Wake up at 7.40++ in da morning.. I was so sleepy man.. I wonder why nowdays I have been so tired. I don't really sleep late at night nowdays also. Wondering why. haix. Worst is that I'm late for class everyday. Can you imagine lesson starts at 10.15 i leave my house at 9.50+ goin to 10 and the bus comes at 10.08 or something? Well, I know I can't blame the driver because it's me who need to motivate myself and not the driver. And why am I getting lazier and lazier? Why can't I just be earLy at this type of time when exam are coming? Why I change so much ever since i joined ITE or ever since he has a girlfriend? Why do I need to act happy when I am not at all? Why? Can anyone tell me? Why do I leave the group from my 5 years friend? The answer is that I don't like the way they behave. It's like getting attention from others.. I don't wish.. It's very Mei Mian Zi.. Laughing like nut, Shouting like mad, Acting like a kids.. It's not what I want to see on them.. All i want to see them is what we are last year.. Not the presence of themself NOW.. And sometime I find that I don't really know what they are doing for example what they say, they want.. To them maybe i'm just a stupid girl who loves to act ke lian infront of others.. Always push fault to others and all stuff.. But please think carefuLLy, do you people really treat me as a friend before? regard me as a sister? Nowdays, i really feel that if i go back i will sure feel left out and now Pearly is going to work with them, think i will have a chance to talk? NO WAY and recentLy I realise that my best pal Cindy is asking them out, contacting them. If that's the case let it be. If you don't treat me as a friend den let it be.. No matter what, you are always my best friend cum sister.. Maybe for the chalet I won't pay or I won't go I find that no point going. Without asking me they count me in.. haix.. If I say no they will say, huh I thought that you will go, i counted you in already. How to reject? hai. How How How? But I can say I'm very lucky to have a group of friend in class. They are Ivis, Catherine, Shuyi, Aijuan, Junzhuo, Jessie. Thanks alot man.. Really must treasure this friendship very well. Don't wish to part from them. Sigh~.~ Regarding my family? Still the same, always leaving me alone at home. I wonder if I die will they bother or not. Wonder why they don't stress me, wonder why they don't talk to me, ask mi about school or personal things.. Wondering why my friends can get a happy family yet i can't. They can get good things from parents on their birthday whereas i can't. Wonder how long we had not been going out as a family to eat dinner already. Wondering why.. Wondering where did my father go when he go out, wonder how's my mum mood everyday, wonder how my brother gonna treat me or how he's doing. Wondering this and that.. Wondering why I am always left at home. Wondering why my cousin dad no matter how busy he will bring them out for supper or bring them out for fun and why my dad can't? wonder why other people can get good things from parents and I can't? They don't even know nowdays i hasn't been asking for money to buy stuff even clothing.. Last time I will ask every now and then but NOW i don't even dare to utter a word of money. Know why? They will say me off by saying me. hai. KNow what? I cried today, maybe because I find that I'm not living good in my life now! Full of stress yet no one understand. Not even the person I like, wonder why things change? Wonder why he choose her yet not me, wonder why I have to suffer so much. Wonder why i still cannot forget him, wonder why my life so sucky.. Why??? Why?? Why? ARGH..!!!!!!! I'm turing mad.. Real mad. haix..

By the way, today i was very busy copying answer for them. And I don't understand why they keep on complaining saying so many. Please think of me, i have to copy twice. One for myself one for you all, did i complain? And why you all keep complaining? Now i know why teachers are so stress. Sigh~ I've copy from Unit 21-28 for them. Know how tired is it? And some of them can play and talk without helping? what the fuck. Lucky Junzhuo helped me abit with it, if not I think I don't have the strenght to type anything now. Yeaps after lesson went to classroom to have EFW but we are told to go Sars room to do survey, after that Mrs Wo wants to go through answers. Yup, after her lesson when to canteen to eat and went home. Reach home switch on the computer and listen to songs. At 2+ like that I went to have a nap as i was too tired. Sleep till 5 I wake up. Then went to copy some BPF notes. And start watching tv from 5.30-6.30 and 7.00-10.00. Watched Happy Fish, Zhou 5 Yu Le Wang, Singapore Idol, Ren Wo Au You. Yeaps, nice. Singapore Idol know who are in? Daphne, Taufik, Sylvester, Olinda and Leandra. Christopher is out.. grr.. that's sad. Hmm, i remembered something in school today, people keep give comments on Singapore Idol, know what? I find it sucky for you people to give such bad comments. To be frank if you think you are clever you go and sing lah. What for comments so much.. kns.. hai. I think I have to stop here. Good Night peopLe..