Sunday, August 29, 2004
I cry while i was dreaming in the morning, and thats true.. I crys, really cry.. hai. it's about a dream of my family members, we was at a outing or party i think den my xiao gu said that she need to go back because there's something on at her place and asked if my dad and me wan to go anot, well i said yes and my dad of coz.. so we waited for car to come. while waiting i dunno why suddenly my dad was like rushing to the car and left mi alone there and my aunt de husband drive so fast without me, and i receive a message from my dad saying I love u what ever shit. so i cried.. i even shout..! hai... it's not the first time, but it has been long since i cry while dreaming.. i really don't know what to say u know.. haiz..
Yes, when i wake up i see no one at home. so i did not bother much but i called my mum to check if she eaten le mah as i want to go downstair to eat the Chicken Rice, it has been months i did not go and eat le.. but my mum say today got pray so got food to eat at home.. i was angry and i cry again.. hai.. den soon after that my mum came back, so i quickly go and help out abit in case later tio scolding.. so i go and kaypo i can say also.. Yesh, den pray my grandfather.. den ok ler we eat loh, while eating my dad told me that my ah ma need to go hospital as she need to stay in.. i was shock i tot what happen so i ask why no one told me..! hai, at the moment my heart abit sour.. den after that went to my grandma place(mum de mum), my baby cousin was actually sleeping but when my mum came i can say he can't sleep.. so carried him.. hehe.. kinda happy to see him again.. 2 weeks no see him le.. miss him.. :p.. and also heard from my third aunt saying that today was her birthday also, and my cousin(eileen and her brother) went to buy cake for her mum, i was so touched by what they did.. really touched.. coz i can say my ah yee is kinda xing fu with this daughter and son even though her son is abit notti... my biao jie bought Yam cake well i did not eat coz i have already gone home when they cut.. den soon after that we went off, i came back home for awhile before we bring my ah ma to hospital.. online den go off.. hai, u know what? after we finish doing that documental things we was at the ward outside.. me and my dad loh, coz only 2 of us accompany my ah ma go ma.. my dad cried.. u know my heart how pain? i understand how my dad feels, i know why he cry but i dunno how to say.. he's like keeping away from me just not to let mi know he cry but i know.. he asked mi to call my aunt but both not in.. i really think that my dad and mum is really the best son and son-in-law le, coz when my ah ma need to see doc both of them will bring her go even my dad got work.. he will take leave if my mum is sick, or my dad is always tolerating my mum when she complain about my ah ma.. i know how he feels... and my mum... i agree my dad de brother and sister really abit guo fen.. they duno what's going on.. and even if they know they wont HELP.. hai.. i dunno what to say loh.. haiz.. all i can do is cry.! hai.. i hope in future i dun give them trouble.. sorry..! yes after that around 4.15 we went off the hospital, my dad actually wanted to send mi to west mall but i think it's still early, so i say i go home first, so he went to my ah ma place to put my ah ma de bag.. den he told mi my aunt was there so i went up, after 10-15mins i went off with them, and my aunt de husband send mi to west mall.. thanks alot.. after that went to POSB there to take money.. den go Coffee bean look for places. waited for 30mins den got space.. abit diaoz right? den mrs tay called me and ask mi how the security tag is bring tag.. argh.. den huoyan came followed by weiling but we don't have the mood to study. sigh* den go makan den go walk walk den go buy bread.. den come back home record dollar, kinda funny but not nice loh.. they cut alot.. hai.. i think i end here le ba.. bye bye.. hai.. so sad u know... i feel like crying... I'm total a USELESS!!!! HAIZ...
BabyStridy fades away at
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