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EeeEeee... Sorry yesterday i did not update my blog because i am very busy and mood also... ok where should i start? ok.. yesterday was wednesday we had our Selling Skill Lessons and it went smoothly... That was great...~ Than it happen to be our Break. So we went to eat, we did not go out and eat because everyone want to save money... So after eating we went to the Library just to enjoy the air con... keke.. bad hor... keke... after that was Customer Relation Lesson, we were so tired and sleepy that almost everyone was asleep... yup we were told to do a assignment about the product and the mission and all kinds.. we did condom and we have been laughing thru out the whole thing we did... was really very funny and dirty man... keke.... siao sia we all... so prevert man... lols.... hmm than after than was Mrs Seam period we did not listen to her lesson but we were talking?and suddentLy my phone has a message it was from my brother girlfriend saying something very serious and make mi sad and and dont know what to do... she said she wanted to break with my brother.. i ask her why she say because whenever she go, at where, or fo out with parents also have to ask for permission... hais... forget also.. keke.. after that was Lunch and we went to the library to sleep, talk, rest. Was a very tired day but we have no choice because we have another lesson after that... so sucks... after Effective Lesson we(Yanbin,Shuyi,Derek and me) went to Jurong Point but actually we are going to Courseway Point but heard that Weiqi and gang are going i deceided to change to Jurong Point. keke.. we went to search for the present than we went to buy Anderson Ice-cream... Yummy Yummy.. Nice Nice... keke... While eating Yanbin and Shuyi went to sit at the second floor corner, Derek and me went to hunt for Handphone... lol... i saw LG 7100 it cost $198 so i decided to buy.. So after that i went back to find Yanbin they all because we wanted to take picture.. so we went and haha.. Shuyi was so Funny and make Yanbin and me Laugh until siao.. Got 2 girls from other school one also laughing at us... hahahahahahahahahahahah..... after taking we went home... was very sleepy and take a rest and when i wake up i saw my cousins de father. i din get a chance to say hello or call him as he is infront.. hehe... than when i reach home i ask my dad if he want to bring me go buy handphone anot... than he allow and we went to buy. waited for very long about 1hr like that... than manage to buy... kinda happy buy scare... EeEee.... keke.... Anyway HuIpin9 b`dae is just Friday...
ok end of Yesterday...

Well as for today, Yanbin and Jessie was late because Huipin9 and Siewfong did not tell them that they are not coming... well i wait from 7.55 to 8.32 like that... i was standing like hell.. my whole body was aching... but what to do no space to sit... hais... never mind... we did not go and eat we went straight to class and teacher was talking crap again.. so irritating... like hell~..... than after that we than went to buy something to eat... after that heard that teacher came den we went back to class to attend lesson... was jokking to teaccher that i was angry because she never give me chocolate... lols.. bad right? after that was break went to eat... and after that went to library to rest... was playing with handphone... hmm so sians... den after that go back for last 3 lessons.. so boring and the EFC teacher so unreasonable keep on scolding us... wtf.. so angry.. yup went home after sch... and was boring.. nothing to do.. and when my brother girlfriend was using my computer i send a message to test people for what to them am i..? i sms albert he reply Sand: and sand represant The one u wont care for.. i was rather sad ya.. but hais.. since i know the answer i wont bother u anymore... happy? hais...SAD... ok i shall stop here.. having a headache...

6:42:00 PM;

Sleepless night had come again... Yesterday while i wanted to go and sleep i was ownself practicing my Role Play.. and then when i could finish all.. i then went to sleep... and guess what... hais.. i can't sleep... has been turning left and right alot of times.. i even on the tv and watch Hollan V... and then i feel very boring.. i went online.. i online only for about 20 mins...and i start to scroll to my room. before that i pray and say that let mi sleep tmr got sch.. please... hais.. stupid right? but luckily i am able to sleep.. Yawn..~ i nearly can't wake up.. but i still manage... haha... was still okae in school ya... only jessie giving up Attitude for nothing? oh my goodness... what the hell man...~ and guess what? she had been so good to jiapeng... and i find that she is only using us... what the hell.. need us then come find us, don't need us she will hack care us... and if never wait for her she will kao bei.. and if want to wait for her she will drag... think u big? so next time if i see again i wont wait... don't think that you are a princess... pui.....~ yup was thinking should i buy handphone but if i buy i scare people say me copy them.. and if i want to buy same as yanbin i scare she not happy.. has been troubled... what can i do? hais... was having my Role play and guess what... i did a bad job.. argh.. almost going to scream out.. but mrs tay gave me a pass.... thanks...~ hmm then she came back to class at about 3.30 and we was chatting about don;t know what then we want to go off.. she don't let.. Then Weiling and jessie sang a song and she cannot ta han she let us off.. hehe.. was around 3.45 she let us off.. so i went home with huiping because she came over my house to use the computer as her computer spoilt..~ yup never say bye to yanbin when we drop off because we act angry... keke... and she came to find us in msn saying win ler loh never say bye... i ask huiping dun reply because i want to act angry.. keke... very bad rite? but haha.. who ask her.. no lar.. den online and chat around 7+ suddenly my computer like very lagging i get angry and i just scream and shouted and cry and hit the table with my hand..~ was gonna going to be mad.. i almost quarrel with paul but i think i did not... whats happening to annie...~ she has change... and i have been thinking who started the thing AP... now many things happened is becasue of Ap... hais.... i shall stop here and buai... my head is going to crack soon...~

9:42:00 PM;

Sucky Day today...in the morning was raining and patricia was waiting for us... so we was caught in the rain... yup having a headache..~ haiz.. ok i should start here.. we are having our lesson for Selling Skill well there was this new section head called Mr Wong came into our class and observe us... we are doin well... yuppy.. first time...~ and at 10 we are having our break... and guess what? haiz.. i think i am giving AP to siewfong and the table consist to 6 of them.. well i've got my reason.. 1. because catherine wanted me to shift and i shift huiping giv mi the face which means catherine about she Buai Zhi Dong.. well i get alittle angry and den when shuyi wanted to sit with jessie she say this and make mi more angry.. she say this is for Weiqi... keep repeating and i really cannot tahan loh...~ hais... well i agree i did give u all Attitude... I am Very s0rry... and after that was CRN and i get very headache and din really care what yanbin and group was talking.... another sorry for not joining you gals... hmm... den after that was OFC.. we were talking tru out.. and everyone was upset because of inviting people to huiping b`dae.. omg... yyyy must there be so many people? why can't only OQ? hais.. well i got no right to speak ya.. :P... so having our break we went out to eat.. MacDonal.... woOt.. borrow money from HuIpIn9..... return and borrow again... h0w bad am i? lolx..... and we went back for lesson which is in the lab.. and noe what... hais.. has been said by friend when i say myself ugly in hi5 profile.. so i delete everything and dun feel like using... hais.. sad.. and when i reach home i wanted to write testimonal for yanbin for hi5... TaMaDA... guess what... never receive.. was kinda long u noe.. sad sad sad... hais.. nvm loh.. next time den write.. hmm sad sad manz... hehe.. yap... i chat with a guy i know quite long ago.. and we had chat for quite long.. keke.. chat about love and work.. siao sia both of us...~ den i get very nervous and keep coughing.. siao sia.. ok i shall stop here... buai.. had a chat with Geraldine... buddy buddy... *CheErs*.. miss u all lots...~ MuaCkies...

9:44:00 PM;

Today i wake up at 9+... So after i wake up i faster go and bathe so that my mum wont scold me just for nothing ya... keke.. And surprising my dad wake up even more early than us... And he's also clever enough because he went to market to buy the stuff for tomorrow at coffee shop sell the food.. And none of us get scolding today.. was really very good.. keke... And guess what today we finally got a chance to eat with out family without planning ya... i find myself so Xin Fu... Even though we only had Chicken Rice but i find that this time round is the nicer Breakfast i ever had. Actually was wanting to go to my Grandmother house but my mum said she can't go because she went to a 'Jiu Song' yesterday and today my cute little naughty is coming down as just a precaution we did not go. Yup missed all my cousin man... haiz... but never mind i and my brother was actually wanting to go whereas my dad want to bring us there but i found out that I had not done my project.. So i say i can't go.. really sad wor.. but never mind lar... still got next week and many other days to see hIm de... keke... hmm was doing my project and chatting... I even played GunBound and write testimonal for friends... was rather busy today.. And my head was still painful... don't know what happen..~ argh... Yup I finish the report for my project.. But if not nice don't scold me ley.. because i don't really know how to do.. don't BLAME me Okae? keke.. *kOnG* kEkE.. yup today as i got nothing to do i go edit my blog and add something in it.. which was midi and my friends birthday... haha.. see lar.. i really got nothing better to do.. wahahaha.. ok ler loh.. i stop here le.. coz nothing to write le.. buai.. MuaCkiEs... *v* ^*^

8:15:00 PM;

Sleeping early yesterday wake me up at 7 somthing in the morning... As you know early in the morning where got people online so i went to play game and d/l songs.. and also watch Westside Story .. Upon doing all this actually was also waiting for them to come back... Because it's really very lonely ya... Hmm i was surpose to go to my aunt house but i din went because my head was in such a big pain that make me very xin ku... yup so here they come.... keke.. had a small chat with them and then contiune to watch vcd and tv... i heard a songs which i wanted to long ago so i went to channel to look for it... and oh my goodness i found onLy from 1 server and i was in Que 20 so because of that songs i wait... guess what i waited from 2+ to 10+.. wait until flower also dried le.. really buay ta han le.. well today my brother said he wanted to cook for us to eat so he cooked fried rice, drum stick, prawn and potato... actualli was very nice.. keke... had a wonderfuL dinner.. and today was really a kinda boring day for me too.. as i actually tot of going to my aunt place but i was bothered how to go home after that so i din went.. ='( i miss my cousin.... :P.. shall stop here coz my head was stil very painfuL... nitey...

10:43:00 PM;

Was suppose to meet Patricia 7.30 in School. But I receive her message in the monring saying that she won't be going to school. Upon hearing that i get very very blur wheather to go school or not to go. Or to go for Assembly or not to go. I even message Derek and Kwai Fong and ask, both their answer are see first.. I get even BLUR by then. So i decided to go to school because today's Mrs Ho last lesson with us. Felt sad because such a good teacher left us but heard that she will be back by July because she is having a in course training. If it's not because of her i don't think i am going to school so early. So i went to school i reach class which is 8.20 teacher thought i went to camp also. She did not conduct any lesson. So she asked me to help her keep record for the Survey we did. And we manage to finish by the end of the time. keke.. Well it's really very sad to have such teacher not teaching us. but what can we do. ='(. And after her lesson was Mrs Tays' lesson but we were told to proccee to the hall to listen to the safety talk. was so boring. The talk ended after 50minutes and by the time it ends its the next period which was Thinking Skills and was asked to conduct Role Play. well actually I wanted to have it today because the faster i finish the faster i can relax myself. But when it's our turn JunZhuo and me get nervous and he even requested for a seconda chance and Mrs Tay ask us wheather to conduct today or Tuesday so both of us agreed Tuesday. And by the time i finish only Weiling was with me and she went to Library without letting me know and also i was carrying Jennifer and Kwai Fond bag which i need to pass to them in the canteen. So i went to the canteen and find them. by the time i reach they had almost finish eating so i did not eat. i sit with derek they all and wow liao only me girl was very pai seh loh. so i bought a cup of Pesi. After finish drinking i request them to go Library so we went there to sit and 4 of us was playing with our game on the Handphone. haiz. It's mine first time without eating from morning till noon. After that was OFC but guess what Mrs Seam wasn't here and we even ask the malay teacher to let us off because everyone don't feel like staying there. and the teacher agreed.. so good of her. and we went home. i was actually wanting to go to my aunt house but i was too tired and went to sleep. Yawn i slept from 2+ to 6+. and i was still doing nothing loh. haiz.. without those girls around really can be mad manz.. Somemore if got people accompany me i wont be so boring but not even one was here with me. ='(.. i shall stop here and contiune to shack infront of my computer. YAWN... SO BORING WITHOUT YOU GIRLS AROUND...

8:25:00 PM;

Today was a hottie day... Today they were late.. Normally they will reach at at around 7.50-8am but today they reach at 8.12 like that. Was waiting until like going to die and my back was in such a pain. don't know why.. well today nothing really happen loh... today everybody was like so mad.. and they on waiting for 2 pm to come so that they can go to the chalet... running here and there and walking in and out of the office and as if the office belongs to us.. lolx... haiz.. heard that mrs ho is not going to teach us lers.. was kinda sad.. =( HuMpZ... yup today they went off at 2pm and 2.15 was mrs tay period know what? she even ask me wanna go say good bye to them anot.. i was so happy and rush to the hall... but they like no reaction ley.. =(.. ya loh.. without them hor really very jia lat.. become so lonely and get nothing to do.. but after school we went up to the office to find mrs tay. guess what before we manage to wait for her patricia, j0seph, huoyan, jennifer, kwai fong and us was playing but mainly only j0seph and me was playing. LoLx.. then become kwai fong and j0seph turns... lolx.. we are like siao ppl like that.. and was raining when going back.. but is those tiny little rain.. while walking towards the gate there pat and me saw yanbin they all in the bus and we wave to each other and there we go..keke.. yup reach home and on my monitor coz didn't off it in the morning.. and haiz... no one was online..had a small chat with danny and then no more.. so borning... =(... miss him liao lar.. how? but wil they miss me? they must be over there having fun.. and i change my msn to bOrInG.. LoLx.. LaME Rite? and tiffany come and accompany me chat... haiz.... i hate one guy whom i used to be getting along well with.. argh.... hate him lots... shall stop here.. coz nothing to write ler.. nitey...

7:14:00 PM;

Hmm.. Today ar? Let me recall what had happened. Every morning after they had reach bus stop they will look very tired and moody. Yet recently i find that Siewfong is like never really talk to me like that loh. And don't know what happen Jessie give us Attitude. And some more when i wanted to wake her up she don't want to answer and she even change her place.. What the Hell is that...haiz.. Yup today was having Selling Skill in the morning and we were told to go to Smart Room 5. So we went and Mrs Tay was telling us about the survey we had done she look sad and her eye get red. Everyone of us was very worried and keep on asking her not to cry by saying Teacher We Love You don't sad. keke... And hehe Patricia hor when she update her blog she say that is Siewfong make her cry de.. lolx.. so bad hor.. And you all know what? Siewfong let us see her pantis which got Elephant Tail de.. so cute.. lolx... And some of them had their Role Play. Heard that so far no one fail but Ayu, Efah and Weiling one was being rejected and Ayu cried. haiz.. So after that we had our Break and we went to Canteen to eat our Breakfast + Lunch. While eating we saw 2 birds don't know how come keep catching each other and when it's going to fall to our direction everyone shouted... and almost everyone looked at us. =Xx Hmm after our Break was CRN and when it's about to start the lesson haha most of us slept. so bad hor.. teacher thought her teaching very dry. =(.. and after that was OFC lesson and the teacher can say is very good can say she very Talkative manz.. Keep on talking non stop.. OmG......!!!! and after her lesson was our Lunch but we did not go and eat because we had it 2 hrs before. so we went to the Library to complete my project and for Huiping they all i don't know they all doin what. Yup can say that they did not do the project lor. But anyway i never blame you all.. Because................... lalalala.. no lar... because h0r.... never do never do lor. lolx.. i know not funny lar.. but never do got next time lor.. next time you all finish hor.. keke no lar.. just kidding. as long as got people do or in others word is got complete in time i very happy ler still care who got do who never. =X..;P hmm after our break was EFC we did not have our lesson instead we went to Library. We had a small chat with Mrs Tay while some of them are doing their project and some are talking to themself and some who treat Library as their home.. hahahaha... Hey you all know i refering to who right? LoLx... Yup it's you. The 4 of you who are at the corner taking books and throwing on the floor huh.. and taking Lame pictures ar.. LoLx.... So funny.......~!~!~!~!~! haha.. Yup after school i went home myself by takeing 173 instead of 963 because i say if 173 come first i take if 963 come first i take. so it was 173 lor. in the bus was so tired and when reach home i on computer and play till now.. yuppy my friends are goin to Camp tomorrow. I know they sure will enjoy themselve and where got time miss me... =( I think is i miss you all instead of you girls missing me wor.. because over there you all can enjoy amoug yourself me have to suffer in school.. and girls take care ya... Hope when u all come back will be very good with each other and make sure no quarreling at there wor.. =) Enjoy yourself baz... Doubt i will need to be lonely for another 2 days? yup thats right.. and you know what? Catherine called and told me that she saw Albert. haiz when i heard this my heart was like no feeling. Does it show that i don't like him anymore? i don't know but all i know was sometime i miss him like hell and sometime just find that i am a stupid girl... =(.. after all My Dear OQ classmate who are going to camp do take care and i will sure miss you all one espically my 5 years friends... =D~ good night and MisS ya.. MuaCkZ......................

7:58:00 PM;

well basically today nothing really happen much in school only there was one incident that we are in the bus when Catherine was seated and was saying Huiping don't sit hor i am behind you then i don't know how come Huiping just say her back. Then i was very pissed off and i just say back to Huiping saying Shut Up. Hey i am sorry because I don't think that's a need to have this kind of arguement lor. Yea you hate her alot but what to do? we are in the same class and we are friends.. We can't because of unhappiness and quarrel thats not good loh.. For example we don't like jess but we still treat her as normal friends so we should not make things so difficult loh... and sometime we hate a person but we also have to torolate w0r.. =D~ Well i have also trying my very very best to Torolate you whenever i don't like the way you talk and the way you present yourself but i never even show u attitude but sometimes got loh.. =xX anyway i apologies... hMm during our break we went to eat Japanese Food was rather nice very full after that we went to Big Bookstore and buy Gilttle. then we went back to school and at the bus stop saw 1 more of Joseph friends i find her very familar wor. she was my mother at coffe shop seLL Fish Ball Noodle friend. She introduce herself. and we went back to school. yuppy was having Mrs Tay lesson for the last 3 period and you know what some of them had their Role Play.. and so far no one fail. Hurrary.. keke.. wan't my turn yet ya. so happy also no use. i did a few reharasal with Junzhuo after that we were waiting for teacher to allow us to enter the room. we were told to do a survey and after that was our free time. and you all know what? When Mrs Tay wanted to beat my Backside her hand the don't know what thing cut my hair. then i kay siao go and dee siao her.. very bad h0r... keke.. then after school we didn't go for training we went to yanbin house but actually we are suppose to go jessie house but her house don't have Powerpoint. then we do around 6+ we went off ler.. and i was suppose to walk to interchange but i kay siao accompnay jessie go plaza and when goin home that time. I saw Albert and haiz he didn't saw me and I find that I am abit rude by smsing him saying Wow Dao Ler Lor. I just walk Past you ley.. his reply was i nv saw u. Realli. and we start to sms rubbish loh.. keke.. was kinda happy but sad tto saw him.. i admitted i perposly wanna go plaza so that maybe i got chance to see him and the time has come but he didn't saw me... argh... Sad wor... HuMpZ... kekE... ok ler loh.. shall stop here.. buai...

9:38:00 PM;

many things start to drift away from me... sometime i don't know how to control myself, sometime i used it by crying secretly when i am going to bed or when i am watching sad tv programme. it will be very horrorible if i cry because i will start to think of things that i have done. sometime i feel very sad. but who shouLd i turn to? my friends? i agree they are my good friends but i guess if i tell them they will get troubled by me or mayb they themselve already have problem which i don't know. well maybe all this thing i said are all rubbish. you all will say i think too much but i am NOT... this are all from my heart that i have been keeping.. well basically today i went to school the first period was mrs tay lesson she plan to give us role play but the whole class wasn't ready yet. she get angry but she can't bear to yell at us. then they are all discussing about the chatlet things... as for me i was doing nothing as the thing they do dose not involve me. i kept quiet and was listening to 93.3.. and when we are having OFC we at first wasn't listening to mrs seam. we are all playing Game.. we are so lame.. =Xx but ok lohs.. she never do anything to us lars... haha.. den after OFC we went to have our lunch at Clementi Central then we are separted into 2 parts 3 of us which contains weiling, aijuan and me and the rest went to eat japan food. after we finish eating we went to find them then we went to popular. then don't know how come Huiping told me that they plan to buy Jisaw Puzzle for Mr Ng then i was ok loh.. not a bad idea. so i decided to call cindy and ask her she agreed.. hehe so we had a small talk. and then some of us decided not to go back for lesson because we are already running late. and this was the first time i didn't turn up for lesson. then after buying the item from popular we went back to school to take our bag to Jurong Point we went there walk walk and go see the Jisaw Puzzle. but we bought nothing. then we took bus to yanbin house. when in the bus i suddenLy turn sleepy so i slept for a while. we walk to yanbin house and then we went to play computer. haiz... computer computer computer.. i was pissed of when it come to computer thing. i just don't understand why computer make us nearly get pissed off... i don't know how to say loh.. we are there to do projects but yet you are using computer to check others thing.. haiz. still never mind after that don't know what thing make me turn sad and moody.. haiz.. sorry gals if i show attitude.. but i really get pissed off.. argh... as i know you all need to do the Banner i allow you all to do instead of doing projects but in the end siewfong help me do. yup thaNks to her. i am very unhappy with someone who only sit down there and give comments without doing anything. yet i didn't blame you lor. it's fine with me ya. just hope that we can finish the project as soon as possible. yup while watching tv aiy0z... Huoyan message me and ask me one word which he wants the meaning i don't know why i get angry and pek chek after receiving his messgae... argh.. so fucked uP.. HuMpZ... left yanbin house at 8+ haiz sometime i find that some of you all the parents don't like me. feeling upset loh. today was not really a happy day for me. just feel like crying and my head is cracking. what's happening to me? and when i reach home was around 8.50 went to bathe came out was around 9 and i ate my dinner and you know what i saw in my fridge. i saw my favourite drink which my mum brew it's the Cyrsentiment(spelling error) tea.. YuMmy YuMmy... kEkE.. thanks Mum.. =D~...

9:41:00 PM;

waking up late in the morning cause me and my mum quarrel. it's only that i wake up abit late i get scolded. and never mind while i wanted to go and answer her phone call i fell down when i came out of the toilet. i was like so suay lor. still never mind i then answer the phone and get scolded. really unlucky. and beside her was a friend of hers that i don't like she was saying this that make me even angry. haiz. i even cry.. and while changing i also fell down. see how unlucky am i. i even nearly quarrel with my dad. and when in the car my mum say she want to go and wash her hair and we are already out know what she say she say she thought i won't be so fast. i get more pissed off and i just shouted at her. but she is the one who starts first. so we drive my brother to west coast there and then we went to eat. after eating we went to my grandma house. i thought my small cute little cousin will be there but he wasn't so sad. it has been so long i hasn't seen him. keke my this cousin got alot of nickname by everybody so cute. then we all was at my grandma house from 11.30 - 1 because we are all watchin Huan Zhu Ge Ge.. was very nice loh. then i went home and had some chat with my friend then create a quiz and wanted my friend to do. but some of them computer was lagging so didn't do. and suddenLy Derek called me and ask me where am i. i sae i am at home then they say they are coming up. oh my god. all are guys so i tried to ask huiping but she can't den i asked weiqi. she actually don't want to come one. but don't know why in the end she came. so happy. kEke.. den in the end we had fun. ya they did do project but is only huoyan doing keke.. around 6.30 we went to the nearby coffee shop to buy food to eat. after eating we all start to watch tv. then while watching sijun and weiqi was playing and fighting. oh my goodness so funny. everyone only buwee weiqi. so ke lian. and the show end at 10.35 and they watch until finish then they went off. and i find that this week the show wasn't good enough last week is even better. haiz. but yet this is the first time i watch tv with my friend until so late.. keke.. lame i know.. and something disappoint me. it's the quiz i ask my friend to do.. yanbin and huiping only 50%. sad sad ley.. HuMpZ... =( ok lars.. shall stop here and go and sleep ler.. buai good night...! MuaCkZ...

10:53:00 PM;

Sleeping late yesterday night dosen't allow me to wake up on time today. Today i was suppose to wake up at 5.00am but after my alarm clock ring i off it and return back to sleep. Luckily my dad came to my room to take something if not i won't be able to go to the Walk a Jog today. Yup i wake up at 5.30 today and went to bathe. while bathing catherine called me but i didn't answer and when i was out of the toilet it's already 6.05 i called catherine and tell her i will be late. And i also receive message from Patricia saying she may not be able to meet us. Yup by the time Shuyi hasn't wake up. She woke up at 6.15. And when Catherine and me had meet and walking towards MRT station i get a call from my classmate saying she will be late. So when we reach MRT we saw Derek, Kwai Fong, Huo Yan and SiJun. Then slowly more people come.. While waiting we went to buy food to eat. I ate Mee Goreng. Then after that we had a small talk and fool around, was quite fun. Around 7.05 we set off to take 176. We walk n walk and we reach when we reach the bus st0p Patricia called and ask where are we. So i told her and she came just after the bus went off. So i ask her faster come and she ran still never mind when she i going to reach I shouted Patricia the bus come then she run again while running siewfong and me was laughing so she realise that we bluff her. keke.. Sorry Patricia. keke.. After some minute the bus came and we took then when I don't know what happen because some people drop down and Yanbin they also follow then no choice we all have to drop off too. hehe. So Funny. But never mind i also don't really know where to drop. So we follow some of our senior. And we also drop off at the wrong bus stop so we need to walk to Car Park 2 it took us 5-10 minuntes to reach. When we reach everyone was so tired and sweaty. So we went to look for starting point and when we know where got assembly le theres a man keep on talking crap and make us stand under sun. And after the event starts we walk for about 3-5 minutes we went off. hehe.. so bad of we.. but i think it would be boring too. 1 hour to finish man. When we see not many people ler we decided to take bus. Then we took and in the bus we discuss where to go. We went to eat breakfast without letting her know. And you know what SiJun nearly lost his wallet if we never notice it. So careless of him. And after eating they came to my house for awhile and you know what? Huiping and Siewfong bathe and Yanbin and Derek was sleeping. Pig wor both of them.. keke. My house like very good to sleep wor.. everytime come sure got people sleep 1. =xX hEhE.. after they left only me alone at home with my brother as my mum went out. My brother ask me to help him with the Tape recorded and keep on shouting at me while me watchin vcd i get angry and say i don't know how lar he scold me with lots of Vulgar words. haiz. Then i was waiting for 2.30 to come because i want to watch the Repeat Telecast of NKF charity show, you all know what I watch until i fell asleep. When i wake up the show was over. Yawn when i wake up i get dizzy and headache + sleepy. YawnS~ ok ler loh. currently i am watchin tv. good nitez.. enj0yed myself today loh.. =)

7:37:00 PM;

hmm... basically today was ok in sch... dunno y something happen to me during OFC lesson.. i myself dunno y... juz felt so sad and moody.. dunch noe y... yup i didn't show it.. haiz.. den after sch go bathe den go work le.. today nv sell anything.. frankLy speaking i didn't even approach up to 10 ppl from 4+ loh.. i dunno y.. i juz feel like giving up.. den when i wanna go approach i will like cannot sae anythin.. haiz... den that make mi lost confident loh... well huiping manage to sell finish and yanbin sold 2 tic... for me.. i SELL NOTHING... sorri gals... i nv put in afford... and plus mi wanna quit le.. haiz.. i felt so USELESS... anyway... i didn't evem help u all sell anything.. is u and bin... i onli stand there and SEE onli... argh... really useless loh... den actualli wanted to go meet fond with ping they all.. but in the end i nv go.. sorri gals.. go ahead and blame mi baz... ARGH.. den in bus with catherine coz we take 176 i was listenin to 93.3 when i first start to play.. its a sad songs.. which is First Love... haiz.. listen le my tear was rolling in my eye.. argh.. ok lars.. igo lee.. mi no mood to write and tmr needa go walk A Jog... nite nite... SoRrI GaLs.. I MisS 4T1 aNd yOU...

10:45:00 PM;

today super tired.. morning nearly wake up late.. luckily my mum come back.. if not i sure still sleep like pig.. keke... coz yst 11+ den sleep.. so tired after work.. argh.. in sch nothin much happen wor.. kEkE... hMm.. we had our Role Play... referred to our script.. vert jia lat loh. keke.. after sch went home loh.. after that go find cindy.. cut hair.. kEkE... hMm still the same her... i was very tired le. so i cannot wait for her mum to come back so i ask my dad to fetch me home.. today bin they all go work hope they sell well.. kEkE... ok lars stop here.. buai.. Tired.. =,-

9:48:00 PM;

today super tired.. morning nearly wake up late.. luckily my mum come back.. if not i sure still sleep like pig.. keke... coz yst 11+ den sleep.. so tired after work.. argh.. in sch nothin much happen wor.. kEkE... hMm.. we had our Role Play... referred to our script.. vert jia lat loh. keke.. after sch went home loh.. after that go find cindy.. cut hair.. kEkE... hMm still the same her... i was very tired le. so i cannot wait for her mum to come back so i ask my dad to fetch me home.. today bin they all go work hope they sell well.. kEkE... ok lars stop here.. buai.. Tired.. =,-

9:48:00 PM;

well.. yst i didn't sleep well.. coz hor... affter i sleep... around 12+ SIEWFONG call me... u noe y? she so cute... ask mi here got blackout anot.. den i aso very lame loh.. giv her this LAme answer which is.. Haha... here dun hab ley.. den after that she sae.. u dun happy later u there tio den u noe.. better be carefuL.. i was like okok lar.. keke.. den hor.. after i put down my phone rite? den h0r.. tell u all something hor.. i sae haha rite.. but i keep on lookin at my air con see got blackout anot.. somemore my parents not at home.. den i wanted to go toilet aso dun dare.. keke.. den when my mum was back.. i tell her.. den i dunno is i dream or wat it's sae.. i tot tmr den blackout? kEkE... super lame rite? haha.. den hor todae aar? ITE clementi head news was.. my house there blackout den got something funni happen.. was so funni loh.. kEkE.. den after that nothin really happen in sch loh.. den after sch go Outrum we like already start work like that.. so stress.. and one thing.. my Leader so good.. he help mi take bag, teach mi alot of things. wow he help mi take bag as if my bf.. =Xx.. LoLx.. annie dun think too much.. he even help mi sell.. so good of him.. =Xx not promoting him ar.. hes mine.. OopPpSss... kEkE.. ok lar.. kinda enjoy..WOW now wat time liao? still here.. go sleep.. nitez... MuaCKZ...

10:36:00 PM;

todays morning fill up my day.. you all want to know why? it's because i told my mum about the job thing. she nv scold.. she still ask me what job and how much... and her last message was u study hard is better... =x. heard le so happy... keke.. yea... but heard yanbin say siewfong not coming to sch due to family problem.. haiz... without her in sch was like so sianz... coz she is the joker baz... haiz.. was kinda sianz loh.. yea 3rd period we already go out sch eat le.. we took 2 hrs to go out and go back sch.. keke.. we went to eat KFC.. so expensive manz.. 6+ wor.. wow piang... haiz haiz.. den after tat was Dot tay lesson.. we having jokes and was like not a classroom.. mrs tay so childish sia.. take paper throw ppl.. siao.. haha.. ok lar.. tmr den i contiune coz i wanna go sleep.. i kinda down after watchin tv.. buai... okok let mi contiune... keke.. well.. after sch we went for our training.. as i dun wanna go.. but was being force to go.. so i went.. den i realize is that yanbin she wanna go taekwondo den she wan go de.. kaoz.. bluff me sia.. den go learn how to serve ball.. yea can hit over.. so happy... went back at 5+ den yanbin came my hse.. my mum was at home... so cooked and ask yanbin to try.. haha.. lame.. den yanbin say i put Du in the drink.. but i find it strange.. if got Du y i drink nothin wrong ar? lolx.. okok lar.. shall stop here...

9:51:00 PM;

well actualli this blog is publush in sch... as my house computer hav virus... so i dun dare to use.. hahaha.. stupid computer.. VIRUS VIRUS VIRUS haiz... den today ar... sianz loh.. coz in thr morning hor.. jessie didn't meet them... so i was wired loh.. but aiya.. actualli is mine fault lor... but after sch or some how some where.. she tok to huiping.. there was a job introduce by my teacher so we all plan to go and take a look.. ya.. actualli i dun wan go de.. coz i feel abit sianz.. but den i still go lars.. hahahahah... wow got 10 ppl go... and we tot got a bus go from our sch outside.. some1 sae is 105 so we ask the bus uncle... the uncle sae got.. den we was like ok we took the bus.. den we sit ans sit and sit liao i find it very wired le.. i ask siewfong to ask but she was on the phone. den wanted to ask huiping to ask.. but she sae wait and see.. den i see like goin to reach orchard le.. den i faster go ask.. uncle tot we sae go orchard.. lolx.. den we all was like OMG... outrum aso can hear until orhcard.. diaoz.. but luckily got bus to outrum... kEkE... so we took.. den when we reach we were told where to go.. so we went.. den when we enter we saw a pool table.. den huiping they all keep on saying wanna play.. was like... haiz.. no comments lar.. den i actuali dun wan fill in the form one.. coz i dunno.. but i heard is whole group interview i faster fill... den they play a match... den our turn le.. the interview was stil alright loh.. 10 ppl in the room... haha.. like no body cares... den after interview they all want to play.. den f0ng play with a guy... even is we lose but aso no choice.. coz that guy tOO PrO... after that we all go home.. mi shuyi and cat take same train.. den in the train we all keep on distrubing shuyi.. keke.. bad sia.. ok alrs.. reach home i actualli wanna ttell mummy abt the job.. but i scare she scold.. den she aso not at home.. so i tell my dad... he snv sae anything.. den at the same time my brother sae he need to stay in army.. so he was very sad.. he cry.. i see his pattern i very sad aso.. my dad more worst.. he keep on saeing aiya nvm one lar.. u will xi guan one lar.. den his eye aso red red.. kns.. i see them like that i dun dare tok much... i feel like smsing my brother ask him take care but i dun dare.. haiz sad sad... ='(... ok lars should stop here... buai and take care... MuaCkZ...

9:55:00 PM;

You have this friend since elementary and after college the both of
you never talk to each other or call each other anymore.
But she is someone really special to you, and you're someone very
special to her too..
5 years later you receive a phone call from her...
"Hi Michelle, I'll visit you" she said

"Hi, Leah, when?" you asked her

"Just wait for me" she replied....
It seems weird but you prepared for her coming anyway.
One rainy night you heard a knock on the door.

And you're surprised to see that it's your friend, Leah.
Losing touch for 5 yrs. is long so the both of you talked about
everything.

The both of you even went to your room upstairs.
Suddenly there's a blackout So the 2 of you talked in candle light.
Then the phone rang.....

"I'll just get the phone downstairs" you said since there's no phone
upstairs.

"No.... don't get it, we're in the middle of our girl talk" she said
"It might be important," you said
"okay if you say so, but promise me you'll be back.." she said.
So you promised her a million times that you'll be back.
Then you ran downstairs to answer the phone...

"Hello," you said
"Hi, is this Michelle?" the person in the other line asked
"yeah," you said wondering who is it...
"I called on behalf of Leah's family, they had a tragic accident and
her
parents are in the hospital right now..." he continued

"and Leah?" you asked forgetting that Leah is upstairs.

"She died.." he said, then he hanged up.
You slowly put the phone down and looked at the long stairs...
WOULD YOU GO BACK?
as you promised...

9:48:00 PM;

MY DEAR FRIEND, When you are sad
I will dry your tears. When you are scared
I will comfort your fears.

When you are worried
I will give you hope. When you are confused
I will help you cope.
And when you are lost
and can't see the light. I shall be your beacon
shining ever so bright.
This is my oath
I pledge till the end.Why you may ask
because you're my friend.

today went to city hall to meet jaime fan club ppl.. den go bye present for guohao. after that go home alone by taking 700 i fell asLeEp... den keep thinking of things.. well i miss my friends... those i hasn't seen for age... haiz.. i miss them alot.. when i goin to reach interchange i decided to go Bukit Panjang walk walk and bye something.. den i go myself.. i walk like as if i gonna die le.. haiz..so sad.. den i go home.. reach at around 4.10.. den play pool ahile.. den do nothin and wait for 7pm to come.. haiz.. my tear start to drop since 7pm... haiz.. juz can't control myself.. everytime when i watch this kinda of show.. my tears will automatic drop... haiz... i really feel that i am more XIN FU den them.. but i dunno how to zhen Xi.. haiz.. so sad... hope tmr a brand new day for mi loh... buai buai.. thanks for u all de concern... thanks thanks... yanbin hor..she ask mi go see her msn nick which sae.. Eat Lemon. make my heart sour and tears drop down... AW...... sharon au performer make every1 worried for her.. haiz..

9:36:00 PM;

today ars.. early morning 9.30 go jurong entertainment meet my friends and eat there.. so that later 11 we can go the NKF thing together.. well actualli yanbin
and huiping wasn't at the same group with us.. yanbin at first dulan us.. but wat to do? our fault meh.. haiz.. den after that thanks to catherine and shuyi allow
them to chage.. so we 5 ppl go Thiong Baru... wow liao.. no ppl one.. not sae no ppl.. is got but some dun wan take... some giv wired comments.. like i dun think
i need this.. wow piang.. siao... some ask need money anot.. den when siewfong and huiping they all finish le keep on lefting mi... so they keep on helpin mi take
and distrubute.. den still left mi last one.. omg.. sorri gals.. i so slow... yanbin inbetween we giv.. den after we finish le we all walk walk at the malls there.. den wait
for weiqi they all come. but we wait until so sianz liao. dunno who think of go play pool.. den we meet at Outraum MRT to wait for Paul.. he was kinda slow and
we all keep on askin huiping to ask him faster come. hehe.. bad hor we.. den we went to Plaza Singapure there... we walk fom PS to PArk Lane.. wow kinda far..
den we went to play pool. after some round we go eat.. den after finish eating we all stil haben go.. we was sitting at the Food Court to discuss later wan go where.
actualli is go Energy de.. but i dun wan.. so we tok and sit there for another 30mins i think.. haha.. we are the most noisy table over there.. den siewfong and
huiping dunno wan to work anot. so they all nv go.. haha.. aiy0z.. u 2 h0r.. power.. but u all sae de no wrong. since u al say NKF thin until 9+ liao.. stil go
sure they will sae u all lie de.. so siewfong went to look for bf.. den huiping go meet her friends.. den aijuan, me, catherine,weiqi and shuyi went to esplanade
to wait for yanbin.. den at around 6+ weiqi go off le.. she wanna to hospital.. her uncle was admitted to hospital.. haiz.. den yanbin came.. we all after that go buy
strawberry with chocolate.. wow.. so nice.. wow.. yummy yummy.. every1 buy 2.. except for shuyi... keke. den yanbin say she hungry we den walk to marina mall
or wat place eat.. den after that we go home le.. den me, shuyi and cathrine at the bus tok alot of rubbish.. lolx.. we acutlli tot of tok until 9.30 den we take bus
go home from jurong de.. den suay suay both our bus come.. keke...den we go off by den.. den mi and cat was aso tokin abt the past... haha.. lame rite...
den she drop off ler den after 2 stop is mine stop den i reach home le i online den go bathe.. den after that 12+ go sleep.. wow so sianz.. tmr needa go meet FC
ppl.. ok lar shall stop here... good nite.. today kinda tired... buai buai.. muackz...

11:35:00 PM;

well. today is Good friday so we need not go sch.. we plan to go weiqi hse... to cook and to walk vcd.. so i actualli meet huiping, siewfong and jessie at bp de..
but i was goin to be late den i nv.. i take 173 to clementi.. wow piang.. 173 so long sit until my butt pain pain.. when i reach siewfong they all den reach... den
derek aso reach ler.. we went to NTUC to buy stuff... buy buy buy until 26+.. hehe... den while waiting for weiling i saw jessie listenin to disc man.... and we
wanna tok to her aso difficult.. so i aks her can u dun listen for once.. she dunno sae wat lar.. den ok loh.. forget it.. weiling came and we took cab... 4 and 3...
weiling pay cab fare for us... coz we all share money buy the food things ler.. den reach weiqi hse.. we all at first was playing with computer.. all this and that...
den after that huiping starts to cook... wow.. so nice.. kEkE.. den when everything cook finish le.... we all eat le. jessie say she dun wan eat.. wow lao.. was
pissed off.. den forget it loh.. den siewfong and her stead and huiping watchin the vcd dunno how to spell the name... keke.. i didn't watch coz i dunno wat
tokin the show.. hehe. den was at the room.. haiz... sianz... den around 4+ 5 they all wanna go work le.. den all go off.. den we at first wanna go orchard de..
den derek say his friend wanna play pool. so we follow him.. den we play first.. until 6+ we went to eat den go back play.. play until 10 i and bin go back...
reach clementi at 10.15 all my dad ask him come fetch mi and i sae.. i reach le faster come.. so i wait.. wait n wait n wait around 10.40 he still not here..
den nvm loh.. i call him... he sae he tot i haben reach... den i get pissed of when he reach there i sae him..reach home around 11.10 like that den online until
12+ den go sleep... so bad 0f me..haiz... if tmr no event i wont loh.. haiz.. argh... ok lars.. bye.. not very good mood... =,-

12:34:00 AM;

well. today is Good friday so we need not go sch.. we plan to go weiqi hse... to cook and to walk vcd.. so i actualli meet huiping, siewfong and jessie at bp de.. but i was goin to be late den i nv.. i take 173 to clementi.. wow piang.. 173 so long sit until my butt pain pain.. when i reach siewfong they all den reach... den derek aso reach ler.. we went to NTUC to buy stuff... buy buy buy until 26+.. hehe... den while waiting for weiling i saw jessie listenin to disc man.... and we wanna tok to her aso difficult.. so i aks her can u dun listen for once.. she dunno sae wat lar.. den ok loh.. forget it.. weiling came and we took cab... 4 and 3... weiling pay cab fare for us... coz we all share money buy the food things ler.. den reach weiqi hse.. we all at first was playing with computer.. all this and that... den after that huiping starts to cook... wow.. so nice.. kEkE.. den when everything cook finish le.... we all eat le. jessie say she dun wan eat.. wow lao.. was pissed off.. den forget it loh.. den siewfong and her stead and huiping watchin the vcd dunno how to spell the name... keke.. i didn't watch coz i dunno wat tokin the show.. hehe. den was at the room.. haiz... sianz... den around 4+ 5 they all wanna go work le.. den all go off.. den we at first wanna go orchard de.. den derek say his friend wanna play pool. so we follow him.. den we play first.. until 6+ we went to eat den go back play.. play until 10 i and bin go back... reach clementi at 10.15 all my dad ask him come fetch mi and i sae.. i reach le faster come.. so i wait.. wait n wait n wait around 10.40 he still not here.. den nvm loh.. i call him... he sae he tot i haben reach... den i get pissed of when he reach there i sae him.. so bad 0f me..haiz... if tmr no event i wont loh.. haiz.. argh... ok lars.. bye.. not very good mood... =,-

12:07:00 AM;

Nothing much to write... mayb can sae i no mood to write baz... whats happenin to everybodi? haiz... pLease Cheer uP... buai.. good nite... felt so sad suddenLy.. i think i am goin to fall sick ba..

8:51:00 PM;

Being scolded early in the morning make my day so moody... totally feel like crying.. really no mood.. sorry ppl for givin u all faces... i really dunno wat to do... i dunno y my mum are so unreasonable... scold me earLy in the morning for window and many things that are not my fault... really damn stress... y always mi the one who get scolding.. u think i go sch to play? haiz.... i prefer u go to work den at home nagging at me.. i noe sometime u treat mi good but i juiz hate the way that early in the monring i get scolding my u... make mi sad and feel like dying... really sad... haiZ.. y my family can't have a peaceful day... sometimes i dun feel like goin home... dun feel like coming to sch... but i can't.. if onli i can.. argh.. was so sad... den in class jessie and huiping went to do the necklace den siewfong wanna see our hand NOT long enough to PASS to each other so i use throw... den jessie sae mi.. sae DUN THROW ley... haiz.. ok lar.. next time i dun touch u all de things liao.. ok... den went for our break at clementi central... den we was like eat liao still not enough.. den we all order congee... den we went back to sch by bus.. while we are walking we are chatting about the past.. which make every body luff till siao... when we reach sch.. we went to our CRN lesson... den teacher let us out at 11.50 den we got nothing to do we went to OFC classroom outside to sit and listen to songs... den when we can go in we realise that our teacher wasn't here.. den mrs ho ask we all go hall to see the programe.. den ok loh.. was rather sianz manz... haiz.. den after that was our Lunch but we nv eat as the first Break we have ate... so we went to the library.. and siewfong,weiling went back... ya.. i dun wanna go back as i noe i go back early sure kanna scolding... haiz.. den yanbin wanted to go home.. if u wanna go den go loh.. i nvm one... if not later both parties not happy aso not good.. den decided to stay.. we went to the library to enj0y the air-c0n.. den when time goin up we went to the classroom.. den feel like eating the yoghurt den we buy.. juz nice teacher come... den nvm... she giv us attitude... den nvm i went to the canteen to eat... idoit when i step in classroom she nag again.. was so angry.. suay manz... not happy with us sae lar.. dun show attitude for nothing please h0r.. we are also human h0r... idoit... den we abt 2.30 den go back classroom we heard ppl sae attendance was mark as 0... mark mark loh.. think we wanna come ur lesson.. u think we like u so much... go and die.. think too much... can be good in times..can be bad... like fck loh.. kns... take bus den phone rang, den i didn;t heard it at first.. den i call back and den was my brother finding me.. he asked mi go bukit panjang help him buy things... i was so pissed off.. wanna buy go urself lar.. need mi? idoit.. haiz... was so angry... juz hang up the phone.. den reach home... haiz.. tok back to brother and quarrel with mother again... wanna cook maggie mee also kanna scolding.. i noe u got cook if i eat later at night n0t enoough aso kanna cook aso kanna scolding. wow lau.. wat the hell u wan..? y always mi the one getting scolding... ur SON is at home.. y dun put ur fckin anger at him... ZHONG NAN QING NU.. ARGH.... cry and cry and cry... totally no mood.. so STRESSFUL... got project, alot of things to be done by this month... wow liao... can die manz... siaoz sia all the teacher...

5:20:00 AM;

basically.. nothin much happen baz... during the last 3 period is mrs tay period... first period she tok to us about the project den sec0nd period she wanted helped from our class to move something... so there are 11 person.. LoLx.. we go up and down for a number of times.. den when goin to finish we even play around.. we follow the Home Run when the little gal was asked to dance alone when her shoes was shooting towards sharon face.. but we aim at the window.. lolx.. weiqi aim infront and at first nearLy hit a teacher.. den second time mrs tay sae u all show to mr tan if he dun wan to award us.. lolx.. den we kicked.. he like got no feeling but we are luff like siao.. kEkE.. siao ar we? lol... so fun... but when i entered the SR 5 i was damn angry.. SM sit my place.. still nvm.. dunno she got touch my computer anot.. cannot be used.. was so angry manz... haiz.. sianz diao.. went for training... den was having a slight raining.. den we still play.. den after that we see like no ppl.. we OQ juz nice got 12 ppl. jessie suggest us to break into 2 group and we play match.. we even move the net thing ourself.. was so HEAVY... LoLx... but we manage.. den we start to play... we won.. lolx.... hEhE.. even though we never play good en0ugh but ok lars.. at lease still got play.. kEkE.. den after that m0re and more ppl come.. den we finish ler den we all train to serve ball.. haiz.. was pretty hard.. and my hand so pain pain... haiz.. den around 5+ lers go check hp. got a miss call from pacific internet den mi nv care at first.. den jason came... he tok to us abt jesey.. he was givin attitude.. and i giv back.. den after that ok loh.. coz dun wanna hav war lar.. hai hai... den huiping sae wanna havin meeting den we gather den sae someone ask we not to buy... den meiping she ask weather can gather anot den we sae can.. den h0r.. i sae meiping very pretty.. den she juz sae fck u or che bye i dunno lars.. den i was like haiz. forget it lars... haiz.. den my dad came and fetch me.. and yanbin and jessie came my hse... for a while.. den i br0ught them go eat... den while eating we hav a small chat abt the follish past we used to have... haha.. was lufing like mad manz.. lolx... ok lars.. shall sstop here... go irc den after that 9+ i go ler... dun feel like stayin inside.. haiz... LuRvE HuRtz.......... die... i start to miss him or i am thinkin of ?????? i dunno lar... haiz.. dun ask mi who... wil make mi more mad... buais.... argh... today not good lars..

8:55:00 PM;

well.... basically nothing to sae.. hEhE.. everything went alright except the last period where huiping AP again.... haiz... i dunno wat are u up to.. but dunno loh.. haiz.. after sch a number of my classmate came to my house.. actualli i wantin to do project... but..... we ended up watchin vcd.. LoLx.. b4 we watch shuyi cook maggie for them to eat... she h0r.. really look like our mother wor... kEkE.. den we start to watch.. kinda boring and sianz.. so i play pool and weiqi aso.. lolx... the show not nice one.... haha... wanna sae hai shi Jian Gui 1 nice.. keke.. =Xx... den after that around 7 they went off... kEkE.. at home rot.. nothin to do and so sianz.. feel like sleeping.. nite nite.. =.-

9:03:00 PM;

I swear that I can go on forever again
Please let me know that my one bad day will end
I will go down as your lover,
your friend
Give me your lips and with one kiss we begin
Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am,
I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
I'll leave my room open till sunrise for you
I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you
Where are you now I can hear footsteps
I'm dreaming
And if you will, keep me from waking to believe this
Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you I'm lost without you

9:13:00 PM;

well today wake up early coz yst mi felt alseep at 10+ den when i wake up was 11+ as i was so tired i went to bed... so today i wake uP at 8+... i was being told to follow my mum to the market... yawns... if dun wan go sure kanna scoldin so i went.. haiz... i scare of goin to the market sia... coz i see those auntie aiy0z.. dunno how to xing rong sia... but yet next time is my turn... =Xx... =( sad sia... went to the coffee shop to eat breakfast den went to my mum coffee shop to put the food she gonna sell tmr... and while we want to cross the road we heard a bang... there was an accident... but none of the driver was hurt.. and the accident was onli by kissing each other car.. =xX den i saw my grandma and my mum had a small talk with her... den we went to the coffe shop... i saw weiling... she was with her dad.. i went to tok to her awhile den i walk off coz goin home ler.. as my mum wanted to go home and cook so that later she wan to pray my grandfather.... haiz.. i dun understand y whenever there is a things goin on there wil be quarreling between the whoLe family... and when my dad was being scolded by my mum he look sad and walk to the room and sit at the bed without saying anything... when i saw him like that i felt so sad... haiz... after that we went to my grandmother hse... my mum and i tot that my small little cute cousin will be there.. but he was sick... so he didn't went down... haiz... so sianz... was playing poOL with weiqi and play Gb with dunno de PpL... ok shaLL st0p h3r3 l3rs... wan an... tmr got sch....

8:14:00 PM;

What Is Greatness?

"The hardest task one can have is to continue to
love his fellows despite all reasons he should not."

"For the one who can achieve this, there is abundant
hope.

"For those who cannot, there is only sorrow, hatred
and despair. And these are not the things of which
greatness, or sanity or happiness are made.

"A primary trap is to succumb to invitations to
hate.

"Never use what is done to one as a basis for
hatred. Never desire revenge.

"It requires real strength to love man*. And to love
him despite all invitations to do otherwise, all
provocations and all reasons why one should not.

"Happiness and strength endure only in the absence
of hate. To hate alone is the road to disaster. To
love is the road to strength. To love in spite of
all is the secret of greatness. And may very well be
the greatest secret in this universe." -- L. Ron
Hubbard (*Man: mankind; the human race.)

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Love, of course, does not need to be physical. You
don't need to hug your boss or employee and say, "I
love you Bob!"

You simply like everyone as much as possible.

EXAMPLES

1. You are driving down the road enjoying some music
and some idiot cuts in front of you making you slam
on the brakes to avoid a collision. You send him a
mental curse and hope he has a rotten life. This
doesn't make you feel any better. In fact, you feel
irritated and start driving recklessly yourself.

You decide to be great. You try to love the person,
but the best you can do is find a little
understanding. You think, "He must be late for work"
and decide to wish him well. Within seconds, you
feel better and forget about it. You go back to
enjoying your music.

2. Two years ago, you and friend Jim bought a
delivery van together. He used it during the day to
make deliveries from his flower shop and you used it
at night to deliver newspapers to your delivery
people.

One night, your delivery man calls and says, "The
van's not at Jim's where I normally pick it up."

You called Jim who said, "Oh, I sort of rented it to
this guy."

You said, "We need it to get the papers onto the
streets."

He said, "Well, actually I sold it because I had to
pay off some bills. I'll pay you back, I promise!"

You can't believe he did this to you. You yell at
him and vow to never speak to him again. You jump in
your car and spend all night moving newspapers.

Every time you think about Jim and the van, you get
upset. Even two years later, you feel the hatred
every time you see your new van. It makes you
unpleasant to be around.

You plot revenge in several ways. You'll spray paint
his store windows. You'll ruin his credit. You'll
spread rumors about him.

But after two years, you decide to be great about
it.

You call Jim. He apologizes again and you say,
"Don't worry about it. I'm sorry too. Do you want to
go fishing this weekend?"

You feel better than you've felt in two years. Your
employees like being around you again.

3. Before you meet the new president of your
business support group you dislike her. You've been
hearing rumors and bad opinions about her all week.
For example, you heard she doesn't like real estate
agents and you're a real estate agent.

During the group's social hour, you see the new
president walking toward you. She doesn't smile when
she looks at you. You feel snubbed.

You decide to snub her back and you turn around and
ignore her. Your feel your face turning red with
anger. You start to plan how you can ruin her.

But then you decide to be great. You ignore all the
rumors and decide to love the new president.

You get introduced and give your best smile.
"Congratulations! I hope you enjoy your new position
here!" You instantly treat her like a close friend.

The new president is relieved to have a supporter.
She confides in you. "I'm so nervous about this! I
sure want to help the members of this group."

You become good friends. You find out she manages
five large apartment complexes.

She sends you so many people who want to buy
condominiums and houses that your sales double that
year.

4. You overhear one of your employees scream on the
telephone, "Well, if you don't like my attitude, you
can take your business elsewhere!" She slams down
the telephone and then sees you standing there. You
feel a little hatred as it appears she's turning
away customers.

Many bosses would say, "You treat a customer like
that again and you're fired!"

But you want to be a great boss and continue to love
your staff even when you have reasons not to.

You say, "What happened here?"

"This jerk asked me if I was new or just stupid."

"So you yelled at him and told him we didn't want
his business?"

"Right."

"Well if we don't sell to jerks, we won't make any
money and will have to lay off some staff. You need
to deal with jerks if you want to succeed on this
job. Can you do it?"

"Yea, I suppose. I'll bite my tongue and be polite
no matter what they say from now on."

"Do you need help learning how to do that?"

"No, I'll be fine. Thanks."

Being great leads to a sane, cheerful, profitable
operation.

SEVEN RECOMMENDATIONS

Below is some of the most difficult, but most useful
advice you may ever receive.

1. Start loving everyone you know at home and at
work.

2. Whenever someone gives you a good reason to not
love him or her, be great and love him or her
anyway.

3. Whenever someone invites or provokes you to hate
him or her, refuse to play the game. Instead,
generate some understanding for the person and, if
possible, some love.

4. Eliminate revenge as a purpose in your life. Who
do you want to get even with? Change that decision
to something positive, such as the desire for
prosperity for yourself and others.

5. Whenever you feel depressed (sorrow) or a loss of
hope (despair), find someone to love.

6. Make yourself happy by loving people. If you ever
feel happy and then unhappy, find where you let some
hate slip in. Your happiness will persist if you do
not feel revenge or hate.

7. Make yourself mentally tough and strong by loving
people. To maintain that strength, do not seek
revenge or agree with reasons to hate.

"To love in spite of all is the secret of greatness.
-- L. Ron Hubbard

9:54:00 PM;

A Sad But True Story..

The story start wif a guy, name Paul and a girl named Ella..

Both of were still students but had already started to 'fall in love'.. in another words, go steady.. In one of the days during their June holidays which they have been waiting for, they met each other at a basketball court.. Coincidentally, they started playing a match wif each other.. they had fun..

As Ella knew one of the frens of Paul, she asked for Paul's number.. At tat time, Paul didn't want to fall in love again, after getting so much hurt from the previous one.. Sadly, tat fren of Paul didn't give her the number..

As days went by, the holidays ended.. They met each other at another basketball near Ella's skool.. Day went by and Ella borrowed Paul's hp and missed call her own hp to get his number..

Tat very nite, she smsed Paul.. They chatted and had fun.. Till one day, Ella expressed her love for Paul.. Paul loved her much too.. after thinking 4 a long time, Paul thinks tat he and Ella would last, thus, asked her if she would be his partner.. Obviously, she agreed..

They went steady for one and a half short mths.. Ella ended the relationship.. with her parents not allowing her to go steady as a reason.. who on earth would accept tat lame reason? but Paul, like many other love victims, had no choice but to let go..

Years past and another fell in love wif Paul.. She was Mary.. Paul and Ella didn't contact for a very long time.. Paul still loved Ella very much.. but nvr had a chance to tell her.. one day, along a street, Paul was wif Mary.. Paul saw a familiar figure across the road.. guess who was tat? it was Ella.. Paul ran acrossed the road, without noticing a truck coming.. BANG!! everyone near him crowded around tat area.. Mary screamed as she rushed to Paul.. Ella joined in the crowd.. She remembered the face, one who loved her so much in the past.. Next to him, was Mary.. He wasn't dead.. 'dun give up.. say my name, 100 times, 1000 time, a million times.. u're gonna say it till u can finish a million b4 u can stop!!' Mary said to Paul.. with tears in her eyes.. Everyone thought Mary was Paul's gerl.. Standing at one side, alone, was a gerl crying.. tat's was Ella who regretted breaking up wif Paul, after recalling how nice Paul treated her in the past..

Paul was sent to the Hospital..Mary and Ella were them.. Praying hard.. An operation was carried out.. Paul didn't survive.. The Doctor came out, shaking his head.. Sighed.. He too, thought tat Mary was Paul's gerlfren, thus approached her for an apology for not being able to revive Paul.. He said to Mary: "Miss Ella.. your boyfren didn't survive.. he gave himself up after calling your name 157 times.. im sorry.."

The Doctor has actually mistook Mary for Ella.. Paul was calling out for Ella.. Ella cried in a corner.. She knew why he had stopped at 157.. tat was the day she broke wif him..(15/7)she, who ended the relationship which Paul treasured so much, has in turn, ended Paul's life..

IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE DEEPLY.. NVR LEAVE TAT PERSON.. U'LL NVR NOE WHEN U'LL NEED HIM/HER BACK IN YOUR LIFE AGAIN..TREASURE YOUR LOVED ONCE..YOU'LL NVR NOE IF YOUR RELATIONSHIP WIF YOUR PARTNER WOULD ACTUALLY MEAN A LIFE TO HIM..

4:54:00 PM;

Today wan't really a good day for every1.. everyone seems so sad and down... today we didn't really have lesSon.. onli for OCF... well, today yanbin was not in sch as she was stomach cramp... so we actualli got 6 become 5 today... haiz.. during OFC we were actualli chatting and we start to chat abt working... as weiling she sae she wanted to find jobs at Giodano. She said she wanted to go for an interview, than i dunno what was wrong with Huiping. She just use those kind of attitude and say to Weiling, she said Why u just dun wan to listen to me. But Huiping why you want to use those kind of attitude.. if you dun wan her to get cheated because u have the experience just say nicely instead of using angry tone. Ya we did say u back but i dun think we are in the wrong. and in the first place if you are sad or down due to your personal probLem dun put ur anger at other people.. As for weiling she might be ok lor nvm lor i dun mind.. but this time round you shouted and we say back u and u giv us faces... I am very angry with you... but if u think u wasn't wrong i got nothing to sae... Huiping sometimes i dun care abt u is becoz i dun like ur attitude of talking.. whenever we talk you are like using attitude.. to mi i really cannot ta han.. but wat to do sometimes hav to act nothing.. but today i really need to say it out.. because I cannot contiune let u be like that... you are hurtin people feeling... ya.. i was thinkin can i write but... i hav no choice.... if u dun like i aso dunno how le... haiz.... and do u noe that weiling and jessie so care abt u when today u are like that.. weiling tot is her fault to make u untiL like that.. yet u like tat say them... mayb u think that i am blaming u.. ya even if u are damn angry or unhappy with mi i still hav to write... as u sae dun hide things... haiz... but anyway... sorry for shouting at u back... haiz... i really find that ite ios damn sucky for us... we hav been meeting alot of problems ever since we entered clementi ite... yet sometimes we still hav fun... after sch i actualli wanna go play pool but i was too stupid enough to not to listen to weiqi as she ask we all bring clothe but i refused.. I'm Sorri... and derek was unhappy with us.. but after that everything was ok... sorri guys... next time i will listen to u all ler.. all my fault.. =,- take care guys.. argh.....miss u all lots.. espically bridget and cindy.... hope we can meet some day to go out baz... and aso... guohao b`daes coming.... it's on the 12 of April... HaIz...

7:38:00 PM;

well.. as for today... oh my goodness.. huiping and Siewfong was LATE... haha... but the one who come the lastest is SIEWFONG... haha.... yea.. went to our lesSon... Today the new CRN teacher came in the cLass. yea she wasn't wat we all think lor.. haha.. she's friendly lar... aha.. mayb onli the startin.. we played some games and jokes around... yea.. today was a fun lesson.. keke.. den we actualli wanna trick every teacher but hor.. cannot ley.. haha.. so we intent to trick Mrs Dot Tay.. keke.. we ask jessie to act sick and fainted... even reharsal sia.. Lame rite? hehe.. and we make sure whole class nv luff wor... LoLx.. den went we wanna go back class we saw dot tay den ask jessie faster act sick.. haha.. we are so bad.. but i like it... hah... so we went back to class and they start to ask mi to read the 'xing zhuo' things.. den i read ler.. awhile jessie went to sleep.. hehe.. den tay come in... but she nv notice her.. we start to act act and ask weiling to ask her wat happen.. den we start to luff but no very loud.. and mrs tay believes us... Oh my goodness.. den suddenly jessie stand up and sae.. cher actualli is APRIL Fool day.. den the WHOLE class LUff like siao.. den she act angry.. den haha.... no one kanna trick by her.. we even shout Happy April Fool with her manz... hehe... den after sch we went to our v.ball training.. well... we onli play for a while den later we go play Table Tennis... haha.. so fun... without the V.ball... and aso.. tiffany wasn't in good mood.. haiz... dunno wat happen to her aso... sad for her toO.. hope she get back to normal sOon.... den at 5.30 went h0me.... keke... online den GH and YB hor... aiyoz.. wanted to trick mi sia... but.. haha.. where got ppl handphone kanna steal nv off handphone one... wooT.. kEkE... =Xx... den hehe.. huiping kanna trick...... hahahahahahahahaha.. but my acting damn bad lar.. haiz......... aiya.. dun tok ler.. i go ler.. tmr wont go eat with u all... sorRi guys... buai.. take care... MuaCkz...

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