it will make mi more like him? lolx.. bu zhi dao lah.. muhahaha.. i can say this few days i never really talk to him or reply him.. and my hp lost.. i think i not going to take his number again ba.. Because he also wont message me mah.. only his gf.. his one and only beloved girlfriend.. haha... i must overcome okay..!!! i cannot like that ci ci de wait for him.. later one day i kee siao sia.. hhahahhahaha... siao sia me.. but anyway, Paul i hope u will hate me or ignore me also.. because i really can't stop thinking of what u said to me last time.. really can't.. this has been in my mind for months already.. everytime i am chatting with u, i will think of it.. haix.. and worst things.. i think i cannot like that talk to u loh.. chat on phone lah, irc chat lah.. coz i dun wan others to misunderstand us.. and if juan know i think she will hate me and i dun want it to happen.. she's my best friend.. anyway, no matter what i still want to say, Wish u both Everylasting.. =]

/me slap myself around with a big HAND. why am i always saying all this? i dun understand y u know... haix.. not i want to repeat but is that it has been in my mind everytime.. haix.. argh.. Life totally Sucks..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I start my post for today.. I wake up at 8.15 in da morning and prepare to go and bathe.. was reading comics ya.. den on com to surf net for awhile.. becasue i already xi guan le.. den start off at 9.10 like that.. den reach sch bus-stop saw Shuyi and Catherine liao.. so we went to schooL loh.. den ivis came out and find us.. haha.. den walk in to schooL again.. went to buy breakfast and it.. some more before i eat, my stomach kind of pain loh.. den after that wait for time to past.. so we slack at the canteen and dee siao each other loh.. den 11.15 we set off.. den in bus was kind of tired and sleepy, but never sleep.. so listening to disc man and keep thinking.. hai.. den reach, first tot that we can have some refreshment but was being called to sit down and listen to the talk.. every one was like so sleepy can? almost felt asleep.. somemore i headache.. haix.. sad case.. den went to see those exhibition.. saw a booth which give chocolate dips with Mashmallow.. den all of us quene and take sia.. so nice.. omg.. den went to toilet.. den went for second round of chocolate.. hah. damn nice.. den talk around the booth loh.. keep walking rounds and rounds loh.. haha.. den was told to assembLy to listen to another talk so we went.. after that had our refreshment again.. so yummy.. omg.. aha.. den went to toilet.. after that got ppl say can go off liaox.. den went off.. before that we went to find the korean people and chat chat and take pic.. haha.. so lame sia us.. den got a guy say he is Bae Yong Jun de cousin.. eh.. lol.. dunno want to believe him anot sia.. lolx.. haha.. den we take liao we went off to suntec to walk walk.. accompany catherine coz she finding Hush Puppie shop den we go loh.. after that go cd shop.. den go off.. in bus Ivis, Shuyi, Catherine and me all so siao one.. keep laughing and crapping.. den reach liao go home..

Reach home bathe, eat liao den wait for my dad to bring me go. ya den we went off.. he drive towards West Mall there.. den i ask him where he going he say West Mall den i say what west mall is Ps lah.. den we start to argue.. den he say what PS? not westmall meh? i say where got at west mall.. den we quarrel. den he say he dunno how to go,, and say he no time liaox.. fuck loh.. den we quarrel loh.. quarrel until very jia lat.. i not wrong.. dun give him a fucking damn on it.. i dun wish to say all out as i already say 4-5 times liaox.. want to know? ask me and i wil tell u.. den ya was crying loh.. but thnkas for fong and bin and yun and juan for hearing me.. thanks..

Until now i am still pissed off with him.. always make Empty Promises to Me.. haix. i really lost fate in this family liaox.. gtg liao.. bye

2004-10-11T21:22:00.000+08:00

Happie Birthday Sarah

grrr... why why why? izzit really my fault who make my phone lost? hai.. why must u say until i purposely make it lost? haix.. felt damn sad about it..

as per normal went to schOoL.. was early abit as i got no phone mah.. den yah, they all make fun loh.. but well, i wont show how sad am i.. den i stil play play with them.. coz if i sad will the phone come back to me? haix... aiya bu yao say liao.. very sad sad loh.. den yesh, was having our normal lesson.. =) we were off at around 1+ going 2 because CDP no teacher den SW dun have lesson.. haha.. den at first tot of going home.. but i went to JP with yun, zhuo, juan, ping and jess.. went to find comic, cd and walk walk.. =) can't find much comic.. or rather can find but dunno when got money to buy.. haix.. i promise to buy Full House.. =) so i trying to save as much money as i can to buy.. wee u wee.. den at Music Junction i saw 2 cds i wanted to buy too.. wow.. 12.90 and 17.90 ah? i not sure sia.. grr... wo yao buy.. bo money lei.. so ke lian sia me.. when want to buy things always end up no money de.. i want to change to bilabong de wallet.. nice seh.. want hp.. all i wan.. but no money.. lolx.. yah den zhuo bought a Brotherhood vcd.. keke.. den went over to huiping house to watch. at first dun wanna go de.. but in the end i still got go lah.. lolx.. before we go we went to buy ice cream.. den we went off.. reach her house wash leg den start watchin. kkind of sad sia.. den after that went to her room after 3 long hours of watching.. went to the room to fight.. long time no fight liao.. haha.. zhuo kanna most from Huiping.. haha.. me only helper.. =x.. den after that we went to have our diner at her place.. so yummy.. omg.. nice loh.. very nicey.. yummy.. after eating we go back her room and see them fight again. den see untiL 7+ going 8 we went off.. zhuo bluff us, say wan take 67 den take 963 end up he take 188.. bluff ppl de.. sobby.. den reach home, straight away after i on my monitor my house phone ring.. it was my mum.. saying where i go all this.. i say i go friend house do project.. den she say i hai shi ren.. make them find me all this.. say my dad nearly call police.. hai.. actually i gu yi dun call de.. coz i not sure if they all so guan xin mi anot mah.. hai.. it's mine fault also lah.. den of coz i cry lah.. den like that loh.. 10 go sleep.. =)

today? hmm, was late for assembLy as i wake up late also.. lol.. den yesh took my own sweet time to schooL, was late.. saw jessie too.. den okok lah.. stomach pain all the while loh.. hai.. sad loh.. den not really in the mood to study.. war war~.. den after that lesson got my breakfast and lunch.. den go back class.. write answer give them.. alot sia.. sob sob.. den after that went to 205.. den had our stupid EFW test,.. so difficuLt.. grr.. okok lah.. manage to finish.. den after that went to locker to wait for juan and also pack my locker.. den after that went to IMM.. went to BK loh.. den shag there.. den jessie they all come over.. den we go find vcd.. den saw S.H.E de concert cd.. i want to buy and Ai Qing Bai Pi Shu.. =X.. haix. no money ah.. den go back school.. attent EFW.. den go BSA.. den go volleybal training.. alright lah.. nothing much.. den go home.. onmline and chat... know how siewfong and her bf together le.. so happy for them.. muackie.. and watch tv.. grr.. i cry lei.. coz to touching liao..

Hmm, i've seems to be avoiding him loh.. but what to do? i still can't forget him.. so i try to avoid loh.. hai.. kk lah.. gtg bye..

2004-10-10T23:25:00.000+08:00

Today my mood was sucks... I put my anger on my dad.. or rather i was pissed off loh.. why? because he did not go and buy hair shampoo.. but i know it's my fault loh.. hai.. with no reasons i bang door all this.. isn't it too much? i think i am just too much.. haix.. Den some more watch tv until i nearly cry.. argh.. yesh, den around 3+ i went to bathe.. den after that 4+ went out.. reach salon at 5.. den wait for cindy to help ppl to finish do rebording.. when my turn is already 6.35 like that liaox.. den yah cut... sigh* short and thick.. cannot cut any layer sia.. very ugly loh.. i dun like but never mah lah.. will long back de.. bear with it yea.. yah, after that when we are about to go off, we call them.. fong and ping still at home.. *bish.. den Kalai admitted to hospital.. heard from his friend is that he kick football until like that.. den i down there say to cindy, must be he say tmd Annie they all got come ah.. qu shi ba.. den kick very hard den leg become like that.. haha.. kidding lah.. den after that went to Jurong Point loh.. meet ping and fong.. wanted tot eat food court but end up eat Pizza Hut.. yesh, was there crazying around.. lolx.. talk, laugh and lame loh.. i miss those days we used to had.. haix.. and den after eating went off.. den after that when we wanna go off when ah ping pay finish we went off, den i touch my pocket to check where is my phone den i realise it's lost.. den i run back and find. tot i can find it but haix.. LOST... and my phone is LOST now.. so i called my dad and tell him, he say me.. i was damn angry and i hang his phone and close it very hard.. and it's ping phone.. sorry ping.. wo bu shi gu yi de.. sorry.. sob.. and i dunno is wan to cry to laugh u know.. so i act normal.. because bu ke nen cry infront of them right? haix.. and it's my first time who lost my PHONE.. i'm freaking sad... so sad.. but i act as normal laugh with them.. and i called my phone telling her, she say shuang hor, happy hor.. u know when i hear her say this my heart was so sour? but after putting down i still act normal as if nthing happen? haix.. is because i dun wan my dearest friend to sad also.. so i act normal.. den they wanted to watch movie.. i did not go loh.. but end up say go Kbox.. i never go with them.. really no mood liaox.. so sorry.. u all njoy k.. den ah fong forget that i lost phone still say, reach home sms us hor.. haha.. nvm lah.. i liao jie..

Annie serve u right.. lost ur phone.. orbi good.. but thanks to ping, fong and cindy.. they all keep on encouranging me.. cheer me up.. den in bus i was like no mood and very what loh.. haix.. den reach home nothing de.. den my mum wake up. she keep saying me.. argh. i already control my tears.. but i still cry.. i say her back say, i only lost one thing.. u all say so much.. kjor kor lost u all got say him? haix.. i really dun understand loh.. i think to them i'm just a idoit... do they care for me? i dun think so.. what i want always cannot get.. but what my brother wan also get de.. haix... WHY WHY WHy? if they dun wan buy me phone, i think i will borrow from huiping first.. thanks for wanting to lent mi ur phone but i dun have sim card.. ping thanks alot.. haix..

2004-10-09T23:29:00.000+08:00

Hmm wake up at 8+ in da morning.. went online and rot.. as i got nothing to do.. so boring... and at 10+ i went to bathe.. den 11.50 like that i went out.. took 176 to Bukit Panjang Interchange.. than took 700.. the journey was alright loh.. 45mins? not sure.. lol.. den when i goin reach HMV de bus stop i saw Mr Ng at Lucky Plaza there de bus stop.. actually i don't intent to sms him, but den i still did.. den he replied saying he was with mis ang.. lol.. they went to find something and he's heading home.. o.O so long no see him le.. kee..!! den went to find Yun and Juan.. went to buy movie ticket.. buy liao we went to taka the dunno how to spell de shop buy comic.. i buy part 2 yun also buy part 2 plus Slam Dunk haha.. den after that walk awhile go back cineleisure.. coz it was about time.. lolx.. den went to quene up for the pop corn.. den go in.. kaox.. the stupid uncle so attitude loh.. kns.. yah den go in and show start.. nice show.. manage to make mi cry.. hah.. damn funnie and damn sad.. haix.. if can i want watch another time or buy vcd.. the show was about 2hours.. hur hur.. after that rush out and chiong to the toilet.. not me, is aijuan.. haha.. den we went to HMV de toilet den we go Far East Plaza, pei yun go buy skirt.. den meet Paul.. den we go walk walk find the star star.. kee^^ cannot find.. den decided to go HMV again... saw Derek.. den talk crap with him for awhile.. den go find.. still cannot find.. den we go take neo-print.. den after that go Taka again to slack... was at the coffee bean.. read comic and listening to discman.. haha.. den awhile later went to Mac and makan.. eat liao we go taka walk awhile den go off liaox. reach home at 9.50.. den online loh.. now watching vcd.. Snow Angel... quite a nice show... not bad... after watching disc 2 i go orh orh liaox.. night.. kinda have a great day..

2004-10-09T09:03:00.000+08:00

2days never blog liao.. coz i'm being lazy again.. =X

Thursday!
Mrs Tay is back, to be frank most of are are much more happier seeing her instead of that CHAN and from what we heard from Mrs Tay that Chan don't want teach liao.. haha.. Yesh.. So Happy manx.. Hopefully is our class make him dun want teach sia..Coz i never make teacher don't want teach before sia.. haha.. I understand this month since that teacher scold that F word i become very bad liaox.. Yesh, den yah loh, normal day loh.. Jessie, Juan and me is back to office again.. coz no mrs tay we no go office got mrs tay we 3 sure in office with her.. hehe.. yesh... than yah still same joke around with her all this loh.. hehe.. Mrs Tay damn rocks manx.. Yah after that went for lesson but we never do much things.. becoz some of them doing test. haha.. u know how that sijun hor.. aiyox.. so bad sia.. keep scolding bad words to those malay ppl.. but they serve it right.. lol.. =X yah den after school we went to West Mall and decided to eat Mos Burger loh.. Yah den we go, walk until going reach Mos Burger liao my cousin call me.. den i ask her where is she, she tell me west mall de converse shop, den i go find her loh.. talk for 3mins den go off liaox.. coz she going school loh.. keke.. den after that we went to buy food.. Ivis got a free Fries.. woot.. not bad.. den eat until half way, juan saw a girl at the shop there like wanna steal things.. den we all start to say around amoung ourself loh. den keep looking at her. den she also very stupid loh. want steal things still keep looking around dunno for what.. den she keep staring at our table loh.. she was there for about 5-10 mis.. lolx.. so lousy..! =X den after that i heard them say she walk pass my back.. lol.. den saw Security Guard at the shop there looking for those girls i think.. den we all still at the Mos Burger talk about the girl thing.. den h0r dunno who say lai liao.. den got 1 mo,re guy behind.. we all start to scare liaox.. coz scare kanna beat mah... haha.. den Mrs Tay call, what she say i dun really remember liaox.. lol.. den tell her about this incident ask her come fetch us, she wanted to as she become very jing zhang leh.. but we tell her never mind lah.. we will take care of ourself.. den after that we accompany Ivis go sell bad de dunno what connection buy bag.. was there for 15-20mins.. lolx.. den settle.. woot.. ^^ den after that went to macdonal to buy food for Junzhuo den we go back to school liaox.. went for training.. and got less than 15ppl or rather only 12-13 nia.. where is our Volleyball de jing sheng? every training seems to have so less people.. sianx loh.. yah today we keep on spike ball.. and train until 6+ den we go off.. haix.. reach home 7.05 like that.. den watch tv den go bathe.. den online and chat+i never really do project u know.. all is jessie do de.. sorry jessie.. really Sorry..

Friday!
Had Mrs Tay lesson, and during the lesson we all was playing when she not here.. spray water all this.. haha.. so fun loh.. i very long never play with huiping they all liaox.. so fun.. keke.. contiune with Mrs Tay lesson loh.. den we eat her Cheng Mei until going to finish.. whole class eat leix.. imagine loh. haha.. den after her lesson follow her to office to take book.. den after that go her talk.. and the talk only talk for 10-15mins.. den after that we all hor, dun wan go lesson,, keep asking Mrs Wo let us of. she intent not to but our whole class keep aaaaa make noise den she allow us to go off.. den went to canteen to eat.. after that went to Town.. went to the shop and i bought 1 comic which is Kiss.Jue Jiao.Kiss.. den after that we went to rot at Cineleisure loh.. den after that saw some preview liao we all decided today go watch 2 movie but time very close so watch one only which is Cool Guy.!.. woow.. lolx.. den after that felt hungry we went to Taka de mac.. den got 4 japan guy came sit beside our table.. den yun and jess high liao.. or can say MAD liox.. lol.. den they all go off liao.. den we wanted to go off liao after that.. DEn heng heng suay suay let them saw 5 guys.. jap de also.. den they both go and follow them loh.. den poor me and juan both walk as slow as we dont know them.. haha den after that around 4+ liao i very tired liao.. den i ask jessie to stop i wanna go home pai seh.. sorry.. den in bus read my comics. den after i look up it's aready at bukit Panjang liaox.. that's fast manx.. den went to plaza with jessie.. saw lots of 4t1 student.. and i miss them lots loh.. den say hi liao den go to comics shop.. omg the girl so freaking attitude.. and the comic so expensive.. grrr..! den after that go see vcd, cd all this.. saw Yvonne, my used to be very good mei mei.. ask her about the paper she say Maths she can science she can't.. but i hope she pass all her subject.. And all 4T1 guys!! Hope u all get good grades ok and go to good ITE.. keke.. my dear yvonne say want to come find me.. haha.. but i going to leave ite liaox.. how to come find wo.. unless i in higher nitec loh.. =) den went to buy ice cream den go take bus.. miss one bus coz ice cream not finish.. den take bus home, watch tv and chat with bridget and geraldine den i go pom pom.. den after that watch tv and online loh.. nothing much to talk.. and i really very sad.. WHY MUST THEY ASK WHO IS HE/SHE WHEN IT'S NONE OF THEIR PROBLEM? WHY? fuck off lah.. i really hate it loh.. it's not yr channeL ok.. it's mine cousin.. i shouldn't have asked u guys in loh.. why? really is who come in and they dunno de they ask u know. make me feel so what loh.. i amost cry about it loh.. and i dunno i do to gek choo loh,i talk to her she never reply me de loh.. only reply to others loh.. never mind.. since she want like that let her be.. with or without her as my friend also not my problem.. i don't give it a DAMN to it.. ITE life sucks to the core.. hai.. i think i go off liaox.. bye bye.. later going to watch movie with juan and yun..

*haix* *full of regret* *do u hate me* i guess u did!

2004-10-06T23:05:00.000+08:00

I'm back from todays programme.. lolx..

Today? wake up very punctual today at 8 because yesterday night i slept at 10+ while i am thinking of something.. haha.. until today morning 8.. yahoo.. can say kind of early lah.. lolx.. aiya, to me is as usual de lah.. online loh.. also dunno can do what shit sia.. lOlx.. den go pom at 9.20 like that.. den go take bus.. den go school liao loh.. lolx.. den go for lesson.. after one lesson went to have lunch+breakfast.. was kinda full sia.. den after that rot at canteen until 12+ before going in.. as also dun wan to QUARREL with that teacher.. idoit. den teacher teach new de thing mah. cannot absorb liao den weiqi they all at there talk talk talk.. so pissed off loh.. very pek liao still keep talking.. grrr.. thanks to jessie who shouted at them... =X den after that went for next lesson.. actually dun wan go de.. but we say aiya, go loh dun listen lah.. do BPF loh.. den all agree sey.. so happy.. ^^ woah.. hohoho.. den we all inside keep saying, oei dun talk lah, later kanna chase out, shh... if not is aiya, hack care lah.. ask us go den go loh. who cares? lolx.. dun give him a DAMN man.. assh0le.. scold OQ is ur bu xing ah CHAN.. stupid ass.. den yanbin they all was at the class talking den hor, at first nthing de lei, den after that 3 of them kenna asked to go out.. 0mg.. den we all still in class crap.. but he never do anything to us.. humji.. i really kep saying him sia.. dunno why leix.. diaox.. den after he gave us break i dun feel like going for BSA his lesson.. den i decided to ask them if they wanna pom mah? they all say anything loh.. den all come my house.. hha.. shoik.. last time so humji dun dare to pom class now dun give that teacher a damn sia.. muahaha.. Unless Mrs Tay come back.. if not, i dun care liaox.. i got no wrong loh.. okok lah dun say so angry de things lah.. i say something funny okae?

Ok, we walk to bus stop to take bus mah, den hor saw bus 99 lei den i distrub shuyi ask her why dun chase.. den HOR, aijuan ask what bus huh? den i see and say woah 963 kinz ah.. lolx.. den all run liao siao.. from traffic light there.. omg.. den they all say hor hor now shuyi got magix all this.. haha.. so funny.. den in bus crap ar0und loh.. den went to night market buy things to moi house and eat.. after buying come over liaox.. we first eat first and talk.. bully lai bully qu.. den after that do half half de project den we plan to take pic.. aiyox.. so mad loh all of us.. really sia lei.. Coz, we keep asking eachother to take pic together.. den got one is 3 lay down 2 on top.. den hor, me juan and shuyi below, cat and jess uptop.. den after that Jessie so bad row on us.. den juan also.. row on me also.. haha.. so funny.. haha.. den after that 6+ they went off.. send aijuan to bus stop to take bus.. den went to buy ice-cream from mac with jess as she going back my house to watch tv.. haha.. den we both sort the puzzle.. den 8+ she went off.. but i never go bathe.. i was online-ing... chatting around.. den watch tv until 10 den bathe.. had my dinner at 10+ also.. den now is going to sleep soon ba.. but hair wet wet leix.. sob sob... added testimonal for Paul, Joan, Joey, Pearly and many more.. ^^ muackie ppl.. bye bye..

2004-10-05T20:05:00.000+08:00

Monday
Today, at the second Period, i had my EFW test, i can say it's kind of difficult i don't really know how to do.. haix. After that went to have our BSA lesson as Mrs Tay was here. was rather happie seeing her instead of that Mr William Chan.. Miss her pattern when she do it yesterday.. haix.. Mrs Tay is the best teacher to us.. and i dun know why so many ppl dun like her.. maybe she catch u people? haix.. it's what a Dicipline Mistress shouLd do right? what if one day u are a DM? u won't caught people? i grantee u will.. i'm just feeling very what loh.. haix.. en0ugh of such rubbish.. after that weNt for our Lunch. den went to classroom to shag after that.. den during PE, played volleyball.. den after that went home with Shuyi, Catherine and Jessie.. they came over my place.. Jessie was searching for project stuff, catherine and Shuyi was helping me with the puzzle.. as for me? dunno what i doing.. i only know i never really help Jessie.. Sorry.. den find the info liaox watch vcd.. Wo De Xi Yi Nan You, last part touching until i cry.. haix.. den after the show shuyi and cat went off.. jessie stay to watch tv.. den Catherine called and say thay she saw Albert.. grr... but eh, i dun really care lah.. lOlx.. den after that watch tv.. nearly cry again as it's kind of sad loh.. den 8 eat my dinner.. den go bathe.. den 9+ chat on phone with pauL.. den after that 9.48 like that i offline liaox.. i end my monday post now..

Tuesday..
Today ah? went to school took same bus with Tan Suan Piow, den walk to school and went to canteen.. 0mg i saw no one.. espically yanbin they all, but i did not call them lah.. i sms shuyi asking where is she, she told me on the way den i was much more fang xin as i tot she not coming.. den went for assemzbLy den go BPF, crap with teacher den plan not to go to that CHAN lesson.. and know how long we gonna skip? 3 hours.. LoLx.. den everybody On lahx.. x) steady bo.. SERVE that teacher RIGHt...Can't fight with us lah u LOSER..!! den we went to eat breakfast den go library book SR room den kanna chase out by Mr Tan den go library and shag for another 2 hours.. den Jessie come out with an idea of go play volleyball den shuyi and me go loh.. den play for awhile den we go canteen rest liaox.. after that went to classroom to shag and wait for teacher come.. we all take pic all this and play loh.. den all of sudden i felt tired and sleepy. decided to sleep but i did not.. den talk talk.. take exam kind of hard also. haix.. die liaox.. =X den after that went for BSA.. muahahaha... go in late den still never listen to him.. haha.. he also never really teach.. so i also bo chap loh.. den after that went for training and the tian qi is sooooo hot... hot hot hot.. Yawns.. den around 5+ went off.. again took same bus with Mr Tan again.. liew. so 'heng' siaz.. den went to buy Sweet Corn,, den walk back.. reach home, i don't know why my mood like shoot up manx.. coz one of my this relative call and ask for my dad, he's like so freaking idoit loh.. call and keep quiet for 3 second den he hello, lam eng at home? but is in hokkian.. at first i say no den he ok.. second time he called when i was bathing.. i damn pissed liaox.. but heng i was bathing.. in the bathroom i already plan what to say liaox if he call again.. den when i come out he called.. den i tell my father, u dun answer i answer, den my dad say tell him i at home, i say i dun give him face liao i ji tao shoot liao but my dad ask me dun loh. den i answer the phone in a very answer mood.. i talk in a buay song way and say Na ur phone lah.. woah lau, so noisy sia keep calling.. den after that i shouted at my dad asking where he went yesterday coz i call him never on phone.. he say he at RC.. i was like u go RC phone why no on? den he say no ah, got leix.. haix.. i really felt that he's doing something weird lohx. haix. sad case.. den hor, that RELATIVE call again.. i ji tao woah lao, go die lah. chase what chase? want ppl life izzit.. knn.. den i tell my dad lohm i dare to say de loh i dun care if he's my relative or what loh. i dubn give a damn if he say i have no manner or parents never teach loh.. wan slap me come over and do it.. i dun give him a fucking damn to it manx.. stupid... a CHILDISH OLD MAN.. and i even say my dad for why he's doing .. and say that i really dun understand why u everyday also want to go out.. haix.. why why why? how i hope if i die soon.. no need to bother about all this.. haix.. i really felt so sad about it.. and because of this matter i AP Paul, sorry paul.. sincereLy sorry because i dun wan u to think that i'm putting anger on u and i dun wan u to get the wrong idea.. haix.. sorry okae.. *sad and guilty* sorry haix.. i gtg ler loh.. bye bye.. crys^

Wo Yi Zhi Dou Mei Ba Ni Wang Diao.

Wo Hai Hen Xi Huan Ni.

Wo Yi Zhi Dou Mei Fang Qi Ni.

Bu Guan Yi Hou Fa Sheng She Mo Shi Wo Duo Hui Mo Mo De Zhi Chi Ni.

Wo Hui Yong Yuan Zhu Fu Ni He Ni De Ai Ren De, Wo Zhi Dao Wo He Ni Shi Bu Ke Nen De.

Happie 24th Birthday Jason

2004-10-03T20:03:00.000+08:00

Wake up at 9+, go on my com den faster go pom pom liaox.. coz going grandparents house after that.. so go pom loh.. kee ^^ den after that go Jurong West eat.. woah.. so long never go there eat liaox.. damn nice worx... den after that go grandparents house.. my Ah yee and my cousin was there already.. was wanting to sleep.. sigh he sick.. he cough.. zhu zhu must faster recover ok.. coz today he never play much with us.. i never carry HIM.. grrrrrrr... so sad.. haix.. den after that my cousin eileen came. she bought a Volleyball seh.. kee^^ den we went downstair with his brother to play.. hehe.. so fun sia... so long we never play liaox.. today was so FUNnnn... haha.. i can see that they both kinda good together liaox.. and we 3 played volleyball togethre.. so surprise that her ah di also wanna learnt.. around 1.40 we go back coz her mummy going out.. den we after thay also went off.. longbang them to my house downstair.. den they take bus home.. o.O reach home online.. my headache back again.. as if got something block my head.. haix.. den chat with paul, yun and Zhen Hao loh.. watch Ai Guo You Qing Tian den chat on phone what pual.. never talk much as he's sick.. take care k..!

i feel like going to night market and buy things to eat sia. i wan eat crab, ice-cream, corn.. alot of things sia... Hungry* sad sad... oko i end here.. bye bye.

2004-10-02T23:39:00.000+08:00

today? nothing much happen today, whole day at home. chat, listening to songs, fix puzzle but half way i go and distroy it den fix again.. den read comics.. that's how my day ends. haix... suddenly think of him again.. i really enjoyed chatting with him on da phone u know.. but i dun like that way he speaks to his sis or mum.. but i can't control him lah.. argh.. i find that he change liaox.. he ok with her liao den he kind of dun care me liaox.. now he got his phone more WORST.. haix... SAD.. all i wan is he talk to me and care for me.. Sobx... yao ku liaox lah... ji shang xing yi xia..

well, this month got lots of people birthday.. 5 of my cousin on oct and 4 friends in oct too.. die liaox lah.. cousin i must buy for them.. espically eileen and tor xiong kor kor.. I MUST SAVE money and buy liaox..

gtg liaox.. bye bye.. haix.. SAD

2004-10-01T23:06:00.000+08:00

Happie Birthday to Frederick and his brother

grrr, wake up at 7.20am. so as usual went to on my computer den play awhile before bathing.. i went to bathe at 8.15? not sure.. den prepare dao lai about 8.50+ liaox.. reach bus-stop already 9.02 liaox.. i so scare bus go liaox.. but bus come at 9.07 like that.. keke ^^.. i'm lucky.. lolx.. den go school. yesh, as usual jessie was in the bus.. so we walk to school together.. ^^ than went to attent RTO, as i was lazy to go to the locker. i told the teacher that i did not bring my books.. ^^ and somemore i very sad and angry with my handphone.. keep auto off after i on.. i was so pissed.. so i took 3100. and i went off.. eh, 3100 now to be kinda difficult to use sia.. haix.. den in class we all was talking mah.. some of us talk about handphone, some of them talk about project. Yah lah, can say loud abit lah, but to be frank it's our own time right? u gave us time to do revision mah, talk lah.. First he gave us a warning saying dunno how to say lah but i know how to explain he means, if u want to talk leave the class dun interup the rest, at first we quite abit after a few mins we all talk loud again.. den know what he say? Don't fuck around with me.. at first we all just say woah scold bad words lei.. pro all this.. but we all still contiune out talking.. until he keep looking us at, den i ask them if they wants to go out anot.. so all agree.. we walk off, den he ask where we going i say canteen lah, he say do what, i say talk loh.. den he say come back.. den we say come back for what? den he say i'll mark zero den i ask yanbin they all, they say mark mark loh, den i say back to him, mark mark loh.. never mind..! den we went to the bench and call mrs tay, we complain damn lots and keep asking her back.. really feel sad u know.. haix... only OQ knows what we all are thinking.. haix.. den went to canteen, she call and talk again, i really talk until i very dulan and dun feel like contiuning.. but she ask me talk.. haix.. damn sad loh.. Mrs Tay, u are very important to us, in the past when u are with us we treat u as Nothing. BUT now when u are not wib us, we want u back is abit too much, but we realise how important u are to us.. please come back..! haix.. den after that receive my brother de phone call, asking where is his handphone, i told him i am using as my phone spoil, he say wow lau all this loh.. coz he selling mah.. den i shouted at him say how i know u selling, not i wan to take and use is coz my phone spoil den i take, as if i know u selling.. den i shouted at him ah i dunno lah, tmd.. den i hang his phone, den later i call him again asking him what time sell.. den after that i call my dad and complain.. den i realise is my fault den i message my kor kor saying sorry.. haix.. such a useless mei mei he got..! den after that i was alone there thinking and look sad.. haix.. nearly cry.. but i didn't loh.. haix.. den went for last lesson.. EFW, alright lah.. teacher gib us Orea.. coz today is children day. den after that go off, went home to take tape for yun den chat with paul, hear him stream.. 0mg, to be frank his voice.. ........ lolx.. l0ud and clear lah.. dun think wrong.. lolx.. den around 1.30 i went off, took cab over.. den reach liaox no one at home.. i was like o,O call her never answer den call juan, den walk to plaza and saw them den go back again.. den i was typing with yun de accompany, juan, jessie and her brother was doing the puzzle, jiapeng was sleeping like log pig.. lolx den at 3.30 went to meet bridget to take the polo t den after that while i want o walk to mac saw weiqi and zhuo they pei me.. keee ^^ den go her house.. did not do project but we all talk and play UNO.. lolx.. den after that 5.30 yun, juan and qi went off left, jiapeng, zhuo and me at her house.. den we all play com den also take pic.. lolx.. is they take i and zhuo play c0m den around 6.30 we go downstair buy dinner.. buy liao go back loh.. watch tv and eat.. receive mum de phone call asking me to go back early.. so 8 i went off.. keke.. reach home online, watch tv, chat and do puzzle until headache.. grrr.. okok lah.. i stop my typnig liaox.. buai buai..

Happie Children Day

2004-09-30T22:54:00.000+08:00

did not update yesterday, was on the phone was did not update.. was chatting with paul.. haix.. today in school? well, i was nearly late to school again.. well, had my BPF lesson. after that was lunch, so we went to eat. after eating we wanted to go back to class because we are very boring. but the class got people so we go to 109 to sit and wait, at around 2.05 - 2.10 we saw students coming out so we tent to go in the class. so we went in, u know what the teacher say to us? please go out of the class, can't u all see i'm still inside of the class and not leave yet? you people are not allow to be in. so we went out loh.. we attitude her.. we keep shouting faster lah, slow lei, old virgin all this..! even slam the door damn loud manx.. jessie even shout please clean the whiteboard pls. den she jolly well, take her fucking own sweet time u know.. kns... like what sia.. den when our classmate ccome we all shout say cannot go in lah, that teacher dun allow.. den derek bo chap just hack go in but kanna chase out but he put his bag, den jessie also.. but also same kanna chase out.. den BELL ring le lei, she still down there slowly pack her things.. we damn hot liaox.. we shout and say wow lao bell ring liao lah.. kin lah.. den when we she go out we all keep saying wow lao, slow sia.. stupid sia.. den she at outside ask whu ur teacher, den aijuan ji tao say Dorothy Tay, den she oh. den we go in.. keep banging, shouting. was damn dulan with her l0h.. her fucking name is LEE BEE HUA or dunno what shit de.. fuck sia..! kns.. she's in OQ black list..! shit sia.. damn it loh.. but after that lesson was as usual. but i want to say is that BSA gone case for me, i dun even noe what that freaking Mr Chan is teaching.. die for sure. haix.. Mrs Tay please come back!!! we need u..! if not seriously i dunno how to do. grrrrrrr.!!!!!!! stress...! haix.. after that lesson was alright loh.. boring.. the teacher teach hor, aiy0x.. very what loh, teach one unit take 2 hours.. kns. den after school went home, online, chat and play game.. end my day here..

As for today? wake up at 8.15, after wake up on my computer and start to read comic. from 8.20-9. about 40 mins. i finish i book.. i broke my own record..!! keke.. coz normally i read one comic take super long time.. can one day.. grr, den went to bathe and also burnt disc. i dunno why going to finish liao, say cannot.. grr.. wasting my time manx.. and disc.. den went out at 9.55. reach bus stop hengx bus haven come or go.. den took bus, saw jessie. hmm, den saw Joseph. we 3 walk to school together.. went to locker den to classroom. did not bother what the teacher is teaching and more worst he took my diskette.. so i need to redo everything again.. fucked..! i in class reading comics, listening to s0ngs.. den after that went for EFW lesson, do a assignment den go off. went to IMM to have our lunch at Burger King, den after went to Mini Toon to buy sweet, den go TS laser to see vcd.. den we go off, zhuo decided to go Clementi central so we accompanied him.. saw weiqi, gek choo and eunice talk for a while den go off, den saw Ji-saw puzzle, me, jess and yun was stuck there.. but zhuo went to the bookstore.. sorry zhuo zhuo.. den 3 of us buy puzzle at 3 for $15.. gave $6 for the ordering.. lolx.. den after that went to find zhuo, wow liaox.. damn pissed off by the AUNTIE at the store man.. attitude sia.. fucked.. zhuo and me AP them.. kns.. angry sia.. den after that walk back to interchange and saw the yesterday on tv de xiao cao.. school belle.. not handsome.. lolx.. den went to mac help charlene buy fries.. saw mei xuan if i not wrong.. den go back sch, den play v.ball.. grr my hand dunno what happens ia.. like swallon.. haix.. sadx.. today only 13-14 people go training.. haix.. den after that around 6 we went off.. all wan to go back watch tv.. channel 8, 7pm de.. lolx. den paul wanted to chat on phone but i got no mood.. haix.. i felt sad.. from next week onwards.. I MUST SAVE MONEY..!!! because my dad is suffering... grr.. i'm pissed with one of my relative... dun force me.. i may shout at u.. Why can't u think of others..? wan to see us die den u happie? but i can say, U WAIT LONG ALSO NO.. we will TRY to return u the money no matter how poor we are.. and STOP chasing my dad.. he, himself have no money.. if we have we will return.. we NOT a bastard.. we really have no money.. maybe i will online less. just to not let my dad pay so much on bills and other things.. i may even think of selling away my S.H.E things and if can reduce myself on using handphone.. i think my dreams need to be gonex.. i don't have the face to ask my dad for money to buy clothing anymore..! haix.. sad for me.. i wont ask much from him anymore..

i may look cheerful, but inside my heart i'm sad..! i'm already used to keep things from myself.. so don't try to read my mind or even ask me what happen.. u will never know unless, i want to say.. haix...

i gtg le.. bye bye..! saddie..!!! *crying*, hating myself, useless me, love sucks, love hurtz.. life sucks.. Life is always full of sadness..!!!

2004-09-28T22:40:00.000+08:00

0mg, wake up at 6+ manx.. pro sia.. yes, den without bathing i go school liaox.. i was feeling very uneasy because i dont get used to go out without bathing. espically to school. somemore tuesday was a long day for us.. grr.. feel very tired and everything.. feel so stress out loh.. haix.. in class was pretty ok loh. nothing much happen loh.. end my post here.. bye

Happie Birthday to Paul

may all yr wishes come thru..!

2004-09-27T20:06:00.000+08:00

tired tired tired. sleep at 12.30+ yesterday. so today i drag my time of waking up, should be 7 in the end i drag till 8 den wake up, den went to bathe and prepare.. nearly late for school.. grr.. lolx.. ya during the break we were all eating.. Then during the real Lunch i forget where do the rest goes, i only know i was in the class listening to discman and writing revathi de diary.. den around 1 they came in, den talk cock in class, but at 1.30 me, ivis and aijuan went to canteen to buy something eat.. lolx.. after eating go back class.. den go change, go PE department mark attendance den we go off le.. went to orchard with juan to take my S.H.E mooncake.. den we go walk walk.. 0mg i g0t lots of things wanna buy.. alamak.. S.H.E de alot sia.. okok lah i stop here.. i'm veri tired.. night..!

Happie Birthday to Sharon

2004-09-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

sianx ah.. nothing much to blog today, all i know is that i was at my aunt place since 2+ till 7+.. ya, was playing with my cousin.. there's so cute and notti.. lolx.. den after that come back home online chat den play Gb den download songs den chat with danny and sharon.. lolx.. that's all.. nothing much.. bye bye..

2004-09-26T19:43:00.000+08:00

slept at 3+am last night.. lolx.. just to download songs.. hehe... all the whille infront of com screen wtithout doing much things.. diaox.. i remember i chat with yun, paul and no more liaox le.. anyway, forget to say something.. keke.. kinda happie for my ah yee.. she won 4-d yesterday night.. first prize.. 2million... omg.. that's alot u know.. if it was my father.. i have no worries.. i think i can get my laptop ba.. wahahaha... if not is hmm, MP3, vcd, clothing, cds, digital camera.. sound alot but i sure will BUY de.. just too bad it's not my parents... according to what my dad say, if is our car number he will win 6million.. grrrr... why not my father win? haix...

ya i've downloaded Liang Jing Ru_Yu Wei Die, A-Mei_Ye Xu Ming Tian, Jerry_For You, Cai Chun Jia albums.. 0mg... lolx.. btw today whole day at home download sogns and play a few rounds of gunbound only.. nothing much liaox.. haix.. i feel like changing phone.. but no people wanna buy fer me.. dun dare to ask my dad or mum to buy.. haix.. so sad... around noon went to 273 to eat my breakfast cum lunch.. den come back home le.. haix.. nothing much lah.. hao le ba.. i think i end my post for today.. =(

2004-09-24T23:53:00.000+08:00

boring..*

i'm so boring.. hmm today wake up at 8+ in da morning and prepare to go school my normal routine.. tis few days i always take 10 de buy.. as in fifteen mins before school start de bus.. like don't care wil i late mah.. haha, hmm noce again, took same bus with jessie today.. went to school alone looking kind of sad as Revethi also say that. haix.. went to class, play with computer den after that alot of people gone missing.. i was so lonely in the lab as catherine, shuyi, aijuan and ivis + shuming was talking about project whereas i did not join them coz i dun belong to their group.. so i was alone sitting behind, i was thinking to lots and tons to things... i look out at windows and my eyes was red.. haix.. what's happening to me again? grrr..! den soon went to second lesson, i d0n't know what happen to me at the period u know. my whole reaction was like so pissed off and Attitude.. they talk to me i never reply all this and that.. ask me what happen i did not reply.. den today my group duty, i want to say is that, DID anyONE HELP ME? NOPE.. WHERE ARE MY GROUPS MEMBER? let me tell u, they went out of the class..!!!! i was wtf, not even one person helping me? haix.. i was damn sad.. real sad.. haix.. den after lesson went to locker and after that i did not smile, talk and what, i just give a black face and walk to the toilet and then walk out.. whoever call mi i did not reply.. haix.. den revathi came to talk to me asking me what happen i said nothing but she say dun bluff all this.. haix.. sorrie.. den tot of going with them, my mind is like go loh, but in the end i GO HOME..! reach home lei? brother was at living room watching vcd.. mum was searching for her card.. den keep calling me to help, den brother sit down there doing his things.. i was so angry loh.. can't he help? den mum ask mi to write a new paper for her, i ask my brother coz i helping her find, when he heard that the card is found he SHOUTED at me say Zhen ah..! den i know what happen liao.. i say dun tel me u wan to ask mi to write hor, den he say ah..! den i say him, u dunno how to help izzit. tmd.. den my mum say free den write, not i dun wan loh, i just reach home u all keep asking me to do.. i not u all de MAID okae.. why am i always suffering? can't i just be happie once? even if i'm happie also act de.. realli.. i can be happie outside but inside i'm NOT..! gtg bye..

* my S.H.E mooncake is out already.. gonna take it soon.. SHIT.. i got no money.. as i going to buy vcd from pauL's sister.. ghosh..! how how h0w.. i'm dead.. haix.. never mind money will come back very soon, as i will SAVE.. SAVE SAVE SAVE..! forget that i got to take my mooncake.. and some more buy mooncake from ivis.. Die liao lah... haix..

2004-09-23T22:04:00.000+08:00

I'm very FAN ah.. I don't know what to do.. i really don't.. haiz.. why is there so much trouble troubling me? or am I thinking too much? I really don't know. I'm stress, vexed.. I broke into tears, for days.. WHY? I tot everything is okay? but why now seems to have problem again?

Wake up at 8.30 in the morning, and went online, last minute tot of burning disc so that i can listen. So at 9 i went to bathe until 9.20 like that. At 9.30 i still at there download songs.. Pro right? haix.. Some more i start burning disc at 9.30+ like that, and i tot can lah should be can make it by 9.45 but haix.. dunno is suay or what CD got problem so have to re-burnt. well, i tot change another disc would be alright, BUT never will i know that the same problem occurs. i was like diao~ and i hack care it and just go off as i am going to be late if i did not catch the 10am de bus.. So i quickly walk.. Reached bus-stop and in a few minutes time the bus came, in the bus i was reading my comics and did not notice that Jessie was behind. i only know when she alight.. we saw Junzhuo at the Traffic Light and we walk into school together. Hmm, they were in the canteen, waiting for Patricia to finish her food as they don't know that there's a break for us instead of having EFW. So they all ate, hmm never mind they said.. so i also hack care them, den i went to the locker to take yanbin and Jessie books.. Then we went to the computer lab there to wait and we do not know that we are allow to enter the room.. grrr..! so bad sia Derek and Sijun..! So we went in, and Mrs Tay was not here today like what she say maybe she will not be here, so we were given time to do the Student Portal thing, but i did not i was talking and i admit BUT my computer and Huipings com cannot be used so i have no choice i never do and my OWN home computer cannot be used either.. was like WTH loh.. haix.. Yupz was pretty alright in class as we are joking all this.. And u know what? Something make me very the sad.. Refer to the conversation:

Patricia: Annie lent me your phone.
Annie: Orh.
Siewfong: Yanbin got mah, take hers lah.
Patricia: looking very blur at me.
Annie: You take hers loh.

u know how sad am I.? why she say until like that? Or she do hate me again? i'm not sure..! i'm just very shock by what she says..! real SAD u know.. and it's not the first time for this month.. did i offend her? did i? i don't.. i didn't owe u anything okae.. Ok, monday i think i gonna bring what belong to u people and return to u all, i know i keep for very long.. Monday i promise i will RETURN..! i don't fuck care what u all think.. if it's what u all want to treat me i will return back..! And after that we went to the canteen to eat, and u know what? haix. there's problem between Junzhuo and Weiling.. I don't really know what happen.. Haix, he don't want to sit with us when she saw Weiling and the next table was Shuming and Aijuan they all he also don't want to sit, and i was like eh, arbo i change with u loh, he don't want. den i asked Shuming come over and she kao bei alot loh.. knn..! i get pissed off and i go over to Aijuan side loh. ANd Junzhuo still don't want come back..! i felt so sad, helping him finding place and we get attitude and he jolly well don't want to come.. haix.. suan liao loh..! really very sad loh..! lucky got Bridget to release my stress, i told her everything... she console me.. thanks bridget..! without u i think i have no friends other than u and cindy..! thanks alot..! than eat le went to bus Yohgurt, nice..! yummy.. after that sit at canteen and forget time to be at foyer.. until Mrs Teo asked us..! lolx.. den we take attandance le we board the bus, i sit with Junzhuo, was reading comic in the bus, den went to see see the Career Fair, den after that 2+ we went off, took 963 and was reading Comics, and i received a phone call by Bridget, she was in the same bus as me... lol.. still call.. den i entertain her loh.. lolx.. den she came over to the end, but i have to alight.. sorrie..! reach home, online, having a BIG headache..! wanted to rest but did not, send Shuyi songs, talk to Liling, went to bathe and watch Tv. And suddenLy i get very FAN.. i don't know why.. I cried again loh.. haix..! know why?

1) Albert
2) Present
3) Why she keep asking me to buy?
4) My dad

1) Albert.
Why albert? hmm i've been thinking if i never tell him i like him jiu bu shi mei you problem ler loh, but i itchy mouth went to tell him and now he's like ai li bu li.. even thought he's much more better den last time where he keep avoiding me from now got talk i'm more happie, i always wanted to talk to him but there's nothing to talk.. i'm so sad.. i tried to forget about him once and fall for another guy and i did It, end up that guy is like play with me loh.. i don't know is he serious saying all those things to me mah loh.. I really don't know loh, maybe he is just playing with me after knowing i like him and say those things that make me have so big Confident but now..? well, he's now happily with his girlfriend isn't it? good for him..!

2) present.
Why? I actually wanted to buy a present for him after i know that i ffall for him after knowing when is his birthday.. and i already know what to buy already, and i tot that the day come i will buy, but now, i keep thinking of want to buy mah.. because the decision was made before everything gone that way..! i long wanted to buy for him..! but now? everything is like gone and i don't know if i shouLd buy or not, it's not a good idea buying for him when he has a girlfriend right? haix, feel like crying u know..!!!

3) Why she keep asking me to buy and go?
Why? haix, i have this friend knowing i like this guy and know whats happening. And i told her about what he said to me, she said i must go grab the chance, BUT girl, he had a girlfriend, u think i wil be that bad to break them up? and even if i have the abililty to do that they also wont right? u think i am a spoiler? haix. and today i asked her if i still want to buy for him mah, she keep asking me to buy, ask mi to think and think don't regret.. well, regret also no use, even i buy he wont leave his girlfriend and be with me right? even if i go, will he even bother me? u say lei? of coz not. i will only be sitting there looking at how close they are all this only mah.. will make me more sad only, i dun wan to be sad so i choose not to go.! i know it's abit stupid but do u think they care or rather he care? by going i can get what in return? u say lah? i lose trust in her, stop asking me to buy or Go.. if u wan u GO..! haix..

4) my dad.
Why? haix. just now i look at his phone and saw something very wired, why he like never put wallpaper and suddenly so clever know how to put date infront and i was curious and i check his phone i know i have no right to do that, but i really have to do it.. it's like during tuesday i think he receive a phone call at 12mid night and he say he don't know who..! of coz i will supect right? den today i check his photo i saw nothing ok never mind, was very relief.. BUT when i saw the call register things i saw a contact save as KTV, do my dad go there often? i'm not sure, i only know that he's not what i think now..! i've already lose intrested in the family already, just don't let me found out that he is doing anything Funny to us can already, because there was once i pass thru this KTV at bukit Panjang when i was take 176 alone, i saw a couple and quarreling with a small children infront of there so i think that it's the guy who was at the KTV and was being found out by his wife..! haix.. i dun wish to find out anything and dun make me FAN all this can my dad? haix.. i really feel like ending my life so that i can stop thinking u know.. but i can't..! argh.. i still want to study. i don't even have the gard to ask him for money u know? i wanted to buy clothing but i dare not ask both my mum and dad... they will kao pei mi.. frankly speaking if my brother wans i think they will give him..! really. can say i'm jealous but it's true.. some more my brother need sponsor to help him pay the suit for the temple de thing my mum say she will help him and pay.. i was so JEALOUS loh, i agreed.. why can't i get something from them when i requested? only allow when i cried? Am i not important to them? haix.. maybe to them i'm a useless child.. haix.. i think i should finish my typing now..! it's 11.26 my head is damn heavy.. gtg.. BYe..!

*Life is Full of Regret. there's nothing i never regret.. haix.. why?!!!!!!!11 fucked up life with a fucked up mind..!

2004-09-22T21:46:00.000+08:00

i was sleeping so soundLy, had a great sleep yesterday night... maybe because i cried too much ba.. really sleep until very soundly loh.. yawns..! ya wake up on time today, went online, download song.. kee..! den go school..! went for lesson as usual.. haha.. first lesson, weiling, darek and jessie was told to go and find Mrs Teo, so they went.. for very long u know when we go break they all also have not come down, so we took theor bag.. i took weiling bag, as weiqi took jessie bag.. den we went to canteen to eat.. haha.. after eating we went to the locker to keep our books, and u know what? ivis put weilings bag in the locker.. den we went to library to book computer lab. so we book le we go up.. about 11.50 weiling called me asking me whre am i, i told her i'm at outside school eating and she asked me where's her bag, i said i did not take but she say weiqi say i talk so she dun believe me.. not fun de.. lol.. ya den she keep aiming me loh.. even take my locker key and check. i was u go check loh, nothing de mah.. lol.. den after that she came back, hehe she den accompanied jessie go refill water, den ivis and catherine went to locker and put her bag in my locker as we know that she will take our locker key again.. lol.. they all also very clever u know, coz when they all take my water bottle in catherine say Na, i help u refill ur water le.. i was like diao.. lol.. den weiling did not really notice.. den she took our locker key again.. so once again she went up to check, 0mg.. everyone was guessing whos locker she will open first.. haha.. den weiqi and myself guess right, it's mine.. and she get it, so ok loh get it get it loh.. haha, but she never notice her handphone and wallet with us, so we all keep laughing like mad but she never notice. den slowly i don't know how she notice.. lol.. den she keep seaching.. but still cannot den take our locker key again.. but still cannot find.. haha, it's the third time she open my locker but second time their locker.. den she say maybe in her locker but dun have.. lol.. den we faster pass to derek coz mostly she wont ask him.. den when she go find aijuan take her bag go other class.. haha.. she come back never notice.. so we again keep laughing den she notice.. ait0x.. blurrie lei she.. den she cannot find.. keep pestering us.. but not with us.. den she go locker again... lol.. den huoyan and sijun came in, she say is them den we all keep saying how can? they just come in all this, den when jessie say maybe at the other class she go out we lock her outside.. den we inside say wah later she sure say we all inside de people all also got supect.. haha.. so funny.. den ya still cannot find and we went for our next lesson which is mrs tay de.. she keep on sayin where is my bag, keep asking.. den she ask huoyan to put her bags up and let her see, den she never check, until she ask for sijun bag, she take and check got.. den she found it. ^^ lol.. den after that during break. she keep again, she never notice.. and it's at derek l0cker n0w.. den she keep looking here and there.. until i dunno how she manage to take ack i think is she go locker with derek.. haha... den she take the bag until very tight sia.. keke.. den in lab.. she keep looking for handphone and wallet.. and keep asking me u know.. so stress already, coz mrs tay loh, use my diskette and we forget that database do le cannot undo de.. so sad and FAN liao she keep asking me.. sob.. den ya ivis got this idea of asking the person who take the phone to sms ayu phone saying haha, ur phone is with me.. den ayu show to weiling and we all laugh.. but in the end she found her phone.. den i say aiya, phone can sms say it's there, but wallet cannot.. den she say by 4.15 i dun get my phone i will get pissed off.. lol.. we all dun care still distrub.. lol.. den ya ayu ask me go over and let me read a letter she gonna write for a guy, i read my eye so red loh, nearly drop tears.. it's very touching loh.. hai.. den last min we all tell weiling her wallet at where.. lol.. and we all keep lauging.. anyway, today really a FUN day loh.. i enjoy alot manz.. hope weiling not angry.. anyway weiling sorry no present..!!!

Happie 17th Birthday to You, Weiling *muackie*

2004-09-21T18:29:00.000+08:00

can't sleep last night.. hai.. don't know why.. and somemore talking to my mummy... we talk about my brother ex-stead... i now also don't know want to listen to mum or serene say de things.. i dunno what my mum say(my brother told her) is true or serene is true.. well, i did not want to care much lah.. cry also cry before liao what past is past.. den talk about derek, say what no body at home i dare to ask him come up, i just say to her he's my friend not what lah.. he wont do anything de lah.. aiy0x.. den tell her i buy mooncake from ivis.. den she sleep le.. but i was there turning here and there like what sia.. totally can't sleep loh, turn here cann0t turn there cannot... dunno wan to turn wher sia.. grrr...! so sian loh.. hai..

morning wake up at 5.45 went to on computer and play ahile until 6.20 like that go bathe.. den go out.. was kinda in a rush loh.. wanted to take all S.H.E cds but i got no time.. sob.. lol.. den went to take bus, it's very stupid loh.. have to walk one big round.. stupid.. yesh, i tot i will e late u know.. but hehe.. i wasn't.. i manage to take 963 at 7.10+ and reach sch at 7.30.. early man.. yup, was listenin to them, laughing with them all this loh.. did not talk much lah.. i only know there's like a line inbetween us... well, i really dunno what to say le lah.. dun wish to say more.. hai.. den miss ho never come.. and was free for 1 hour.. in class do nothing loh.. den go for meeting.. hai.. i see their pattern i gek sim sia.. hai.. i have no right to say them anyway, they are they, i am i... hai... zao zhi dao i say i dun wanna go sia.. regret u know? hai.. sian ah.. den hmm during our lunch we were out 30 mins earlier.. after eating we went to classroom, guess what? we all was singing sia.. lol.. lame wor.. sing for 1 hour.. keke.. den after that went for lesson... after that 2 we went off.. went to the place and so cute all those kids.. den go up listen to what the lady say den start to pack.. hmm thanks to mrs teo who accompanied us all the while and help us.. so good of her and she even drive us back... kee ^^ she's so good.. den go back school, was told training was cancled.. den went to PE department.. den go off.. was raining and was caught in the rain and was having a headache.. hai.. come back home online liao.. den ask dad buy food.. den he went out.. den my mum come back.. hai.. i very sad loh.. i dunno whats happening lah.. i kanna scolding.. yes, i know i;m wrong to talk back but i really very buay ta han le.. i'm having a headache and i'm so tired she still nag. of coz i talk back lah.. hai.. den i watch tv.. watch the channel 8 de show.. i cried.. and typing this blog i keep crying.. hai.. i'm stress and tired already... hope i can die eariler.. no need care.. no need bother.. hope i got no heart..!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sucks ah....!!!!!!!!!!!!111

2004-09-20T22:06:00.000+08:00

hai, wake up LATE today, suppose to wake up at 7am but i hor, 8.30 den wake up.. pro right? my alarm never ring more worst.. know why? i set 7PM.. grr..! so i faster go wash up den pack bad den rush out le.. manage to reach school in time.. heng ah.. keke.. ^^ yes, go school i'm kind of sad loh, just feel like crying.. did i do anything wrong? why must they treat me like that? hai* suan liao.. i dun wanna care much, all i care now is my studies.. i hope i can go higher now.. nothing can stop me studying NOW.. i need concentration.. hopefully can ba.. hai.. sad sad sad.. zai mo ban.. sob. den after that okok loh.. i only know i very happy during last period.. why? coz hor.. hahahah no need re-do 2.4 and other thing.. so happie lei.. kee.. den after school actually wanna pei juan stay back and wait for her dear dear de.. BUT den tot of asking her come my house de.. but den she keep asking me stay but i dun wan so we go jurong point instead.. hee went there walk walk, talk talk.. and wait.. but i did not wait for him to reach i go off le.. coz i dun wanna stay until so late.. sorry* at bus-stop saw kalai.. kind of miss him.. anyway, he's one of my sister ex-stead.. hai, even though he that time scolded me, but i dun mind loh.. i know he's angry and i'm angry after he scolded me.. but he and my sister(cindy) treat me damn good, during the chalet i lost my money($70), they lent it to me.. no need return.. i'm so touch loh.. i keep asking them to keep they dun wan, say if u wan return dun tok to me.. and when he's sad or what he will tell me.. always chat with him on phone when cindy was at china that time.. hai. in bus i feel so sad after seeing him... lucky he never dao me.. he saw me he shock i know.. but he did replied to me.. i'm happie. hope he take care of himself and teasure what he have in future..! sigh* den after that reach home, re-do project, help do mrs tay ask mi do de CIP thing.. finally free le.. kee ^^ I'm happie... Well, i'm FAN again.. wil my dad give mi money to buy clothing? argh... skirt, jeans.. will i get to buy u all back home? hope so.. ^^ sob..

2004-09-19T23:52:00.000+08:00

woah, one week past le.. tomorrow going back school again.. sigh* that's fast manz.. grrr...!!!

Happie Birthday to LiLing
hmm, well i'm not very sure if it's her birthday today, i see her name in one of my friend blog.. lolx.. anyway, if it's real happy birthday to u, hope u have enjoy urself today ah.. take care.. =)

Hmm, i dream of something very scary manz... i dream of me getting married.. and the story is that there's this uncle son who wans to get married, he can't find a girl.. so he went around asking who willing to married him.. and well that's my dad friends son so my dad came home and ask.. there's lots of people there while my dad ask, know what no one replied.. BUT me say I want.. den after that i dream that i dun wan to married him because i dunno him, and dunno what thing.. so funnie loh. den i dream that while preparing i cried lots as i dun wan de.. but bo bian.. den there's this basket in front of me and one person(forget who it seems to be my brother) and inside the basket contain clothes i think and i saw SNAKE.. i was like screaming like hell loh.. den i think the dream not finish.. and one more part i dream of is S.H.E, this is the second or third time i dream of S.H.E le.. kee.. ya i dream that they were at my h0use(or someone else h0use) i not very sure.. den they were playing game, someone tod me S.H.E was here, i rush there.. and only 3 of them was there i was sooooooo happie.. i was sad also because i say wei she mo ni men lai mei you gen wo shou, meaning why u all come never tell me.. and i like mad.. keep saying and feel so sad.. i even say aiya, i buy ur fingurine but never let u sign all this.. got many things lei i go home take.. den that's the end of the dream.. last part is even more worst.. i tot i was at the toilet u know... i was wanting to spilt my saliver.. end up i spilt at my bed.. lame sia.. today dream 2 part.. so lame dream manz.. hha

wake up at 11 in the morning, had my breakfast before Huiping come.. I was watching tv and chatting with weiqi and paul.. and sms bridget ask her how to save my project.. yes, it's done and i know how to save in cd rom le.. yea.. thanks alot get.. hee.. ^^ yea den around 12 huiping reach so i let her use com i went to bathe.. bathe come out watch tv.. den around 2 she went off.. i went to change as i going to my grandparents house.. Yes, i saw my darling cousin.. soooooo cute miss him soooooo much... kee ^^ muack him... carried him alot of times sia.. lol.. and y grandma today cook Lei Cha.. i like it alot man it's so nice.. it's those hokka de tranditional food... Yummy man.. drool sia.. and Po Pian.. my cousin and I like it alot man.. so nice loh.. omg.. i'm so hungry u know.. lol.. ya den around 4+ went back, watch tv and online chat.. den do nothing buy watch tv. so boring.. grrr.... den around 8 derek came over my place to do project, and than we both realise that his project i go and delete 2 pages.. so he took my project and edit.. haha... ya 11.45pm den he go off... that's late man.. anyway, i'm sad loh.. by siewfong de message.. coz she ask mi help her edit her project mah.. den i reply her i'll try.. den she reply, it's ok, never mind if u dun wan do de.. just remember to bring tomorrow can le..! i was damn sad loh, as if i must HELP her like that loh.. i never OWE U okae.. u need me u come ask mi help u.. think what? i ur'll de maid ah? u all enjoy urself lah.. den ask mi lah.. cb lah.. damn pissed off loh.. whatever lah.. i dunno what to say le lah.. haiz.. if that's the case i think i give up loh.. KNS... grrrr..! ok lah gtg le.. tomorrow 7 have to wake up le.. night..

*next week de Zhong Yi Da Ge Da got S.H.E must watch and support..!

2004-09-18T20:58:00.000+08:00

well wake up at 9+ in the morning BUT before that my stupid brother called me and ask me to open the door for him.. den after that i came and on my com, at first i tot of going down to help my mum so i went to wash up.. but after washing up i went back to online abit den i went to sleep le.. coz i very tired.. den wake up at 9+.. after that i was doing nothing but watchin tv.. and also typing my blog.. i type all out le.. from last sunday to Today..and i gonna contiune my blogging..! kee.. den after that around 3+ help my mum with the things my brother wan.. 60 packet of FOOD to be pack and by 6.30 he wan it.. diao.. yes and u know what? last min at 4 my brother call and tell my mum that 5.30 he need it liao.. den my mum faster rush back home to cook.. yes, i was there helping but i did not help much all i know was i was frying the fish cake and den help pack food.. at 5+ my brother came back.. he's like never rush us.. until my mum say not enough.. and okok nothing happen.. until my mum ask my brother go take the food.. but he ask me go.. i was so angry loh, but i did not mention anything BUT my mum say u later go mah.. u going down.. den STUPID brother shouted at us... den i was very angry liao i shout him back.. i say u dun think ur friends here i dun dare to shouted at u hor.. he stare at me.. but i dun give him a damn.. so i go coffee shop and help him take.. den he ask me wait at downstair.. den i sit at the stone chair mah.. den this gugu come down and say why u wait here not there.. i was like how i know u coming down from there.. den i shouted at hime.. i hack care liao.. so dulan with him.. i hate the way he treat us.. simply sucks.. hate it lots.. yes, chatting with geraldine at the moment.. gtg le.. buai.. sigh*

2004-09-18T11:22:00.000+08:00

1 weekkk neverrrr blogggg siaaa.... t0dayyy typeee allll 0utttt.... keeee.... ^^

Sunday 12 September 2004

was suppose to wake up at 4.30am in the morning but i wake up at 5.30 by the call of shuyi, luckily i manage to hear the handphone ringing tone, if not i think i will still be sleeping like pig until 7+ to 8+.. heng ah.. after receiving the phone call i faster bathe and prepare to go out, lucky got my father bring me to Jur0ng MRT station. When i reach Shuyi was there already.. phew* so sorry i was kind of late..! bleah.. den receive message from aijuan saying that she maybe will be late i think.. don't really remember le ba. Ya den we meet her at the MRT inside.. in the bus keep receiving messages and phone call.. grrr... hopefully my bill not high ah if not i die sia.. haha.. den reach there and only Patricia was there. as we are too hungry we went to the Cheers to buy something... BUT guess what? theres nothing for us to buy sia.. KNS.. so i buy sweet instead.. grr... was so hungry u know.. yupz. den they came.. so after going to the toilet all this and that we procceed to the place we need to be.. grrr... we have to wait for attendance taking and even have to wait for all those who went to Big Walk to be back den we got things to do.. so sian.. everyone was so sleepy and tired u know.. hai.. ya, and HUNGRY.. lucky we were given breakfast.. after eating we all was sitting down there rotting... den after that we were told to go to the entrance to welcome people who are back from the big walk. haha.. all of us were like stupid standing there hitting the thing and blowing the whilstle.. very diaoz loh.. o.O''' haha.. den after that we went to sit sit and talk talk.. and after that we still have task to do, have to welcome 3 guest of hornor(wrong spelling).. was standing at the hot sun like crazy people man.. grr.. so stupid u know.. den after that we went back to sit and rest.. at about 10+ our president arrive.. we have to stand at the hot sun for about 10mins just to wait for him to come.. woah.. u know what? the weather was like so hot and all of our face was red..! (^-.-^). den after that we were told to station at the don't know what fire de thing.. as president wil be going over there to play the game.. haha.. know what? jessie was beside him man.. muahahaha... den after that we tot we are so call free le... BUT we are told to stand at a place and follow president, but we follow till half way we walk away.. so we went to buy drinks as we all are very thirsty and hot.. we sit at one corner enjoying out drink and we make a new friend.. we hve her friendster.. kee.. ^^ shes so cute and pretty.. kee.. ^^ so we went to play play awhile... and soon after that when we are resting we were once again told to go over the redempeetion point to not allow those auntie to Jump queue.. 0mg.. and also so hot there man.. but soon after we was told to gather together to cheer for those who won. haha.. we are so lame, espically jessie sia.. keep shouting Bukit Panjang if not is ITE clementi is we all shout. so funny. den after that we are given Lunch to eat.. eat liao we all go off, at first tot of going home as i'm very tired.. den jessie and shuyi feel like going out.. so at first tot of going don't know where de.. but when we are at MRT i asked if they want to come over my place ma.. thet agreed.. so we went to west mall de Shop and Save.. to buy drinks and maggie mee.. and u know what? WOW west mall is the 'best of the best' place to buy things u know.. coz hor can find nothing.. KNS.. so lousy... argh...~!~!~!~!.. hahah. after that buy le come over my place... first we asked jessie to fried Fries.. and we boil water to cook our congee.. kinda nice ehs.. den after that we all was lying on the bed watching super sunday. watch watch watch until half way both of them felt asleep.. sleep until 5+ ba i guess. haha.. so lame.. both felt asleep.. ya around 6+ they went off.. after that my day is online, watch President Star Charity and half way thru i sleep.. coz i'm just too tired le..

Monday 13 September 2004

wake up at 8+ and went online till cindy sms me.. meet her at 11.30.. and we went to school with jerrica, went to canteen and grab something to eat.. argh..! sch change indeed alot sia.. so shitty.. dun like the new enviouroment.. but i miss my old school days... i can say lots of things about my sec school instead of ite.. hai.. miss Secondary school life alot... feel like crying when i go back u know.. change so much... i miss the teachers, miss the time we all had and where i know all my sister.. but now? hai.. things change le.. and i'm also kind of happy with my life now.. even though it hurtz me alot but i dont care.. i have to go on my life with or without him, or with or without the friends beside me... all i need to care now is my studies.. i wanna go higer nitec and POLY.. i'm tryin my best to study as hard as i can be.. i don't want to make myself down and those who encourage me.. so what if i waste time, as long as now i am being able to think thru i dun care... but what i scare now is that if i go poly will my parents have the money to support me.? it's expensive.. hai.. thats the thing i'm worried off... okok lah.. i stop all this and go back to my day.. after eating and chatting we went to the staff room to find teachers but unfortunally can't really find because they are having lesson, but we did talk to Mrs Ho, Miss Phang, Miss Ang and Mr Ng.. den after that went to search for cindy sister.. but she was having oral.. we did not wait for her so we went to plaza.. and after tat siewfong come, we went to take neo-print le she went off, we all walk together to interchange and we took some pic using cindy HP.. hmm not bad.. and u know what? my tongue bleed u know.. so many blood.. yucks.. yes, den siewfong went to find ah ping as me and cindy went to Jurong Point.. went to eat Seoul Garden.. woah. as i'm typing i feel like eating NOW.. Eee ya...~!~!~!~ hungry liao.. bleah.. den after that eat ler wanted to go back but cindy meet her friends.. well, that guy ivan was testing my patient.. keep distrubing me.. knn.. i was so angry but i REN.. dun wanna make cindy being so wei nan.. i keep quiet.. den after that went home, went over to cindy place as i promise her mum.. and i understand that they are moving house, moving to her ah gong place.. hai.. i will miss her house.. as i also go up when i'm free if not is when she's sick i will go up and find her.. hai.. cindy no matter what happen, cheer up okae.. u have me as a sister to be beside u.. now i dun care much all i care is both our friendship.. cheers.. Forever friends + Sister.. den around 10.30 i too cab home.. reach home online den went to sleep.. hee.. ^^

Tuesday 14 September 2004

Went Orchard to meet my cousin.. well both of us was late.. and i went to Far EaSt to wait for her... i was walking like alone.. hmm.. went to ask for the pricing for digital camera.. so expensive sia.. so cannot buy i think only can see instead of buy.. anyway buy also no use.. hai. sad sad sad... and my bank.. no money liao.. damn shit.. left with the poor little 80+.. i gonna be dead.. i really need to save money.. and i got lots of things to buy.. wt.. i wan to buy skirt, shirt, jeans, shoe, bag, handphone, s.h.e stuff.. and lots more. Eeeee... so sian de neh.. sad loh.. hai.. ya den shop shop and tired le, went to the uncle shop.. sit and talk.. den after that biao jie call me.. ask mi go find her.. so we went to eat.. keke.. while eating her bf bully her.. say sammi de concert make her jealous.. so funny.. den talk about s.h.e shoot her back wor.. keke.. so bad hor.. keke.. who ask her fb also like s.h.e.. haha.. den eat le we went to find her friend coz she need to return money to them.. den after that we went to kbox.. woo lala.. if my cousin notice hor, u know what we do the first thing we start to sing.. choose Jay de song.. haha.. den slowly search for songs that we all wanna sing.. den lastly will be what u know? Sammi de songs.. always like that.. go 3 times 3 times also like that.. so funny sia.. haha.. after singing we went to eat.. nice nice.. den after that we go home.. den come back online loh.. haha.. end my day here..

Wednesday 15 September 2004

Wake up at 8+ because meeting them 10+.. went to meet catherine and take 963 den went plaza to buy something and wait for jessie.. well, so sian u know.. so early with no shop open.. sian.. den after that at around 11 we start off to orchard.. took bus and den reach le no one was there.. and i'm sorry to say that i forget to wait for Weiqi at Hereen and i went straight to Ceneleisure and she abit angry i can see.. hai.. can't stand her attitude u know.. den after that we went to new OG.. start our part of project le.. den after that there's a small conflict.. hai.. it's all my fault lah.. but anyway, i dun give it a damn to it.. kns.. den after that around 3+ we all went apart.. i and catherine went to far east instead of going home.. we walk all the walk to Far East and had a scroll.. den after that i ask catherine to accompany me to the fifth floor.. i bought S.H.E de moon cake and a booklet.. cost me a boom.. but hai.. i still buy.. sad wor.. den S.H.E concert ticket cost 150 if wanna buy.. so i think ot going le ba.. sad to say that loh.. hai.. but never mind lah.. abit expensive and waste money right? =X hehehee.. den ask my father go plaza fetch me go back.. den went to my ah ma house.. den my cousin need to do projecty and also her brother is having tution so i ask her come over my place to do.. and i brough her home and she do until 12+ after she went back home den i online loh.. nothing really happen lah.. all i know that there's some conflict.. sorry ehs...

Thursday 16 September 2004

actually was wanting to meet Weiling and Shuyi but i think there's nothing to talk about the project so i cancle the meeting.. den after that i receive phone call asking if wanna meet to go west mall to la kopi.. hmm so i went loh.. coz nothing to do.. yes went to weiling house den wait for her to get ready.. haha. and her dad was so funny.. den after that we went to west mall.. hai.. should not have go and find shuming they all.. why? wow liao.. so pissed 0ff by what she did loh.. when she saw me, she saw me liao she take the book and cover.. was liike wtf loh.. so angry and i walk off.. anyway, sorry wweiling if i AP u.. i am just too angry.. hai.. den went to coffee bean.. my tears nearly come down.. but i REN.. argh..! sucks.. den after that went walk walk while waiting for jessie.. we went to popular.. hmm suddenLy hor, i wan feel like buying story book sia.. siao.. den after jessie came we went to MOS burger.. hm yummy.. after eating we went to coffee bean.. meet shuyi there.. den we go walk walk.. den about 5+ going to 6 we all go back.. hmm i really enjoy myself today yea..! even is just at west mall.. hee.. den come back home online watch tv, den around 8+ derek came over my place to do project.. haha.. so lame loh my mum.. she ask mi why never on air-con of coz never lah.. 1 guy and 1 girl at home i scare lter she misunderstand so i never on ma.. coz on air-con need to close door right.. ah.. lolx.. think too much liao.. lolx.. ya around 11.30 derek den go off.. den i around 12+ go sleep.. that's how i spent my thursday..

Friday 17 September 2004

Spent my whole day at home doing project.. haha.. i manage to finish lei.. keke.. so happy.. and also i whole day chatting with Paul loh.. around noon i went to buy lunch and while walking i saw those little kids playing.. was so cute.. kee.. ya.. den like that loh.. at 11+pm i went to sleep le.. nothing much happen sia.. sianz...

*Sorry Paul i cannot go to ur b`dae BBQ.. anyway hope u enjoy.. take care.. bye..

2004-09-11T22:46:00.000+08:00

..Happy 7th Birthday to Ming Xuan my dearest cousin..

haha.. i actually dunno it's her birthday today only when i went over to my ah ma house den i know.. ^^ so long never play with her and joke with her le.. today ah ling and me played with her.. haha.. she's so cute loh.. muackkie... Study Hard Okae.. =)

2004-09-11T14:58:00.000+08:00

woah nearly 4 days never update liao..being too lazy to post.. and also BUSy.. last week really very busy loh.. got common test and commencement day.. so busy loh.. never go training also.. haha.. yea wednesday they all come over my place to play majong.. den thursday stay in school to help out in retail studio until 5.. den friday was at the retail studio helping out to put up a show.. and we did it successfuLly.. woot.. so happy yea...! during the role play, my hand was like shaking like hell.. haha.. but its over now..!!! now is enjoy my holiday... BUT u think can meh? got 2-3 project to do u know..! kns... so bad loh.. bleah.. okok lah, i put my post as short as possible.. and u know what? Today hor, 9+ got ppl come my h0use liao... now i very tired.. i did not go over my aunt place as i am too lazy and tired le.. later have to start on project stuff le.. cannot wait le.. and got to record show.. sob..

2004-09-07T22:22:00.000+08:00

haiz, i dun wanna blog so much le.. it's like no one is posting and mi just simply so free blogging.. hai.. argh.. i very scare for my EXAM tomorrow.. BPF.. if i fail i sure CRY de.. the subject that i care alot.. i dun wan to FAIL BPF... argh..! now i feel like crying loh.. haiz.. And thanks Yanbin and Ruiyun.. Yanbin because she help mi go repair handphone and waited for 1 hour.. thanks alot.. den yun is coz she lent me her phone.. really thanks to u both..

*STRESS OF TOMORROW EXAM AH.. but after tomorrow i can relax abit le.. kee ^^

2004-09-06T22:07:00.000+08:00

yo yo.. hehe.. wake up LATE today.. actually i have to wake up at 6.30 but end up i wake up at 7.30. And today got early lesson.. i was like SHIT late liao.. so i quickly went to bathe den faster call father fetch me go school, luckily he got bring me sia, if not i sure late till siao wor.. reach school saw them at the Co-op there waiting for me, and my face was like AP like that.. coz i not enough sleep. sorry i didn't mean to give u all this face but i too sleepy le.. Dui Bu Qi, den we went to classroom loh.. anyway, why everything sure got ppl sms mi ask me what time, when all this de? aiy0z.. sometime sleeping den got ppl sms mi, if i angry i wont reply.. Opps or i very pek chak den i sure wont reply.. hai, sorry to those i got like that treat u wor.. =X -.-!!! sometimes is i dunno den reply liao waste message lei.. keke.. okok lah, i try to reply all messages.. Dui Bu Qi... den attend BPF, hais okok loh.. i think i about to die for this subject le.. real hard k.. sigh*.. den after that went for EFW, den take test den lesson loh.. hmm shit loh my marks, all so LOW can score very high marks but i dunno careless or what sia... ARGH..!!! damn lousy loh...!!! must really STUDY HARD le.. now i feel like going on for my studies, after so many encourages from my relative. But i think i'm so far behind loh, what can i do? hais.. Can i do it? yesh, after school went home before we went over to Jessie house.. Online den go prepare loh, nearly quarrel with mummy coz going to rain i still go out.. hai.* sorry mummy.. den went to her house, the moment i see the big brother hair i was like aiyoz why so SHORT? botak..? 0mg.. den we play awhile, watch tv do a few question den go back play le.. Jessie cook dunno how to spell but is call Spaggati(wrong spelling i can COMFIRM) hehe... quite nice wor.. den wake tv and play game again.. was like diao right? hehe... den around 9 weiling mum came she fetch me home thanks auntie..! okok i shall end my post here..

*Thursday they coming my house to have dry swimming, hope really can make it dun put me aeroplane wor.. i maybe will prepare something for u all or u all buy URSELF.. =X hahahahah..

2004-09-05T21:12:00.000+08:00

Never Update for Yesterday. So i Doing it Now.. kee

4 September 2004(Saturday)
Went out with Yanbin at 12+. Went over to Orchard and headed to Far East Plaza, went to buy drinks den went to walk walk, walk until 2+ like that we wanted to go over Bugis to find them(Joan and Joey) but end up they never go.. hai, izzit i go u both dun go? was like at first i tot ok de.? but why now never go? I just felt sad loh.. Than Yanbin and I den decided to watch ourself.. So we took MRT to Plaza Singapura there de station and went to buy Ticket, buy le den go Mos Burger and talk talk and drink water. At the moment, Yanbin and Nichloas abit quarrel le. I don'y know how to say loh.. Than he rush down to PS to look for yanbin, and can't get ticket so i gave him mine ticket instead.. And after he pass me money i went off, frankly speaking is abit sad lah, but okok loh. i slowly walk to the bus-stop and waited for bus. In the bus i sleep like pig, i am really very tired as i sleep at 11+ den wake up at 9+ i also not sure. Then reach home online until 7+ actually wanted to sleep de but i did not scare later can't wake up to attend the wake. Ya, soon my dad came back and at 7+ we went off, fetch my mum at coffee shop den we headed there, den sit sit den talk talk den eat den around 10+ den go off, go till half way my cousin eileen call ask if can go out mar with qing wen kor kor and vivien jie jie. Yes, my mum allow so i went home and bathe and waited for them, they reach at around 11+ going to 12. So i went down and we than headed to Vivien Jie jie de house and she go back and take clothes den 4 of us in the car talking.. Anyway, Eileen tell them about her bf le.. keke.. den in the car ask this and that.. so funny sia.. hahahhaha.. Yes, maybe we got chalet.. during Christmas that period.. Maybe only, not comfirm. Yes den after jie jie come down we went to Mount Faber at first we want to get down from the car but too many car was there so we just drive past.. haha.. inside car keep laughing all this.. cannot ta han loh.. haha.. den we headed to Changi Village, feive pass Air-port. hehe.. woah the journey was about 1+ hour.. buay ta han.. den reach le saw a few ah gua.. lol.. we all keep pestering kor kor to tok to them but kor kor say dun wan coz the voice very Chu.. haha.. den never so we went to eat Nasi Lemak, eat liao den kor kor bring us walk 1 round.. than go back to his car den we go 2 rounds de car-park, got 1 look super fierce sia... den the first round we drive pass got 1 super cute loh.. we all keep saying sia.. hehe.. den kor kor bring us to the place where they will go de.. den he drive us pass Old Changi Hospital as benjamin requested.. den after that he ask where we wanna go we have no idea den jie jie say drive to west coast there den go back.. hehe.. by the time already 2+ le.. but my kor kor still ask wher we wanna go.. den coz we have to wake up early Today he drive us back, he bring me up den after that he go off, i went to play com awhile den go sleep le..

*i saw yongkiat, the guy i last time like de. but he gort gf.. keke.. never see him b4 de neh den saw him at PS.. ^^

5 September 2004
Woah super tired but i still manage to wake up at 7+ sia.. Tired tired tired.. argh..!~!!~ yes, wake up le go pom den go out le.. went to 265 and eat den go Pandan Garden to fetch my ah gong and ah ma. and we den headed to Teck Whye there. My ah yee wasn't there yet dem wait loh.. hehe yes they came den forget what we did liao. was there from 9+ - 12+ den start. and we left the place at around 1. we walk from the place to near the Muslim temple there.. den took bus to Mandai Temple(don't know how to spell) den after that around 2+ we went back le.. at there wait until going to 3+ liao den we go off.. send my grandparents home and we headed home.. i was super tired loh, my parents still go coffee shop talk.. i get very pek chek and the face like got ppl make mi like that, yes den went home at 4 like that den wake awhile de tv and chat abit den i felt asleep liao.. from 5-8+. luckily jessie call mi if not i think i still sleeping sia.. okok lah.. i go orh orh le.. very the tired loh..

Happy 17 Birthday Cindy

2004-09-03T23:21:00.000+08:00

Wake up at 7 but actually my alarm clock is set at 6am. Best right? lol.. ya i was late to school because i was stuck in the toilet for some business.. haha.. Reach school at 8.45 like that.. den take test den go retail studio.. today whole day 3 period never even study was at the studio doing the stuff that was being told to do.. what sia.. But Mrs Tay treat us Yoghurt.. She treat 7 people plus herself.. altogether got 8 cups.. the uncle also got earn lah.. lol.. den after that went off actually wanna go back and sleep as night have to go to my Dua Pek de funeral.. But i still went out, went to orchard with Shuyi and Jessie loh.. Took 106 and sleep until very nice and dun wish to wake up loh.. so extermly tired.. went to Plaza Singapura and we had our lunch there. are KFC den went walk walk, went to take neo-print and after that we went off, as i was so tired and got to go back early as at night have to go to the funeral.. went home nothing to do online also nothing to do, so i went to bathe den wait for my parents to come back.. they went to visit my ah ma sia, never ask mi along.. heard that my ah ma was undergoing the operation but if i not wrong is half way never do.. coz her blood perssure too high.. hai.. i also not sure loh.. think tomorrow she will be back le ba.. yesh, tomorrow going 0ut with them.. but dunno got watch movie anot if no den i think i go off loh.. okok i go off le.. i'm super tired, this few days kinda late sleep.. nitez

2004-09-02T23:00:00.000+08:00

hai. just settled down at this time only.. reach home at 10.40 like that. Kind of tired.. Today went to school walk till going to reach school heavy rain. Then i bo bian kanna caught in the rain loh.. but of coz i use run loh.. den reach sch went to look for them den went to locker to take our books and went to our first Lesson BSA. At first, mrs tay wanted to go through RTO but most of us did not bring the note so never.. den she go thru the mock test paper. den went to have EFW well, have another mock test.. hai.. and den my friends was like take my phone anda ct nothing is happening.. well, i can say i'm angry plus sad loh.. yes, u can take my phone and hide but when i wan it pls take it back to me.. and it's like what if it's lost? and it's in vibration mode? who will know? and hai, i really get very sad and angry loh.. u people can say i am XIAO QI i dun mind, i really don't wish to know what u people think loh. If u hate me just say it, dun like me just say it. dun act if u are good with me but actually is not..! hai.. den after school went to eat and den went to retail studio to help out.. took pic there and was rather fun i can say.. i was like can be with them taking photos all this.. i really apprecticate the time we had.. i'm so happy.. in the studio playing and fooling around.. den went to buy Yoghurt... go retail studio eat.. yummy..! den after 4 to 5+ was being dismissed... so i went to volleyball training awhile, was playing with shuyi and jessie loh.. den after that went to canteen to talk talk den also wait for father to come and fetch me coz i wanna go visit my ah ma.. at around 6+ he came, with my small ancle and small aunt.. was talking in the car where i was listening.. hai, i dun understand why.. my mum LOVES to say bad things about my dad, keep saying he not good all this.. u know when i hear this i got abit sian loh.. and pissed.. must she let everyone know that my dad always go out and what? must u? it's like not giving face.. and also my dad, really dunno why he loves to get scolding den he HAPPY.. hai.. always have to suffer with him.. Why can't i have a real peaceful family? why can't? My family members and relative are all like that.. i really dun understand WHY u know.. maybe this is adult problem, i should not bother but hai.. hear liao also sad imagine they are saying ur dad loh.. hai.. anyway, my ah ma not going to have a operation coz they say it's like 50%, 50% so she also dun wan to have.. and theres some discussion going on amoung them.. today my Big uncle, his wife and daugher, My father, My mother and me, My Xiao Uncle and Wife, My Big Aunt and husband and xiao aunt family came.. and aiya,, dunno lah.. so sian.. hai, can't also everything leave it to either my parents or my small uncle family to take care of my ah ma right? all must take part right, but i dunno why loh Big son all this like what loh bo chap lo.. just like a piece of SHIT standing infront of me loh. hai.. Shitty u..!!! den after i went to hospital actually wanted to go home one because it's like around 9+ le.. but end up at my grandfather(mum father) de brother de funeral.. yesh, i went there and my cousin(eileen, benjamin, Tor Xiong and Vivian jie was there) plus my ah yee and jiu jiu.. plus my grandparents. yesh the adult was talking amoung themself where my cousin and i was talking amoung ourself. talk about chalet and dunno what thing.. we was like keep laughing.. den we talk till half way hor, hear footstep and never really care den saw a ladyy and a police running.. dunno what happen.. hehe.. den we also at there dee siao my big cousin ask him later go ask the police.. btw the police did not catch the lady.. they keep saying me.. so bad loh.. but nvm i used to it liao.. i must take it wor.. i think i can take it lah.. sad also no use, thety also dun mean it but i know they really like to bully me de.. but they still treat me good.. real good.. even we seldom contact... whenever they ask mi about my studies they will say must work harder.. always, so in order to zhen qi, i need to study hard loh... hope i can get into higher nitec accounting loh.. i hope loh.. coz afterall i like maths also.. i will try loh.. if cannot i also bo bian.. okok i shall end my p0st.. it's 11.31pm now.. good night... sigh*

*i need to go back to my mum room to sleep le, sunday onwards.. hai.. sad ah.. den i try dun kip online liao.. hai...!!! sad sad sad.. damn sad.. Super sad.. i think my tears coming down le..

2004-09-01T23:28:00.000+08:00

Tired day i can say.. Why? Start with a Good morning.. haha.. morning set alarm at 9am because 11+ wanna pass Bridget cd and tape loh.. but after i wake up awhile receive a message from yanbin, she ask if i got go out all this loh, coz she very boring and nicholas not ready or wake up yet so i tell her i pei her go Bukit Panjang eat loh, anyway. it has been about 1 month did not go out with her liao.. maybe lesser den 1 month.. but really very long.. last time we really used to go when we are free or even busy but now.. haha.. never mind lah.. once in a while also can.. yesh, meet her at ab0ut 10+ loh, den went to Kopitiam eat Mee Hoon Kuek.. Nice nice. so long no eat le.. Yummy..! den go walk walk as we was so FULL.. hehe.. can't really walk i can say.. too full liao.. burp* den went to Mini Toon to buy the sweet den went over to Bridget places there.. Yea saw her, talk awhile den go off... Went to meet Jessie and her Brother(Zeng Jun). Headed to Chua Chu Kang, called mrs tay and asked her to come down, 0mg she was so long and the sun is so BIG.. omg.. so hot u know.. haha.. yes, give her le we went off..! den went to Lot 1 to walk walk den after that around 2+ i think we went off, as for our dear yanbin she ownself stay at lot 1 wait..! sorry i did not pei u, really sorry. yet i headed to Jessie place when i say i'm tired and wanna go home.... really sorry.. yes, was like asked who can go loh, so called Shuyi and she also agreed..! den called Junzhuo den he also came over with jiapeng.. yesh after that 3 of us (jessie, zengjun and me) went to Plaza to buy something.. den waited for Shuyi to come.. den after that we go jessie house play awhile de PS2 den go her room watch vcd.. den second disc de going to finish liao her sister come back.. keke.. all like abit scare loh.. haha.. coz her sister really fierce.. but today still okok loh.. wanted to do project but did not do coz dunno how to start.. yesh, went plaza to have a game(zhuo and peng) den we 3 girls went to Bowling Alley to play the game.. den went to arcade again den go buy food le.. again i eat Mee Hoon Kuek.. and i AP the auntie.. =X. den after that went to her h0use.. eat.. 6 of us was eating together.. which are Zeng Jun, Zeng Wei, Jessie, Jiapeng.Shuyi and me. keke.. den last last her sister den come and eat.. den i play her sis de com.. den watch tv den go back and play com.. den around 9.35 we went 0ff.. i first take bus.. bleah.. den next is junzhuo den i dunno le.. okok i go off le.. i'm kinda tired now.. wan an.. anyway, i did not visit my grandma today.. tomorrow or when i go loh if she still in hospital.. i also dunno she operate(is wash her dunno what stone) le mah.. o.O oko wan an.. muackie..! i miss him sia.. dunno why..

HEY PEOPLE OUT THERE..! If you notice right, It's SEPTEMBER le.. so fast loh. and today is a HOLIDAY..!

Happy Teachers' Day To All Teacher's Of All Over The World

wanna dedicate this message to:

Bukit View Primary School: Mr Choo, Mrs Mark, Mr Ong, Mrs Tan, Mrs Wui, Miss Mok, Miss Lim alot more but forget their name.!

Fajar Secondary School: Mr Ng, Miss Ang, Mrs Yap, Miss Phang, Mrs Ho, Mrs Chew, Mr Chew must thanks them also..

Clementi ITE: Mrs Dorothy Tay, Mrs Genista Tay, Mrs Yin, Miss Ho, Mrs Wo, Mr Zidane, Mrs Ruby Lee, Mrs Joanna Seam

Without u teachers' teaching and guiding us all along we won't be in this stage now.. really need to thanks them loh and my secondary school teacher are really a bunch of good teachers... miss them so muchie... okok i end here.. hai.. Happy Teachers' Day Yea..!!

2004-08-31T23:00:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired u know..! Whole body aching.. phew* Yesh, today i wake up kinda late. As in actually 5.45 but end up i wake up at 6.15. 0mg. lol.. too tired le.. sobx. Morning, i did not go 0ver to take 106 as i think that 963 sure wont full.. eh KNS loh.. no lah.. lazy to walk there.. hehe.. Went up and saw them, smile to them den i went to the back, it's near them i can say, i overheard what they say.. make me laugh like mad like that.. coz like mad girl smiling tomyself.. haha.. Than went to canteen to settle down den go for assembly. was still there lame-ing around like siao.. hahaha.. than after that went to class because it's sucks... can't see performance abit stupid loh, somemore during the time of the performance we have to stay in class wait and do what? but mine classmate all are soo good today, we all played Zhong Ji Mi Ma.. even those who seldom play de also played.. haha. so happy.. den i actually keep thinking of going back fajar de u know.. hai.. but cannot.. cake not here.. but the uncle so clever come at 8+ 9 like that.. hehe.. so i faster call them to come back school ASAP.. but we din know that Mrs Tay was not allow to be dismissed.. we all was like so angry loh.. than we start to go to MPH and talk to the people, but most was Weiling who said them.. 0mg OQ is so angry u know.. if u see u will sure stunt tio.. i myself alos.. den when we reach they still can say us.. den some more saw mrs tay in the dunno what room... we more n more angry, coz seems that mrs tay like bo chap us.. really disappointed us alot loh.. hai. den when we al asked she say eat first.. we was like WTF... argh.. so MAD sia... KNS.. i really dun like SC ppl from clementi and all over ITE espically Bukit Batok and Clementi.. KNS.. Pui, pui pui.. ! make our day so STUPID.. KNS.. EeeeeeeeeeeeeEe.. den nvm we all angrily walk into classroom and we dun care and start to eat.. haha.. den dunno how come Mrs Tay Pop in.. den we all was like eh cut cake lei den she say wanna take off the make up so we went to take cake from the Conference room.. den come back she still not here yet so we went to offce and find her.. she tell us something.. cannot be disclose here.. private.. lol.. hahah lame sia. den ask her down.. den start to YUM SING.. so fun u know at first dot tay tot we will sabo her.. so she keep getting away so we just press our water and dun care.. den she really tot we wanna make her but actually is NOT k.. lol.. den we tell her real de lah.. den we do a proper one.. keke.x.. so happy.. den after that ask her to cut cake.. hehehehhe.. the exciting part come..

After we ask her to cut, wanted to SABO her. So Ayu actually wanted to but never.. So we tried but still cannot.. den when she sit down Siewfong take the cake and smach on her face.. den haha.. most exciting part really come, she at first never wan to make us, but end up wh0le class run here and there shouting coz she wanna make uS.. Weiling get it first.. haha.. den weiling make mi.. so bad loh.. my uniform tio but nvm lah.. hehe.. fun right? so fun damn fun.. first time sabo teacher sia.. gaga.. :p so happy den whole class really go hey-wire.. lol.. but end up have to clean up loh.. sobby nvm lah.. dun mind.. keke.. den we was like having a Spring cleaning sia... wash whole class like mad, den half way they play Water.. wah.. i twice sia.. hahahha.. nearly kanna my Hp but heng nv.. den they played some clean.. was overall ok.. thanks to those who helped. hehe.. bleah.. den after that went to find Mrs Tay den go off... went home by cab den meet them.. i was so tired loh.. argh.. meet them at 1+ den go over to west mall to look for present.. but cannot find.. o.O.. den asked them to look at other outlet.. yesh, Woodland have so we wonder around den go eat MOS Burger.. after eating we start to talk about past.. so funny.. weiling and me luff when jessie say something.. she say when she was Zero years old.. haha.. =X den we headed to Woodland by bus 187.. i the bus was like abit tired le.. den listen to songs.. den reach le den walk walk, den buy loh.. after that headed to jessie house.. hehe.. anyway we buy present le. =).. Hmm btw when we reach West Mall got police all this at MRT station sia.. we did not really care much but we keep on thinking on what happen.. =X den went jessie house liao saw her sis, sis bf, big brother.. den 5 mins later her small brother zeng jun came back.. he's so cute loh.. eeee.. cute until i miss him so much NOW.. lol.. ya at 8+ we went off... at the bus stop i think i think of him again.. coz i was like keep thinking of the past.. and think of him... i really hope to see him again sia.. =X anyway, i dun wanna wan to see him with others girls le.. coz the dream like come true to another guy i used to like.... haha.., but i dun care le..! coz no point right and i mean it k..! he's no longer in my heart le..! i bu hui sad for him... but i also hope i wont think of KH again.. scare sia.. =X bleah.. okok i end my ppost here...

*I MISS FAJAR K* MY HEART WAS AT THERE WHEN I WAS IN CLASS TODAY LOH..* SAD Sad.. MAKE ME CAN'T GO BACK.. STUPID LOH.. SAD AH...!!! but hope i can go back one day..!! wan an.. nite..

*Zeng Jun u are so cute..! muackZ... miss u ehs... keke... ai ni oh, my part time bf.. =X. he's really damn cute loh..

PS: i did not go and visit my grandma i also dunno is she discharge liao mah.. -.-'''... and 1 bad news from my mum, the Dua Pek(my mum's father de brother or who i forget) past away today.. sigh* abit sad coz i visit him on monday and today he's goneZ.. hai..

My Life is always not as good as others...!!! hai.. when can i be back myself? why did i change into this stage? why? hai.. what if one day i'm gone? haiZ.. will anyone care about me? ARGH...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Alot of things changed me and totally regret...! will i go back to the normal me? i guess i wont...!!!! Sorry.. Really sorry..! my friends, maybe i really disappointed u people once again.. but if i am not getting close to u all, i hope u all will not hate me and will treat me still as a friend instead of hating mi..! i'm sorry..!

2004-08-30T21:20:00.000+08:00

Happie 16th Birthday k3Le^mEi

I'm sorry i yesterday did not wish u, only wait till morning.. sorrie yea..! Anyway, Happie Birthday To U, May all yOur Wishes Come True.. =)

Ok Yesterday i slept at 12+ as i was watching television programme from 9.30pm to 12am.. Dollar was on Tv. so cute ehs, den watch 10.30 de Channel u show, abit 'gaga' de.. abit scare lah.. haha.. den 11 watch Zhong Yi Da Ge Da.. until 12+ den to Channel 5 watch Volleyball men match. only see first match.. haha.. =X den i sleep liao.. Until today morning. wake up at 7.15.. Then went to bathe den online fer awhile den iron uniform.. den go school. den in school ah? hai. dunon how to say loh, it's just like i'm not that shou huan yin kanna say by ppl.. suan liao. forget it.. i dun tok le ok..! i do my part and keep quiet.. i'm really very disappointed with what u have done to me.. FINE den. den go for briefting.. was given a t-shirt and the place to report.. all this lah.. den go BSA, inside there abit dulan with shuyi as she make my chair.. i was damn pissed by what she did... it's over my limit..! really.. I HATE WHAT ARE AROUND ME NOW..! SUCKS K.. den did not tok to her.. den have lunch at the canteen, after eating heard that there's problem going on there.. sigh* den went to class, at first tok tok, den talk about present, den start to bully weiling,*Sorry ehs maybe very guo fen* dui bu qi.. den got our test i got 18/20.. yea! so happie loh. den heard that SW was being cancle.. hehe so happie also.. =X den drag drag until somehow den go off.. den wanted to go west mall but in the end did not go coz, mum rushing me liao.. so bad. den went to eat den go take taxi to hospital, den go see my ah ma. she can't opearate.. coz her salt level kinda low.. den cannot den see awhile den go over to another side to see my grandfather(mum side de father) de brother i think so.. he was in the ICU hai.. he's my Bei Gong.. when i was inside seeing him i was so sour in my heart.. coz really seems to be very yan zhong.. kanna motorcycle bang.. argh.. why izzit so many things happening around me? i really ffeel like crying it out and ease all the problem in my heart.. hai.. i go off le.. tmr got assembLy..

2004-08-29T23:32:00.000+08:00

I cry while i was dreaming in the morning, and thats true.. I crys, really cry.. hai. it's about a dream of my family members, we was at a outing or party i think den my xiao gu said that she need to go back because there's something on at her place and asked if my dad and me wan to go anot, well i said yes and my dad of coz.. so we waited for car to come. while waiting i dunno why suddenly my dad was like rushing to the car and left mi alone there and my aunt de husband drive so fast without me, and i receive a message from my dad saying I love u what ever shit. so i cried.. i even shout..! hai... it's not the first time, but it has been long since i cry while dreaming.. i really don't know what to say u know.. haiz..

Yes, when i wake up i see no one at home. so i did not bother much but i called my mum to check if she eaten le mah as i want to go downstair to eat the Chicken Rice, it has been months i did not go and eat le.. but my mum say today got pray so got food to eat at home.. i was angry and i cry again.. hai.. den soon after that my mum came back, so i quickly go and help out abit in case later tio scolding.. so i go and kaypo i can say also.. Yesh, den pray my grandfather.. den ok ler we eat loh, while eating my dad told me that my ah ma need to go hospital as she need to stay in.. i was shock i tot what happen so i ask why no one told me..! hai, at the moment my heart abit sour.. den after that went to my grandma place(mum de mum), my baby cousin was actually sleeping but when my mum came i can say he can't sleep.. so carried him.. hehe.. kinda happy to see him again.. 2 weeks no see him le.. miss him.. :p.. and also heard from my third aunt saying that today was her birthday also, and my cousin(eileen and her brother) went to buy cake for her mum, i was so touched by what they did.. really touched.. coz i can say my ah yee is kinda xing fu with this daughter and son even though her son is abit notti... my biao jie bought Yam cake well i did not eat coz i have already gone home when they cut.. Happy Birthday To my Third Auntden soon after that we went off, i came back home for awhile before we bring my ah ma to hospital.. online den go off.. hai, u know what? after we finish doing that documental things we was at the ward outside.. me and my dad loh, coz only 2 of us accompany my ah ma go ma.. my dad cried.. u know my heart how pain? i understand how my dad feels, i know why he cry but i dunno how to say.. he's like keeping away from me just not to let mi know he cry but i know.. he asked mi to call my aunt but both not in.. i really think that my dad and mum is really the best son and son-in-law le, coz when my ah ma need to see doc both of them will bring her go even my dad got work.. he will take leave if my mum is sick, or my dad is always tolerating my mum when she complain about my ah ma.. i know how he feels... and my mum... i agree my dad de brother and sister really abit guo fen.. they duno what's going on.. and even if they know they wont HELP.. hai.. i dunno what to say loh.. haiz.. all i can do is cry.! hai.. i hope in future i dun give them trouble.. sorry..! yes after that around 4.15 we went off the hospital, my dad actually wanted to send mi to west mall but i think it's still early, so i say i go home first, so he went to my ah ma place to put my ah ma de bag.. den he told mi my aunt was there so i went up, after 10-15mins i went off with them, and my aunt de husband send mi to west mall.. thanks alot.. after that went to POSB there to take money.. den go Coffee bean look for places. waited for 30mins den got space.. abit diaoz right? den mrs tay called me and ask mi how the security tag is bring tag.. argh.. den huoyan came followed by weiling but we don't have the mood to study. sigh* den go makan den go walk walk den go buy bread.. den come back home record dollar, kinda funny but not nice loh.. they cut alot.. hai.. i think i end here le ba.. bye bye.. hai.. so sad u know... i feel like crying... I'm total a USELESS!!!! HAIZ...

2004-08-28T23:20:00.000+08:00

Yawns~ so tired, yesterday night received weiqi de message but i did not reply.. hehe.. =X Yesh, today morning weiqi did call me but i did not answer as i was so tired.. she even sms me.. =X so bad sia me.. den i bo chap loh.. den around 11+ i wake up and reply her and tell her she can come anytime.. yesh, they came at around 3 like that.. den we did not study i can say.. haha.. den i also bo chap loh.. den at around 5 we went to buy food and also order cake.. wanted to order the cake but malay ppl cannot eat.. den we but Chocolate Craving loh.. sob.. den came over my place both of them smoke while walking.. KNS.. lol.. den at 7.20 they went off.. den online loh.. den do nothing also...

Happy 17th Birthday Bridget
Happy 17th Birthday Jennifer
May all your wishes come true

2004-08-27T23:28:00.000+08:00

yo yo, early morning alarm clock ring.. saw my handphone with 2 message.. One is from Jessie which saws Mrs Tay ask us to be in school by 9. argh so bad loh, i wanted to go back and sleep again as i was so tired but too bad i have to wake up so i wake up loh.. den prepare to go school, reach school i thought they will be there already so i just happily walk to school to the canteen loh, never will i know that they have not reach.. so pai seh loh.. haha.. den called Siewfong never answer or cannot get thru i forget.. den call yanbin, she say they reaching... so i wait for them at the canteen loh.. den they came.. but aijuan not here yet.. den sit sit there tok tok.. hehe.. den went locker kip bag.. coz going retail studio.. den go in and have lesson... den at the end of the lesson we took pictures.... haha.. good good.. must be nice nice okae.. haha.. =X den after that go canteen as we got approve leave to go and sell pen for NKF.. yes we reach the MPH at 10.50 but we have to wait, while waiting we were all playing the game call dunno what.. kinda fun loh.. haha.. den when our turn we have to wait very long so sian man.. ya den our turn le we take and sit down while waiting for them to brief us..! after they brief we den go to the places we want.. first we went to Weiling place to put bag, den we went to eat. after that went to Mos Burger as i meeting Bridget there, she bought one from me. so happie sia.. my first customer..! den after that all of us tot of slacking down there but end up got sell loh, i myself buy 5.. 1 for myself 4 of my cousin.. hehe.. den while sitting down and waiting a so call teacher came to approach us. she said if the pen is cheap she will wan to buy 30.. so i think she's a teacher... haha.. but too bad she bought 2.. but it's ok loh.. so one from me, one from juan and we contiune to slack and we saw more school coming.. really alot.. got Kranji, Bukit View, Duearn, West Spring, Bukit Panjang Goverment High, Ite Clementi and lots more.. so we abit bad lah, we went off at 3+ went over to my house to slack... haha.. until 4+ i went to bathe den nearly 5 we went off, took 176 to Weiling house and take our bag, den went to interchange to take 947. reach and wait for our turn to return.. after that wait awhile den we went off .. me and weiling went to West Mall Coffee Bean, Juan and Yun take MRt back.. den reach west mall settled down den i go change, den after awhile huoyan came.. and Weiling treat me Ice Mocha.. keke.. thanks alot Girl.. den study until 8.30 we go makan, mos burger.. den talk talk den talk about family huoyan cried.. hai.. sorry i dunno how to an wei u..! den about 9.30 we went off.. i took 176 while both of them take 985.. den reach home weiling say jennifer say wan my number ..! so i ask her give loh, den she call me ask if i can go her birthday de dunno what ma.. i say cannot.. sorry.. hehe.. okok i gtg le.. buai..

2004-08-26T21:16:00.000+08:00

eh ah orh.. tired day i can say.. anyway i took my 2.4km today and i failed.. den had my BSA test today too.. okok loh.. den after sch went to clementi to have my lunch with juan and yun.. den went back for training before that only 3 of us was there so we played badminton.. than slowly more n more ppl came.. i only play awhile den i slack all the way there, den go and play with jaime and apple with yun.. at about 5+ i went off.. came back and online till now.. good night *a short post today* wan an.. very tired to type anything.. sigh*

2004-08-25T22:37:00.000+08:00

Happy + Sad

Eh, today kinda ok loh, had my BPF in the morning and my RTO and BSA.. i need to stduy real hard for BPF. hmm coz it's kinda hard loh.. den for RTO we went to Retail Studio to have some picture taken, haha everyone was given a chance to take. wah.. haha.. Than after 2 hours there we went off for our 30mins or less break.. haha. went canteen watched Wan Quan Yu Le. Then went to our class, at the time yun was there.. so we all was talking crap.. lol. until my teacher came in and 17 ppl have to take Test, and the rest have to copy down answers for RTO, real alot man.. haha.. den dunno why weiqi so pissed off loh, heard from her say she cried, maybe she just too stress ba.. hai, hope her and everyone will be FINE loh.. haiZ. really stress i can say loh.. den i did not go home, i stayed in school and went back to retail studio to check the mechandise. haha, like our home on songs. =X keke.. den after 10mins we all go off le.. den went to office.. Than after that i did not go home also wanted to but in the end we went to West Mall with Yun, Paul and Juan loh.. Went to Ts-Laser to look for VCD but don't have then never mind loh, went to Popular as juan and me wanted to buy Note book.. wahahaha... but not nice and also expensive so i give this stupid suggestion to go Bukit Panjang plaza.. Wah, they still say Ok.. So i told them before i go i must go home and take my library books they also ok so we took 173, and we alight, at the small 'qiao' there while juan and paul was telling us they wanna go 7-11 a Cat hor, come to my leg, guess what? I SHOUTED loh.. wahahahaha.. so scary loh, some more a xiao mei mei there so MALU.. haha luff all the way sia.. so bad.. =X den after that reach my h0use i on computer den yun play while.. she asked mi something.. 0mG.. so scary k.. suan liao anyway that was the part, i also admit.. haha.. den we went out, took 176 to Bukit Panjang, than go Library first, den yun wanted take ne0-print but we nv respond to her.. lol.. den went to popular, hmm i used my money mostly in Popular, i bought a cd case, note book, pen, CD-R, and a S.E.N.S cd.. den went to Mini toon i did not buy anything.. den went to TS-Laser wanted to find Say Yes Enterprise but dun have den my heart itchy buy My Sassy Girl and S.H.E MTV.. wah.. can die manZ.. i used up to $57 TODAy.. WITHIN 4 HOURS.. OMG.. lol.. use money like water abit xin ton but nvm loh.. hehe.. okok lah, i end here.. anyway, thanks yun, juan and paul for accompanying mi.. thanks..! end here.. buai... =)

2004-08-24T21:23:00.000+08:00

hai, why??!! why must thing go until this way? i really can't torolate le.. i must say it OUT here instead.. WHY? My parents give mi name for FUN izzit? Why must u people calling mu Qiu(Ball) in chinese? why? yes, i can joke and play with u, but i think u people over do it le.. i'm a HUMAN.. so what if i'm fat or what? really can't stand it.. is just that i dare not say anything loh if i dare i think i sure shout le loh, my limit is already going to BURST le.. really.. don't u know i hurt someone hearts? i've been thinking and crying loh, why i only can leave in my heart instead of saying out? WHY? i can't stand it loh.. i gonna state down here so what if u people can't READ thats MY PROBLEM..! I'm realy damn pissed with that day when we are in the canteen loh, damn pissed. simply keep bullying me hor, u better remember XINTHIA...! i wont givr u a DAMN.. get off my sight, u have ur limit i have mine.. pls be considerate..!!! kns.. KNS..

haiZ.. make my mood so sucky..! sian ah.. well, today went for assembLy, wasn't late.. phew.. cold sweat.. lol.. den during lesson time was ok lah.. still can loh.. after sch went for training, was pretty ok also.. okok i shall end here.. sigh*

2004-08-23T19:46:00.000+08:00

Sad and disappointed..!

Yawns, nearly can't wake up today because i sleep quite late yesterday. Because i keep on waiting for the show to start and Zhong Yi Da Ge Da..! sad case i did not wait ane went to bed..! *sobs.! all because the Senior Minister loh, say 3hours de speech.. wah piang... o.O den today wake up at 7.15 den faster went to bathe after that came out and surf the net, surf until 8.30 den iron my uniform. after ironing wait for it to cool down for awhile den change and go out.. took bus and receive message from jessie saying where am i. hmm for yr info no need wait for mi at bus stop le.. i will reach school quite late..! sorrie.. yesh, den went to canteen and look for them and after awhile i went back to class and locker.. hmm after about 45mins de lesson we were given a break and also Mrs Wo say from 10-10.30 so i went to the canteen at 10.15 and watched volleball recorded match.. well watch until 10.30 liao they ask if we wanna go back mah but i insist of not.. *sorry juan groups.. den at 10.40+ Mrs Dorothy Tay came and look for us and gave us a scolding.. and we diam diam de go back class.. 14 of us was LATE to class... well, have to apologise to Mrs Wu.. what a suay day.! still never mind den mrs wo start to abit AP to us le.. what sia.. sigh* but overall was still alright ba.. den after that went to BSA ya teacher went thru answer hmm still ok loh. den after that went for our Lunch, ate Curry Chicken Mee Hoon(again) o.O den after that they went to Library but me was in the class listening to Sijun de mp3. heard some NICE songs.. OMG.. so nice yea.. den went to our repective class..! den after that Ayu came and tok to me.. keke.. den lesson start and was talking about the email that mrs tay wanted to give us.. lol.. s0mem0re we are going to the President Charity de dunno what thing, BUT dunno CONFIRM anot..! phew* den went for PE and theres one good and bad new.. good is today PE cancle.. bad news is thursday morning have to come to go earLy.. =] den after that i did not go home i was at the PE department there redo-ing my Shuttle Run.. FAIL Again.. =X den after that did not go home also.. went to the canteen and then went to play volleyball den play until half way start to chit chat abit.. den went to canteen again to cool down den at there sit and talk until 4+ went back to PE department BUT we did not play Volleyball instead we played Badminton.. wahahahah.. so long no play le.. den rest awhile coz abit tired den return... den saw table tennis. so went to play.. play until 5+ liao den rest awhile while paul, aijuan and yun playing den ayu come and tok tok to me.. den receive message from miss ang saying they are celebrating on 31August, i was Sooo sad and nearly cried loh.. i sad until i angry.. so i ownself go one corner and vent all my anger, some more my leg pain.. ARGH.. my Xiao Zhi Tou de nail make until my Forth Zhi tou and skin come out and walk very pain and have to limp my leg.. EeEee like shit so pain until i nearly cry out loh just feel like SHOUTING and CRying...!!!! den go bus stop and wait for 963 3 buses go passes i did not board why? COZ FULL... aRgh.... so Suay. den bth le took 106 instead alight at Keming Primary there and walk home, still same limping while walking... hai. Sian ah, i can't go back FAJAR... WHY WHY WHY??!!! STUPID...!!!!!!!!! SSAD AH...!@ i WANNA GO BACK LEI..!#$%^&*()_(*%$#@$%^&*()_#$%^*()_(*%^$#^&^&*$%&$^%#$^@!$@@$%afhjdadfh09rgu$%^*()_U*%$#@#$%^&*() 68HJKnbvc edtcf ku( v*rfdtghjk )y&tgkl (uy trycb (uib&^i uo&tyk_ &tyg........ ARGH..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SCREAM AS LOUD AS I CAN.. anyway daddy give mi $50.. at first tot he wont gib de.. den he gave both me and kor kor 50 i think.. but NOT fair.. coz 50 include 33.90 which is the shoes... EeEee not fair.. and some more how am i going to buy comsemption stamp? i wanna take from him i dun care.. bleah... :p.. HaiZ.. but dare not lei..! crys* haiZ.. SAD Ah..

I CANNOT GO BACK FAJAR.. ~>.<~ hao xiang Ku ah.. Sobb

2004-08-22T21:12:00.000+08:00

[ x . Boring . x ]

Today's such a boring day I can say. Even it's boring but i still got lots of things to say. Yes, I woke up at around 10 because of 1 2 telephone calls. I was so pissed off. As i thought i can sleep till late as I do not need to go to my grandparents place. It's my mum friends who called for 2 times one at 9+ and another at 10. I wake up and picked up, and from the moment onwards I did not go and sleep as i can't sleep again. stupid rights. Next time can u kindly call my mum's handphone instead of my house? Aiyoz so sian.! Yes after that i went to wash up and on my computers surprisingly not that lagging. =\ so bad my computer like want to bully me. *cry* haha. den switch on the television and watch the varity show Wo Cai Wo Cai Wo Cai Cai Cai but watch before le so I never really concentrate on it. And it telecast till 11 from 11 onwards i did not watch tv so i turn on my radio and listen to 93.3Fm. 93.3 rocks big time, after so long i listen back.. o_* den around 2+ went to cook maggie mee before i start to pack my room... after eating and washing up the bowls i went to my room and start tidying.. Besides tidying, i was watching television programme.. Super Sunday.. i weep while watching the show when the lady wanting to find her long lost friend.. ah.. hai* From there i think of lots of things. =X den after that 4.30 watch Zhen Qing once again i weep again. but not that much as my dad was at home. Sob! den around 5 - 6 den finish tidying.. after that sweep floor den faster go bathe le.. so sticky.. after bathing went online and look for people to chat, go irc no one, msn aijuan so chat abit with her.. Then watch abit tv programme, den 8 o'clock right, all channels is Senior Minister talking..! so i listen to 93.3 haha.. alot of nice songs..! woot.. anyway, heard from daddy say he won 4D.. hmm wanted to ask for money BUT better don't because he also bo $$ liao.. sigh* he said this to me, he said we really no big luck, den i tell him loh, buy from small first den aim for Big.. den he say ya loh. den u contiune u got win better den nothing 500 also happy right? Than he go off liao.. Sob left me alont at home. anyway, today never go grandparents house abit miss zhuzhu lei.. Ya morning when mum is weeping my room saw my wallpaper which is Zhuzhu she says Cou Ren(smelly people) .. haha.. Zhu zhu i miss u.. =X

Eh, i want to watch all this show sia.

Windstruck - got vcd anytime also can watch
Love Storm - act by vivian, zaizai, ken zhu seems to be NICE.!!!
Say Yes Enterprise - Part 4..!!!! no money buy
Yuan Wei Xia Tian - yanbin say wanna buy but dunno when! I'm waiting yea..!
Snow Angel - zhenhao say wanna lent mi till now but jinny yi lenting me after his gf watched..!
Ai Qing Bai Pi Shu - kinda long show but i feel like watching.. maybe got money i go buy anyway kinda cheap also. =X
Qiang Wei Zhi Lian - i have it but haven not watched.. 0mg!
and alot more..! siao liao lah me..!

Television Programme:

Idol Father - Tuesday last liao must watch kinda touching by the advertisement..!
Ye Xu Huo Zhe You Ke Nen - because got Dollar my friends DOG..!
Meteor Garden 1 - every Saturday 12Pm just started yesterday.!
Happy Sunday - Every Saturday 2PM.
Super Sunday - Every Sunday 2.30 - 4.30
Zhen Qing - 4.30 - 6.30 Channel U
Zhen Xin Mi Yu - Tomorrow last le..!
Jia Cai Wan Gui - Tuesday must watched because got Tay Ping Hui..!

Cds, Mtv:

Jay's - new debut album, Qi Li Xiang
Stella's - Don't know what name
Say Yes Enterprise - the OST if have
Windstruck - OST if have
S.E.N.S - Maybe i will buy!
S.H.E - the Bo Shi Mao de MTV i have not buy YET..!
Fan WeiQi - don't know lei..!
and lots more..! sob..

Hmm just now i went to look at my photo album, think of lots of sad and happy memories.. =X

I want to buy second part of the comic of S.H.E de dunno out le mah.. and dunno got new de book from S.H.E.. ahhhhh..

I want to get a new Photo Album also.. no space le..

My computer not enough space too...! Ew..

Wait..! i've said all this do i have the money to BUY it? *sob..!

2004-08-21T21:13:00.000+08:00

Yawns.. what a boring day.! hee.. hmm slept at 12+ yesterday, hai.. really damn fed up.. irc is getting more n more sucky le.. last time i still can chat chat, luff luff, play play as much as i can be..! now lei? hai.. hope 1 day #blue_star will be back to normal days as last time.. i miss that time alots, espically during sec sch days. even during exam week i will still be around with yanbin, taoshun, guohao, wenjun, huiping, geraldine the few of us will sure be inside crapping and lame-ing, shouting, chatting and joking around.. but now lei geraldine, wenjun, huiping, taoshun, guohao and yanbin seldom online le.. if got also nv chat liao.. some more last time got amy mei, surf, yongkiat all this ppl to pei mi chat thru out.. so happie during those days.. now lei? really gone le.. mei all this nv go irc le.. only msn, even in msn also seldom chat le.. *sigh so sad u know.. think of it really have lots of memories... now de #blue_star is quarreling, scolding, blaming around.. used to be okok de.. but after some reasons become like that... hai.. why ah? stupid lei, see liao gek sim ah.. dunno biao jie will blame me anot..! sob.. sorry biao jie wor.. anyway, where are the rest? i really miss the old times we used to had.. come back lah.. dun so busy lei... lai lei.. pei wo lei.. aiy0x.. so sad u know.. anyway, i tried to break my record le almost everyday online for more den 8hours, TODAY lei, hahahaha... altogether onli only less den 1hour i can say online den offline online den offline.. sooo stupid..! coz also no ppl.. and wanna see i can make it not to online mah.. coz i only can park there last time can at lease had a good chat.. *sigh -slap myself why am i saying all this rubbish* too boring i guess.. lolx

back to normal.. today wake up at 9+ and online at nearly 10. argh, my com has been so lagging.. dunno why.. maybe its time for mi to reformat my dian nao le.. but hope no lah.. sigh* if going to reformat i think i cry till siao sia.. coz really alot of pic, songs inside.. finally can got so many things den reformat i think i can die ah.. anyway, i will see loh.. haha den wh0le day stay at home, chatting with kian kwong, joan(heng we both nothing le, if not i dunno we will not chat to eachother for dunno how to days), jiebin, pual, aijuan, jessica, and yanbin.. hmm what we chat wanna know? i think i let u all know lah.. coz i really very long nv type liao..

Kian kwong: dunno why suddenly he come ask mi when s.h.e coming den we start chatting de, den he tell mi he goin army, den he wanna open LAN shop, den i ask him hired me..! =X.. lol. lamer.. hope he aim for it loh.. lol

Joan: yesterday ask if she was angry with me mah den she say no den she tok tok abit den today she asked mi wan go watch movie mah, but no money den nv go.. sorry.!

jiebin: tok to her about my studies(my course coz she next year going ITE i think if she wants to..) and she dunno what course to take ...

paul: chat abit with him, den he told mi he put windstruck songs in his webbie den i ask him help mi also.. den he ask mi send him the song den he help mi load and give me the link, den ya now my blog got windstruck de songs le.. thanks...!

aijuan: she say we bully her, but we nv i think she think too much, coz whenever ppl wanna go off we sure say shOooooooooooo de mah den she say we bully her.. yuan wang ah.. but okok ler loh.. anyway i asked her about the homework but she nv bring home.. *piaks pigu ah*

jessica: my muiiiii.. lol hmm tok tok to her about our problem anyway hope she can stay happie always and dun think about the guy anymore.. stay happie always k mei..!

yanbin: send her songs den she replied my blog de repiles. aiya, suan le lah.. as long as u both stay happy forever and at the same time still remember mi as a friend jiu can le.. =X abit thick skin i know.. muahahahaha...

ya that's al for what we chatted.. lolx.. abit lame lah.. abit stupid post but i really got nothing to do..! ya whole day what i was doing was, reading teenage(not finished yet), watching 12Pm de meteor garden(nice show), 2 de Happy Sunday(gort S.H.E sia), 4.30 de Kinder Sprited(wrong spelling) but in chinese is called Zhen Qing watch that show make mi cry coz very sad sia why together liao den wanna apart.. aw..! so sad.. cry like what sia me.. like i tio beatten sia.. den after watching till 6.30 off tv listen to 933 againz.. wah liao i very sian of my com de songs liao.. lol.. abit sian le.. den around slack all along till now..! 0mg abit lame i know.. but it's how my days goes.. and also my mum soo good to me sia, she say if u wanna change with mi the handphone u change loh.. wah.. surprising. den my dad today also abit kee siao, i tell him i buy the shoes at 33+ and tell him if he wan pay back he pay dun wan den nvm den he say end of the month.. wah seh, den my brother hor.. have to first say sorry to him also.. i gib him alittle bit of AP when he tok to me.. heng he nv angry.. Sorry! den at 6.40 like that i was lying on my bed coz i feel very sleepy mah,, i was thinking of lots of things lei, i wanted to blog here but i forgotten le. really forgot..! 0mg i having STM = short term memory.. lol.. okok lah, i think i should end my post here le.. coz i forget what to type le..! *sigh.

*my post abit not in order sia.. Sorry!

die i'm more likly wanting to have a DIGITAL CAMERA. how? 0mg..

my room is in a big mess..(mum ask mi tmr gort time better tidy).

my blog got songs le.. Windstruck de.. all thanks to Paul who helped me.. thanks a million..!

9.33 rocks, S.H.E rocks

2004-08-20T23:31:00.000+08:00

aw..! it has been 2-3 days i last update.. hmm getting lazier and lazier or i dun feel like blogging? i tot all the while blogging is my hobby? hmm, things start to chage le, maybe seldom will blog le.. dunno lei, see loh.. i only know this few days my mood also not good, yesterday quarrel with joan, today nv even tok. maybe if like that i also dunno how loh, i already seldom tok to pearly le, normally she knows my problem but now seldom le.. or even nv tok le ba.. hai.. anyway she has a bf le. even though i did not hear from u say to me personally, i wanna wish u a happy relationship with ur bf(nick).. hope u stay xingfu.. but i told joan that i'm abit sad loh, i did not hear anything from u loh.. but aiya, forget it lah.. just stay xingfu ba. haha.. as for joan problem? i dunno how loh? maybe i too much ba.. suan le.. wo bu zhi dao.. wo zi zhi dao wo very feel like crying loh.. sigh*

for sch okok loh, hope i can study hard.. must study hard alot of things i really dunno loh.. sigh*

love? i think i already in the processing of forgetting him.! sigh*

family? okok lah.. same old shit sometimes good sometimes bad..

Sucks lah.. ah.....

2004-08-17T14:44:00.000+08:00

Yesterday did not update my blogger, coz hor hai wanna edit something but end up hor got something come out make mi so angry loh. den hor i give up loh, was so pissed of by then.. den yesterday in sch nothing really happen loh.. alrights lah.. den went home very sleepy, tot i can tahan till night but half way sleep..! OMG.. from 5+ - 7+. haha... den online loh. still same chat chat, wanna change blog URL den still cannot.. pissed by day off..! haa. bye..! short post..!

Hai, can't sleep sia, i offline at 9+ wanna go sleep end up 11 liao still awake.. dunno y.. sigh.. so sian loh, have to wake up at 6.00am den online go print project the location thing loh.. den faster rush out le.. scare no time later late mah.. coz hor 7.55 hvae to reach sch... yes was't late.. =) in canteen loh before assembly.. den after tat go back class.. sigh.. den in the morning saw Yit ping just nice her birthday today, den dun dare say happie birhtday to her. so i ask peikhim instead.. wah surprise she still remember me wor.. she say hi to me first.. coz at first when i saw her i tot she was my friends friends.. den she asked mi u know me mah.. lol.. somemore not my classmate.. den my OWN classmate saw me also nv say hi..! wtf... haha.. in sch ah, nothing really happen loh, reading comic all this loh. while yanbin they all go out makan, den jinny yi and paul came to find us.. talk crap but i did not bother, but actually i heard loh.. haha.. den b4 that that PAUL right? come and scare me.. siao kia.. eat shit loh.. haha. =X okok lah.. i go le lah.. now in sch u know? hai.. so ke lian in lesson type bloggie.. but MRS TAY not in sch today got 5preiod FREE.. woot. so happy..! also sian lah. haha.. anyway, jie mei meng for time-being i may like dao u all.. sorry..! i dunno how long will i be like this but i think will be very soon ba.. sorry k..! sigh* bye bye!

Happy Birthday Yit Ping

2004-08-15T22:37:00.000+08:00

Yoz ppl.. i'm so tired wor.. hmm today wake up at 10+ i think.. den hor i heard from father saying that my brother wanted to ask us out to eat.. den after that around 11+ my dad de phone rang..! den hai.. after the phone rings my dad ask if my brother still wanna go eat ma.. den duno why say no.. den i get damn angry with them le loh.. den i tot my dad will buy for us.. den i said NO.. ok this one my fault.. but he really did not buy loh.. normally he will buy come back den go out loh.. so i SHOUTED at him saying U ALWAYS LIKE THAT DE LOH NEVER GO OUT UR LEG WILL BREAK IZZIT.. den my tear auto drop.. hai.. really very sad loh.. i really hate sunday u know.. if go grandma house still never mind loh.. hai.. really HATE it.. WHy can't he just stay at home? just don't let me know who called loh..! hai.. every sunday sure will go out 1.. not say dun allow loh, must know the limit loh.. SUNDAY is normally for family outing but we dun have, but my sunday is normally go grandma house or stay at home watching TV programmes of online.. wtf.. hai.. ok nvm forget about this.. really pissed off my day..!

den around 11+ my cousin call me, ask if i got go grandma house mah.. well, today i did not go down as my mum was in malaysia today.. sigh..! can't see baby le.. miss him like hell.. o.O kua zhang.. den she asked if wans go and see Fireworks ma, so at first i was damn angry so i said no loh.. den after that i think liao i say aiya, anything loh.. coz stay at home also nothing to do.. hai i dunno if they will angry mah.. abit worried sia.. sorry to *bin, ping, fong, yun and those who went coz i dunno who got go liao.. sorrie.. den ya meet biao jie at 3.30 at my bus stop.. den wanyew said they will be late loh.. den biao jie and me went to Bukit Panjang plaza walk walk, was abit lame loh.. walk here and there like siao like that.. went to vcd shop, blue 21, buy soya milk den jalan jalan until 4.30 we decided to head towards to Far East without them coz he dunno what time den go.. den we took 700 to Far East loh.. went to ATM and saw Sijun and other class girls+guys.. den after that we went to Level 1 and walk walk, saw Pretty in Tokyo den went to take Love Katty.. den abit lost coz long time no use dunno where the cancle button den end up got Annie & Ei nia.. sorrie cousin.. den took le went to walk another round den head to Taka to have our Dinner it's about 6 le.. den i ate Liang Tou Fu.. whereas she eat TaroQ.. den after eating went to toilet and head ourself to Esplanade.. kinda alot of ppl when we reach and we meet the there.. heng got juntong friends if not we also wont dare to go in there coz alot of ppl liao.. abit pai seh also. den got this mother and 3 daughter right.. what sia the daughter so guai lan loh.. was saying that she's those type very easy pppl will hate de. den waited until 8 like ppl all stand up so do we.. den after we stand 1min later hor, the fireworks starts.. it end after 5-6mins.. i took afew pic of it loh.. den got one very nice de but hor hai when i take suay suay memory FULL.. hai.. what sia.. den after that went off loh, den still nvm walk from esplanade to somewhere around the dunno what park de.. can walk to PS de.. but lazy to walk so biao jie, wanyew & me took bus over.. 190 ya we reach first den in bus so pai seh loh.. when the ppl standing next to us say Wo de Di pan or wat de den Wanyew says shi loh wo de di pan hao ting hor.. den say wo meng duo shi Jay de fans.. den both me and eileen luff till piang.. den we reach le search for biao jie bf.. he was at second level but he did not say he say LG there. find here and there see no one.. den i look up den saw him.. den went up look for him.. den after afew mins they all came.. den they went to eat whereas we go home.. abit scare sitting my biao jie bf car loh.. drive so fast.. den kuang hong deng somemore.. second time le.. diao. den in bus hehe, they 2 talk make mi luffss. den reach home around 9.50.. aha. went online den chatted loh.. sigh... loaded the pic up my com wil post it when free. den hor, sigh i keep thinking why i use so much money loh.. from 1000+ used to 219+ from April to August.. only 4 months i used up 400+ die le.. hopefully mum nv see.. and after i bank in that 90 i only left with 309 still very less.. die le.. i must really save money le.. one day bring $5 to sch only... hai.. den talk to mum about what i dream today.. i dream that my dad won 4 digit den he gives half to me and half to my brother.. lolx.. what a lame dream..! yes next week got Dollar in Tv.. stay tune.. bye!.. wan an.. hai.. keep thinking why i only left with 200+ nia..